A sickening feeling woke me up making me instantly dip my head into the sink. Oh no, I have to make some sort of excuse in this one or else Will would have doubts. Another pile on my throat and I threw up again. The smell of vomit makes me gag, I opened the tap letting the water wash away all the disgusting remains. Oh no...
"Love, you okay back there?" Will knocked on the door.
"Yeah, be out in a sec!"
I washed my face with soap and dried it with the towel. I gave a deep sigh. This is it, one of the signs. The appointment to the doctor was four hours away so I had time to get ready and think on what to say. I looked in the mirror, dull eyes with messy hair looked back at me. I smoothened it a bit and went out.
"What happened? Do you feel sick? Should we call a doctor?" Will looked at me worriedly handling a glass of water.
"I'm okay sweetie, my tums been reacting lately. A nice cup of peppermint tea would do the trick" I smiled at him. Lying to Will is more difficult than I thought.
"I'll get it ready, would you like to rest in the couch or stay here?
"I think some sunshine would do some wonders. Also, I'll eat later" I gave Will a reassuring hug and headed out the patio. The sun is shinning brightly making me cover my eyes. I sat down on one of the shaded chairs and inhaled the scent of nature. The smell of grass, wind, flowers, everything around me seemed to calm my nerves. Will arrived carrying a teacup and some biscuits on a plate.
"Just something to bite. I need to get ready for work, will you be okay out here?" Will placed the cup down and gave me a soft kiss on the hair. How spoiled am I to this man.
"I'll be all right, now go. Don't be like me who was almost late yesterday. You should have seen how I pedaled, I think I broke the world record" I joked lightening the mood.
Will smiled "And were you?"
"Of course not, I may not be as athletic as I look but when it comes to attendance and punctuality, I can say that I always beat the record with seconds" I laughed. Will shook his head and went back to the house.
I took a sip of my tea and munched a bit of the biscuits. I recalled on Jake. The guy who I fell in love with until I saw his true colors. I know this is not the perfect world but violence? How can a man hurt a lady to get what he wants? I don't know what has gotten into me thinking that I could change him but there are things that cannot be changed if the person doesn't want to change. All I can do is help and guide him, changing is his choice. I'm glad I left that relationship months ago. Seeing it now, I didn't know what I saw in him. Maybe I was drawn to his looks? Jake Smiles was a handsome guy, he had this innocent look in his eyes but once he traps you, the evil side appears.
"See you later love, gotta go! Love you!" Will shouted hurriedly getting in his car and fumbling with his keys.
"Love you too ! Drive safe!" I shouted though I don't know if he heard me at all.
The car roared into life and Will slowly backed and sped away. Ah. . alone with my thoughts now, what will I say to the doctor later on?
***
The smell of surgical gloves and syringes invaded my nostrils. Dr. Eleanor seems like the gentle one but I'm not taking any chances. She might be gentle now and savage later. Dr. Eleanor instructed me to lay on the bed, my upper body a bit elevated. She put on a mask and some gloves, writing something on a clipboard and eventually faced me.
"How long did you have the signs?" She scooted closer.
"Not long, I took three pregnancy tests, all of them came positive but I wanted to be sure so I decided to see you"
"You didn't plan this pregnancy?" her voice pitched a bit on the last word.
I shook my head.
She nodded "We all have our reasons. Do you experience moodiness, constipation or even cramping?"
I nodded again on all of them.
"Have you checked your breasts?"
"I'm sorry?" I wanted to laugh but I was confused.
"It is an early sign in pregnancy, your breasts swell, they become more tender. It will become more sensitive and sore. Eventually, it will likely decrease as your body adjusts to the hormonal changes"
Once Will observes this I'm doomed but so far he has said nothing and boy, would this be a delight to him. I nodded in response listening intently.
"I don't have an appointment afterwards. Would like to perform the ultrasound? Unless you have somewhere else to be" Dr. Eleanor offered kindly.
I debated, it would cost all right but I need to know now before anyone does so I agreed. Dr. Eleanor instructed for me to change in to a hospital gown while she talks to her assistant. I sat on the bed near a screen attached to a huge machine body. She motioned for me to lay down. She grabbed a container with a gel like substance and placed it on the tray, she turned on the machine.
Gently, she lifted the gown just below my breasts. Boy am I glad the doctor is a woman otherwise. I know it's a profession and it doesn't choose genders but I would feel more comfortable this way. She dabbed some cool gel into my belly and spread it around. Then she grabbed a sensor like thing and moved it around looking at the screen.
"Look, there it is. It's too early to know if it's a boy or a girl but to answer your question earlier, yes you are a hundred percent pregnant" she confirmed.
A lot of feelings swept through me anger, sadness, disappointment, excited, happy, curious and a lot more. It's really true then I smiled happily but the thought of Jake being the father gave me the chills. "How many days or weeks is that?"
"From the looks of it, three weeks to be exact"
Three weeks ago I was not pregnant but I was drunk. Three weeks when I started to date Will. Three weeks but Jake is now back and me pregnant with his child. I smiled weakly "How long will it take for the bump to be visible?"
"Usually, it depends on the body of the mother but in your case. Maybe 16 to 18 weeks, the usual morning sickness and moodiness would be frequent, you would develop weird cravings and would despise smell that to others are normal. I could help you with medication and vitamins unless you want to. . . "
She trailed off and I knew very well what she meant. "I need time to think. What food or things would I need to avoid?"
"For food raw meat, alcoholic drinks, caffeine and less on the junk foods. For things to do as of now you can go on with your everyday duties but as the days go by you'll be restricted on some thing's like carrying something big or going full hard on workouts. We can talk about those when the belly is noticeable"
I looked at the screen again giving a deep sigh, how will I deliver this news to Will?
"I'm not trying to pry on your personal life but it looks as if you're a bit disappointed. Are you feeling okay?" Dr. Eleanor spoke the words so softly I felt like I was on the cloud.
"It's just big news and a lot to take in. I could use some advice?" I looked at her hopefully.
"The best thing you could do is to talk someone about it. It helps in taking off the burden and the overwhelming feeling you have. Could be your partner but if not, a close friend, a colleague someone you trust that you know won't spread the news until you say so" 355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt23N0ScPhr
Someone I trust I repeated in my head.355Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCFxFS1Hd1
