小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oLT1hnPJk
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsPoU6NUyW
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBAoK0ay1i
是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l2awagRWR
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgFrs9KdhR
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9P7ELLo80
壓花書籤。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJVEHHuyQ0
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqlTF3wfdv
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGxQ8IuWZr
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlYXl5yHGJ
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBFxGrxkv7
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaGmGgCywI
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQooCkzLwQ
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTkzgT2Xn7
難道是老伴的來信？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRgFt1PAsn
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OHuuHNkDK
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfPjCGqw3u
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCHSPUkoFv
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCexLKU7TYG
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PbyRl28sh
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLabvMe4gUl
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgIlbaffRi
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEd6wx1y7h
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bcIiJti7p
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo6odGRp69
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxL6696twe5
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXCHWjGKVg
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHzqFoUwra
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqIi2Qs8XM
努力活著，只為失去？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvwhSmYHjH
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJNtGCkH2q
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8obmAZCEC
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jHKXKGYaB
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDWNN5GRKY
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很累。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y3aWakgF2
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB70Qmqs7S9
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAGe1I5xpq
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想睡。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52yhtLvCZA
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZLUE1gDON
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIPGBcTc8H
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPvXzYAbSg
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlNoueHlNx
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該要馬上包紥傷口。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iPhXKa7jI
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmUSM8HUSO
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu77nRZNAK
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ745NZAZG3t
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4aFNxqQ6B
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDomChiF7yt
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknRBJT3S0Y
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQx5MESQ2Bo
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡws5C0HnZQZ
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMostRbQDpw
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDbDOhmtJp
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt8EFJZFBz
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUNShVTx9T
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FtZN4FTWC
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhAyEmczrq
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PmXRjxUs0
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現在呢？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxyVesEE7E
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她主動放棄記住他。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiVJAegia9
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上天或她更可惡可恨？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6Z7Z8rln2
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世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHFnpPHU7b
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwHG4k9sol
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj8ukxvDHZ
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j0NBd5Qes
迴光返照。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQDBtQ1ngk
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她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEzUGmRx5t
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3wJYFgrSA
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIVs4mdf7v
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLBv0357WC
是她將一切與他扣上關連。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNZmMoJV6B
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7oENEQirl
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0oXf66dl7
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67UKKSMLbG
手腕倏忽劇痛。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmvtjNInA8
醫院。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog4gpVD53F
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病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpO4faPtHI
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2QPCMrDBz
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIe5pcqiGD
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4drefbhnf
當時是否不該報警求救呢？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5wVMOaM1t
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這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D2vVuby2L
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIfzGd2R6C
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOW4iwOqc3
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6n5N1yUKej
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kSofNQaiY
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1GNqTekA5
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsTmWGYh7i
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbYPbT9N3X
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYtimOxcIl
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFqMoFVZtU
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi208wWh2i
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEFqKyaUYj
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2srb7IYkbp
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYYeLAMOEN
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgXKhbN2RW
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQHYaUoO7r
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmEhIVp8WZ
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lxtJFbmOL
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfnr289Q8n
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9ob7WpfRp
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIhX9DgXhL
382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUHhvz19iW
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCM2i1BuuV
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她打算怎麼處理？382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gkwZCc62j
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未決定。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJzRyC5uwA
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。382Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXEsbtLic9
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
