夜色如墨，家家戶戶紛紛點起懸掛於外牆的水漣燈，水漣燈的光如清透水光，明亮了沁涼如水的恬靜夜晚。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHTAVktjYr
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悄然來訪的綿綿細雨，在水面上掀起一波波微小漣漪，雨打荷葉的輕響幽微而空靈，於朦朧的江南煙雨天聽來格外清晰。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7JdQPqRix
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這場雨已經連續下了七天七夜，對我們這些水生水長的連方鎮居民而言，可是身心舒暢的好日子，不少鎮民都會待在自家水閣裡賞荷聽雨，怡然自得。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzQkgqSjCS
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「漪洀，許久不見了，快坐下吧。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnKbTedLRW
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在青門客棧的水閣內烹茶的清漣，姿態端雅地如同被雨水清洗的蓮花，他看見我的到來，便熱情地笑著招呼我。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rtJEjQo2k
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我默默地頷首致意，坐在他對面的座位上。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMsyVFEPH6
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石桌上的茶水正被炭爐煮得暖熱，飄散出氤氳茶香，與被雨水洗得清透的淡淡蓮香，融混成更加悠遠清洌的芬芳。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeR6mcRB7n
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「來到這了，先喝杯茶暖暖身吧。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWafuP5kYPF
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清漣在我的青竹茶盞裡注入茶水，澄清的碧綠茶湯上浮盪著一枚淡粉蓮瓣，更顯雅致清趣。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFcijhBmQt
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我沒有理由拒絕，清冽茶水滑入我口中的剎那，喉舌間便凝聚了一股頗具深韻的苦澀，但細嚐到底後，舒展開來的是滲入心脾的清透甘甜。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdb5sbxq62f
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「你煮的蓮心清露，已經跟清波姨的不相上下了呢。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgAG52ev1Y
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聽見我的感嘆之語，清漣的唇角勾起欣慰卻又些許苦澀的笑，說道：「娘親已經不在了，若我不能煮出來的話，這味道就要失傳了……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOTph2jqMv
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語畢，沉默在我和清漣周遭悄悄蔓延，淅瀝瀝的雨聲在默然中迴響著。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIW5lYHeR3
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三年前，清漣和涓兒成親後，我就搬離了青門客棧，不再當客棧的夥計。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4jsPMg2BC
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我選擇在連方鎮偏僻的某處定居，成為舟夫替外來客擺渡以餬口，避免與清漣有過多接觸。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lpOnqEHnO
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清漣似乎看出我對他的刻意迴避，他沒有向我深究原因，把心思都放在青門客棧和妻子身上，我和清漣也愈漸疏離。過去十幾年親密無間的情誼，被歲月的匆匆流逝給輕易沖淡。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaimCwWk4CU
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這幾年來，即使無法化解的苦悶於胸口不斷積累沉澱，這樣的距離卻讓我獲得了心靈的寧靜，我可以學著慢慢放下這段情思，讓將來的自己能笑著說，對清漣的這份情愛只是年少輕狂的誤解罷了。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0u36TMSOIF
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但是今夜，清漣主動邀我到青門客棧品茶敘舊，不尋常的邀約讓我心底湧起強烈的不安，但隱然生出一絲的期盼，卻又讓我前來赴約……331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkHE6bz3HX
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「漪洀，如今你過得好嗎？舟夫的工作應該很操勞吧。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fZJfl1bjI
331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWFbALcjMf
清漣首先打破靜默，而我則輕啜一口茶，淡淡地道：「還好，工作再辛勞，習慣了便沒什麼，反正日子總得過下去……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3u0OZMQfil
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雖然這些年不是沒跟清漣見過面，但像這樣坐下來好好說話卻是少見，我偷偷覷看清漣幾眼，他的眉眼已擺脫年少時期的青澀稚嫩，多了幾分成熟穩重的韻味，舉手投足間展現內在本質的清俊秀雅，讓我的目光依依不捨地在他身上流連徘徊。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9yAUTLf5h
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此時我才驚覺，我對清漣的情意不但沒有消退，反而蘊積得更加深重，在看見他時一股腦傾瀉而出。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLh0JVHbGk
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難以抑止的情思滿漲於胸口，這般糾纏著我的冤孽魔障，如同無底泥沼，終究令我陷溺而向下沉淪，此生無法脫離了嗎……？331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38AIydJ3tE
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縱使內心是千頭萬緒的洶湧澎湃，我卻將其壓抑在平靜淡漠的表情之下，不讓清漣察覺到我的糾結心思。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94dZELosVJ
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「是嗎，你覺得好就好了。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhU8giswI9f
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對於我故作淡漠的回應，清漣露出釋懷似的神情，將目光投向水閣外的雨幕濛濛。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfvrW98y2e
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「以前你剛來這的時候，還老是懊惱自己學不會渡舟，但過沒多久，你的渡舟仙法就使得比我還行了。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1HAO0x6dw
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「那時你總是晃悠悠地渡著蓮舟，而我就坐在你的蓮舟上頭，天南地北地說著各種故事軼聞，一同行遍連方鎮裡的每條水路。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxMjql6epF
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「然後等到天完全黑了，我們就點著水漣燈回家，回到家後娘親都會叨唸我們一番，卻又已經煮好了夜宵給我們，就怕我們餓著了……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D7RnrAJIx
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清漣低啞的聲音滿溢懷思，宛若悠悠流水，溯回遙遠歲月的彼岸331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrdZcCNS8P
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「那些，已是好久好久以前的往事了。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBfn6cEnsI
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我淡然地提醒清漣，那段無憂無慮的日子，是我們已然回不去的往昔。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUJXI4vVm5
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「是啊，你說得對。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlMopjlNU6
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清漣從我的話裡明白了，他的心緒從記憶彼端回到當下，那一雙清明澈亮的瞳眸正對著我。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7l3RhLtaY
