係人地眼中我一直都係個好堅強好獨立嘅女人,因為我由細到大都係自己一個解決問題。曾經有個朋友同我講我呢種倔強嘅性格好難搵到男朋友,好多男人都鍾意啲弱勢啲嘅女仔,佢地就會自自然然好想保護呢種女仔。但呢幾個月係外國真係好難捱,我好想搵一個人可以依賴。我好迷惘好唔知應該點做,而家嘅我變到自己都唔認得自己。識左呀文之後我感受到我從來未感受過嘅安全感,好想比佢保護住。係佢身邊就好似一個小女人咁,咩都唔洗諗,只要做自己想做嘅嘢就得。我想做嘅嘢佢都會陪住我,係佢身邊我可以好任性咁做返自己。本身出去玩都係因為想逃避,我知咁做係出軌,但佢對我嘅傷害,令我就算出軌都唔覺得內疚。我對男人一直都有防備,我清楚遊戲規則,唔會隨便投放太多嘅感情落去。經歷過一段唔完美嘅婚姻,我已經好識保護自己,唔想再受傷害。418Please respect copyright.PENANA5F3OA4v4PJ
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呀文雖然佢同其他男仔都一樣咁識得溝女。但我地就算唔係識左唔係好耐,佢都好了解我、好細心咁留意到我嘅需要。一開頭我好主動,本身我純粹諗住玩玩下,但佢比我嘅感覺好認真,唔似我見過嘅play boy咁。我都冇諗過自己會對呀文動真情,但係佢就係有一種獨一無二嘅魅力,令我慢慢沉船。同佢一齊我嘅抑鬱症唔會發作,同佢一齊訓我先唔洗食安眠藥,佢就好似我嘅止痛藥一樣..一次又一次撫平我嘅創傷。418Please respect copyright.PENANAGkOnMwYJQr
「Nicole~Nicole?」Winkie坐左係我間房問我。我地呢兩個月嚟fd左好多,間唔中都會兩個女仔出去玩。418Please respect copyright.PENANANA8SElHWDZ
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「冇呀見你呆左咁..我岩岩問你覺得我應唔應該同男朋友分手...」佢話。418Please respect copyright.PENANAHeuKDvQjqk
「佢咁對你喎,我覺得你真係要狠心啲..」418Please respect copyright.PENANAJrwimfKuvi
「嗯..但我真係好唔捨得」418Please respect copyright.PENANAzL2TlZDaUG
「為左呢啲仆街唔值得呀!你仲後生,又咁靚女,大把機會。信我,真係唔好再留戀啦」我頭頭是道咁幫佢分析佢嘅戀情,但自己嘅問題就冇解決過。418Please respect copyright.PENANAaALgNrxRSm
「咁好啦...我諗我知要點做。多謝你呀Nicole姐,我差唔多返上去啦~」佢話。418Please respect copyright.PENANAdFdrjcv76Z
「Winkie」418Please respect copyright.PENANAzplDcFLXNV
「嗯?」418Please respect copyright.PENANAWsu5hUgOHR
「你想唔想聽我嘅嘢?」418Please respect copyright.PENANAar5VIszxdj
「想呀!但我有時唔敢問你...哈哈..」佢話。418Please respect copyright.PENANAhd8Hz1fv5D
「我可以同你講,但你一定要保守秘密」418Please respect copyright.PENANAF5e3Pu5ndw
「嗯,好」418Please respect copyright.PENANAcFDpO1FYzI
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「其實個背景同你有啲似,都係出身唔好。但唔知好彩定唔好彩,我遇到佢.........」我將我同我老公嘅經歷同左佢講,包括埋佢有第二個女人同家暴。418Please respect copyright.PENANABv6duvIbzz
「哇.......我....我要啲時間消化...」佢聽到好驚訝。418Please respect copyright.PENANA7Mzlo3d4mi
「你當聽故仔咁得啦..我都冇同人講過」418Please respect copyright.PENANA0LBhRLpoL5
「我冇諗過你地原來係咁....」418Please respect copyright.PENANAbKoFUxh2qD
「其實我都有唔好,我...鍾意左另一個男人」我話,之後我再將我同呀文嘅嘢簡單咁講左比佢聽。418Please respect copyright.PENANApBsp3a5nFz
「哇...好似電視劇咁..但你有冇諗過離婚?」Winkie問我。418Please respect copyright.PENANAyptafTwKyu
「緊係有,但係我驚我負擔唔到我媽媽嘅醫藥費。不過唔緊要啦,有你肯聽我講我已經好開心。呢件事我屈左係心好耐,一直都好想搵人呻..」我話。418Please respect copyright.PENANARyResvgOAz
「真係冇其他方法咩..?我好睇唔過眼!原來老細係啲咁嘅男人!」418Please respect copyright.PENANAPfw3LSOKBx
「我都唔知..但你覺得我應唔應該搵返個男仔」我問。418Please respect copyright.PENANAUR2t6HBZmn
「緊係搵啦!佢可能一直都等緊你搵佢,我覺得如果佢真係鍾意你嘅,一定會等你!」418Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ascso4ReA
「都係嘅..但我之前冇左部手機冇左佢contact..」我話。呀文,你係咪真係會等我。418Please respect copyright.PENANAlp3TduUDcJ
「總會有方法嘅!你有冇backup?」418Please respect copyright.PENANArtqNZg7e3r
「冇..」我話。我發現而家嘅我真係唔同左,冇左以前嗰種獨立,開始多左依賴人。如果係以前嘅我,一早就好主動咁去報警,再諗好多唔同嘅方法去解決問題..。高曉琳,你幾時變到咁軟弱。418Please respect copyright.PENANAQ43SbyqFCz
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Winkie 走左之後我再嘗試搵下有咩方法,我突然間諗起我可以download 返隻交友app搵呀賢!!然後再問呀賢咪得!我即刻單返,然後搵返呀賢出嚟,再send message 比佢。418Please respect copyright.PENANA8M7NRUsCP1
「呀賢?...我係Nicole呀」我話。418Please respect copyright.PENANAilSF6q11IG
「做咩呀?」佢隔左一陣就覆我。418Please respect copyright.PENANAXjYQV8bviz
「我換左手機呀...想要返呀文電話」418Please respect copyright.PENANAjlyZyYlGj7
「好呀,佢電話係98765543」418Please respect copyright.PENANAUd8wjRl1dF
「好~唔該哂你!」418Please respect copyright.PENANAwOIGxg9pTR
「小事啦,你同呀文點呀?」佢問。418Please respect copyright.PENANAGOWxEFDIS7
「..都係咁呀,冇咩特別。我遲啲再同你傾啦~」418Please respect copyright.PENANAdEjtouT9YM
「好啦~」418Please respect copyright.PENANAz66Qf9VTwB
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我即刻save左呀文電話,然後想wtsapp佢。我禁左入個chat room,不斷諗緊應該要打啲咩。我望住個wtsapp發呆左好耐,最後,我終於禁落wtsapp call度.....418Please respect copyright.PENANA77NpABbnNf
「嘟......嘟.........」我個心跳得好快,我到依家都唔知道究竟打比佢之後要講啲咩。418Please respect copyright.PENANAg8RK9UKReA
「嘟..........。喂?」...係佢!係呀文...418Please respect copyright.PENANArYJQ9ALVb6