小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy4dzkhXtd
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxdHFQmeAM
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2uggobirX
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsmKvZnrhZ
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壓花書籤。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh9BCXzh8K
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGJGQwRG1M
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoRCbohHzV
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwvGXN2FWa
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOCgjhAr8p
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難道是老伴的來信？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK570aOOPKJ
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDtFRVLael
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ7CHVYfaK
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc9pcdo4q8
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xdlY104zS
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt4cLQnRha
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLLhQFxbhH
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwg65FULH2
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXqFzwtmBf
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBZHOKCa8d
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ976Ds8QkMi
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEP0opGTqF
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0J8KaUpLfk
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFN9i5g1mI
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5A4JSSlOj
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4VtzCkGi2
努力活著，只為失去？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMqiM2TQ4m
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1W9BVZgok
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53Hdd676hO
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom68kMnSef
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77TAkmzMOw
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很累。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7aMV8ctuc
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6huF3e14mH
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCdv7fYORn
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想睡。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HwJr3dnsw
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmS7tMsHiS
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJl47XM5lQ
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnjnv8MKbl
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKNLlduJYx
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2IQSPYZ9x
該要馬上包紥傷口。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk9UgZqm1e
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUthphqRmHn
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mb3QRbDw8
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS5mGwlP09
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhICZ535OVH
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBl7Gd4nS3L
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8Mlw2zxWX
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjIlzJs2KN
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2xRiDrqIK
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83mypyxds5
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpTrUle88B
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被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBD70uZqxo
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih6NMJjhvE
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KUwmvOwRF
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現在呢？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhwpUTV9jQ
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbLLgbfQ9A
她主動放棄記住他。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MfrmLtsxy
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上天或她更可惡可恨？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASDRCYH3vH
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkikfTuuNG
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix7KV1MJfh
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJYcMch1vB
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXfCjyuU7X
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagTlHgHOS3
迴光返照。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRImX5TJ1QE
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她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16Dq1UnUZi
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJb888wxpmG
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWkHPMOS1u
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqEemSqVkm
是她將一切與他扣上關連。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTl8Oaugi13
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXiQC0fGgb
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbTVVm5NKU
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FBCcntXWs
手腕倏忽劇痛。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWD0HApDAe
醫院。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTSZUKHY6S
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMBDgV73be
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMyP0mJ3Hm
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGvTSNTman
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLxyKXJ4LN
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPlhKbD0SV
當時是否不該報警求救呢？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsFkzFGRds
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這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC36LtQOPI1
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpNvjmlHrc
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhn9S1D4gT
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJROdTDZvn
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE54KBZWCvp
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eyAKRuTPT
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4Uy5ZikvF
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0wipch4te
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOc0uDg7jg
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1W7dh4lPQ
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFwkhR2BFy
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPNhyJFAIG
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOFys5yoGc
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHbO2SUBzr
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXU6kdaH83
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUW32g5qwv
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oJPhxBkhn
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFP7bk7BmyE
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v8aKXf9Ek
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwXjvqaBEM
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dzN2wDvwG
379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1lgYWzS0f
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWDlzT1Axp
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她打算怎麼處理？379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyeCn9fWne
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未決定。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3innrsMtF
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。379Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ILN6KV0A3
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
