其實今天的這篇有點算是上一次電台關於亡魂感情關係的故事，如果還沒看上一集的朋友們可以先去看一下。說真的，其實她是一個很好很好的女孩，只是亡魂不懂得珍惜她，傷害了她，也傷害了自己。這次想要分享的歌是Bruno Mars的When I was your man。整首歌都表達了對那個女孩的愧疚，到後面也表達了對她的歉意。而我，也想通過分享這一首歌，可能是去抒發一些抑壓已久的一些感受和想法，所以今天可能會有一些牢騷之類的，請大家見諒。
首先，第一段歌手先講述了分手後的感覺，同一張床，卻感覺比以前大了；同一首歌，卻和以前不再一樣了。和朋友談起她的時候，帶來的只有撕心裂肺的感覺。其實基本上和我的感覺一模一樣，一開始感覺沒了在旁邊的那個人，空虛感充滿了內心；以往會一起分享的回憶，也不再一樣了。也根本不願意和任何人去談論任何有關於她的東西。雖然分手的原因是冷淡之後，她對我的不信任。只是任誰和別人分手，都不會冷漠如鐵石心腸，也會有傷心絕透的時候。
其實我滿愧疚的，只是當時那種不被信任的背叛感蒙蔽了雙眼，加上當時的情緒正處於焦慮崩潰的狀態，她越找我，我越不想理她，自己的情緒也更加崩潰。這個循環讓我踏上了冷暴力的道路，最後就是大家都受著傷離去。而這個時期的我就好像第二主歌一樣，因為自尊、因為自私，讓一個好女孩離我而去。不過，如果讓我回到當時再選一次，分別可能只會在於，我不會去拖延，而是會果果斷斷的結束這一段關係，拖延只會為雙方帶來更多的傷害。
副歌講述著男主角像是告解般訴說著應該在和她在一起的時候應該要給她買花、應該要把所有時間留給她，總之就是要以她為重，把應該要做的都做。只是終於意識到要這樣做的時候，她已經不屬於他了。我倆在一起的時間也只有短短大概一個月，所以有許多東西也還沒跟她做過，當我在意識到這一點的時候，同樣的，她已經不再是我的伴侶了。
在這裏，我也不妨趁這個機會，好好的說一下，即使她未必會看，即使我們已經不再聯絡。當時的我在處理感情問題時很不成熟，在處理自身情緒的問題時也存在著很多問題。雖然可能已經太晚了，不過……對不起。雖然這句致歉已經有些晚了，不過我還是想說，對不起。我的吊兒郎當讓我倆都受著折磨；我的冷漠傷透了你的心；我的情緒把你推走了。雖然我知道這已經無可挽救，但是請給我一次道歉的機會。
今天的亡魂比較感性，也不知道是甚麼原因。可能聽到了這一首歌讓我回想起了以往的經歷，也讓我以往埋藏在內心深處的情緒重新被勾出來，這首歌以前聽著也就是一首普通的情歌 ，或是失戀歌。但是原來有了經歷之後，聽著某幾首情歌，心裏面不經不覺便會難受。可能這首歌未必能夠引起你的共鳴，不過去找找吧，始終會有一首你能夠有著共鳴的歌曲。
亡魂
19/12/2020
[歌詞]
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When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbDsNpEVb6
'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
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Take you to every party 'cause all you wanted to do was dance699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyWSIonEdN
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But she's dancing with another man
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Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOErx82n5BR
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, oh699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoeeUa8PYD
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
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That I should have bought you flowers699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0LoAWoxk7
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Take you to every party 'cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrgd2j5vCF
But she's dancing with another man
Although it hurts699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDxRzEDqUv
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkSMyA3wXx
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late699Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA42fijWA9
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But I just want you to know
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When I was your man
