Home tonight by Paul McCartney
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The Beatles 是我自童年便一直喜歡著的樂隊，今年剛好成軍30年，挺值得紀念的。這隊樂隊對我影響挺深，很多時候都是聽著他們的歌聽著聽著就過了。而自從樂隊解散了之後，樂隊各人都有自己的發展。Paul McCartney亦開始發展自己的音樂事業，到現在推出了不少單曲和專輯。而今天就想和大家分享Paul McCartney的Home tonight。
第一次聽完這首歌，內心好像沒什麼波動，但是卻感覺到有些東西沿著雙頰流了下來，原來我不經不覺流淚了。這首歌帶給我的感覺就像是在狂風暴雪中，孤立無援時，有人趟風冒雪過來找你，帶領著你回去；更是擔心著你的外套會不會太薄，會不會不夠衣服。這種被關懷的感覺良久未曾感受到，也罕見地被這個感覺擊中了內心柔軟的地方。
聽這首歌的時候，剛好是我的生活一團糟的時刻。找不到人生方向、懷疑自己的能力、失去讀書的動力、期終考試的失利，這些東西一點一點的壓垮了我，我那段時間每天都會經歷最少一次心悸，以及最少一次的panic attack，接下來便是無盡的焦慮情緒。我根本沒有辦法好好整理思緒，甚至連從哪裡著手都不知道。唯一能夠讓我稍微冷靜一丁點的，就只有這首歌的歌詞和Paul溫柔的聲線。睡覺時聽著這首歌，感覺才好像安穩了一點，起碼在暴風雪中有人陪著。
有時候我很想逃避，很想脫離正在研讀的課程，很想逃跑，但是對數學的熱誠讓我暫時驅散了那種想法。但這種不斷反覆出現的fight or flight情況很快擊潰了我的防線，不但身體出現了反應，甚至心理也開始變得更加焦躁，容易有極端的情緒，例如極度傷心、極度生氣等等。這首歌便是我在失控邊緣的一根救命稻草。每次一聽這首歌，雖然情緒還是很失控，不過卻有一種舒服了一點點的感覺。
其實我不太喜歡去分析某某歌曲的意境，因為這個舉動很「藍色窗簾」。因此我希望文中聚焦的是一首歌能夠帶給我甚麼感受。而這首歌給我的感覺便是陪伴，是一種無論你處境如何，都會在你身邊陪著你、擔心你的陪伴。的確，我們身邊其實有很多人在身邊，父母、兄弟、朋友都會支持著你。可是有時候，我們需要的是獨處下的陪伴，而這首歌正正滿足了我的需要，在只能獨自面對的情況下默默以旋律與歌詞陪伴著。
//I’m taking you home tonight//
這句歌詞直譯是「今晚我要把你帶回家」，但我卻感受到另一種意思。這個時期的我其實處於極度迷惘的狀態，找不到將來的目標，也不清楚現在的我該如何走。這句歌詞對於我便好像是告訴我總會找到路回歸初心的，也總會有人陪著你，帶著你回到最初那堅定的初心。
雖然不知道大家聽完這首歌之後會不會有類似的感覺，或著對我說的話有共鳴。不過仍然希望這首歌可以成為茫茫人生路上的一個小路牌，在迷路時提供小小的指引。也告訴自己，無論如何，總會有人陪伴著你、關心著你。
後記：隔了差不多一年才真真正正重新執筆寫作，感覺文筆都生疏了許多，不過放心，應該會鞭策自己以後多點寫文和更新的，也感謝各位朋友的支持和提醒，讓我把握些少的空餘時間重新寫寫東西。
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亡魂
12/12/2020
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