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那一刻，一道細微漣漪，在我死寂已久的心湖悄悄擴大。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzB9VftWyK
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「漪洀，我有件事想拜託你。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZ1zpzPYGn
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「什麼事，先說吧。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1CE7EsWjj
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我沒有直接答應清漣，因為清漣的態度誠懇而嚴肅，卻隱然透著一股訣別的堅決，讓我心裡生出一絲憂慮。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCcioqpuqu
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「我想拜託你，在我離開這裡之後，替我照顧涓兒。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTp9ab88bff
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如同一道猛雷直劈我的腦袋，我愣了半晌說不出話。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh785QqBiGB
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過了許久，我發出近乎嘶啞的聲音：「你要去哪裡？你找我來，就只是為了說這個嗎？」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAU1aMmEuzu
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「漪洀，你現在還不知道吧，我們黃朝與西方異族的戰爭，已經蔓延到武陵山南方來了。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBQhz5L9tx
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「這是前幾日投宿在我們客棧的京城商人帶來的消息，據說前方戰事吃緊，黃朝軍節節敗退，死傷慘重。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqPUeCWGxw
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清廉語重心長地說道，神情無比凝重，我已經隱約察覺到這番話背後所代表的含意……331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gHwLwynYj
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「再過不久，朝廷就要徵召新的兵源了，之前我們連方鎮因地處偏遠，所以沒有受到徵召，但我想這次徵兵令就會來到我們這了。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ncSwmkLD8
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「連方鎮裡所有入籍的男丁應該會被徵召入伍，但漪洀你不同，你是從外地來的孤兒，籍冊上不會有你的名字，你也不會被徵召。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSSkN6Mfwm
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「所以我想拜託你，在我入伍後替我照顧涓兒，現在涓兒有了身孕，留下她一人在這，我始終放心不下啊。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnW6EeBHG8w
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「這是我對你，最後的請求……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nlihAAZMM
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清漣極為哀戚地低聲懇求，坦露出最真實的軟弱及無奈。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLgBh1HMU0
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我默默的聽他說完，然後面無表情地冷然道：「你以為我會像以前那般，答應你的任何要求嗎？」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCuONNbAC8
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清漣在那一瞬面露愕然，料想不到我會這般斬釘截鐵地拒絕他。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GmZpJUVim
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「我知道我對你有所虧欠，但你忍心涓兒受苦嗎？」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP46u77Ru1
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「這話什麼意思？」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8MHefMpKj
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我感到不太對勁，風雨欲來山滿樓的強烈不安充塞我的內心。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pys6CyVur
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「我明白的，漪洀，其實你對涓兒，是有情的吧……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XoWo7J50A
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伴隨這句話朝我襲來的洶湧激流，將我整個人徹底吞沒。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0Dvurpdwx
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雖然清漣滿載哀愁的清俊面龐在我眼底無比清晰，但我的心裡卻是昏黑一片，無法多作思慮，只能用嘶啞低沉的聲音，從乾澀得發緊的喉間擠出沉重的疑問：「你為什麼……會如此想？」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve1ENMuB2e
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「其實很久以前，我就害怕涓兒會對你萌生情意，所以才會想先對涓兒表明心意。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfuJZym7xn
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「但自從我和涓兒在一起後，你整個人就變得不太舒坦，抑鬱寡歡，像是不想看到我和涓兒走得太近。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxroSVcRw9
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「所以我就察覺到你對涓兒有情，但我卻選擇忽略你的感受，因為我是真心喜歡涓兒。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpMUCHv8an
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「然而你卻因為顧慮我，一直隱忍下來，甚至在我和涓兒成親後，獨自搬離客棧。這一切都是我逼你的……我對不起你……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8umgNp4bH
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清漣鏗鏘有力的音調，把他深藏多年的心聲說得真真切切，他的一字一句都在緊掐著我的心房。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTn1HtOjGJO
331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCS20K7baV
我的劇烈心跳是無聲的吶喊，我想叫清漣不要再說了，卻發現自己發不出一點聲音。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFEW1j8q92
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「你這一生都不會原諒我也沒關係，但如果你還對涓兒有一絲憐惜，在我走後，就請你替我……」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPX0BgWhxh
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「不，清漣，你始終什麼都不明白。」331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVC3wbBf3W
331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdOaX1KShT
我冷冷吐出的這句話像猛然丟進水裡的小石子，在深靜清幽的雨夜，在清漣的雙眸中，掀起困惑驚疑的重重波紋。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HMyAmARjf
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我近乎偏執地凝視那滄桑俊雅的面容，一股油然而生的衝動，令我想對他宣洩蘊藏多年的深深情思，義無反顧地投身進那雙清澈如水的眼眸中，即使會就此溺斃也無所謂……331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HHwZw2ZmP
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但，一切都只是空想。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovRtUKKEpw
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我逕自起身踏出青門客棧的大門，將那杯還留有餘溫的蓮心清露，清漣的聲聲挽留，盡數拋在身後，只留下空寂的淅淅雨聲以及最後無言的道別。331Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk6lN9B1ul
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