清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVX0oOkRdO
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWupTG6C73Z
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WaCxX1oeR
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBSXZTEXa7
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEjVJqP9tQ
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeWIwmHdUH
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIEXxcS11t
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvEzfUsTyL
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWnfI8FPK3
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BdX9GbIsk
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6NUUtdwqS
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeg9I3BVdT
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOm0Li0lU2
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvROdQYuZcs
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TUbXYP0cB
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6lJMQ4RvP
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這個過程的目的是？355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0xYd25Aib
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8ygr5OHXb
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0phZbDvJJo
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１９９８年１２月２４日：355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRVzGuIksm
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLdNBSbUCv
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaYpm4xdGS
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只是為了生存！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqK160x4gp
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK1oxTt8CY
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ulq37cDqF
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChrNxk0PiP
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLw5hOLNuw
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvIr7yLFy6
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnwbexqzrr
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCPpf4KKt6
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhF3qzkkop
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlc6drJk8H
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7T19xsQ87
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWri9ZLr39f
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZCIUtrkLX
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9KvGZJD1A
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzeVrD5a9D
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10guCz6yPa
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「喔？為何呢？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWU4MIgufA7
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgMDRM4OwA
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想起了雙親．．．．．．355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0W8eDBu9y
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLWDDCkFkz
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0iIpJKSsw
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGRnIwfDz2
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmltlmdRWvx
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17Cqd9RBeH
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbictskrjkL
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1L742I48yb
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「你感覺到了什麼？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9zqRQ8rZk
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiSfyVL5Sk
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hiKWMlTcM
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我仍是搖頭。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTngAOe4Mz
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGAUiC5lEg
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6buYtYMhjV
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPfuQIIEtN
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRW2S7Mlyhh
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「．．．．．．．」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hMP5myzGD
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRSusYa0S5
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Gp6lGUrc5
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「是這樣子嗎？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N7psDnw0r
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8255wYLNdX
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhh328sOeGd
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzb6xS3X6Y
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OXTKrP4wC
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3APyfS6sh8
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrxBl9KebW
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMP8UL1VSi
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「我、我的水彩？」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6S8fcMk4u
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKykIYWiCV
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNPX1bVXr1
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQbxekI8pd
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIofKE57xy
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfQ6xQ9HZv
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDY6tj5Wv13
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn0ATYuEOr
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uH3bP4KOT
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英國；355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZ2hXk8DcA
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１９９８年１２月２４日；355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3l9gVuZGw
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaScCgUFVp
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2hX1A1R8c
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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