夜色如墨，家家戶戶紛紛點起懸掛於外牆的水漣燈，水漣燈的光如清透水光，明亮了沁涼如水的恬靜夜晚。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cAM1LU1nu
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悄然來訪的綿綿細雨，在水面上掀起一波波微小漣漪，雨打荷葉的輕響幽微而空靈，於朦朧的江南煙雨天聽來格外清晰。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnF6KHEvq3w
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這場雨已經連續下了七天七夜，對我們這些水生水長的連方鎮居民而言，可是身心舒暢的好日子，不少鎮民都會待在自家水閣裡賞荷聽雨，怡然自得。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4jYw4ACRh
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「漪洀，許久不見了，快坐下吧。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VDq3bwDf2
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNeNCeOTok
在青門客棧的水閣內烹茶的清漣，姿態端雅地如同被雨水清洗的蓮花，他看見我的到來，便熱情地笑著招呼我。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwDz19H3Rx
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我默默地頷首致意，坐在他對面的座位上。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoIPdqHEWZ
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnrwfFVi42
石桌上的茶水正被炭爐煮得暖熱，飄散出氤氳茶香，與被雨水洗得清透的淡淡蓮香，融混成更加悠遠清洌的芬芳。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8rUMNVeQO
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「來到這了，先喝杯茶暖暖身吧。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8E6dwZ6Oc
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AueYuntlV
清漣在我的青竹茶盞裡注入茶水，澄清的碧綠茶湯上浮盪著一枚淡粉蓮瓣，更顯雅致清趣。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwHFbb91XX
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我沒有理由拒絕，清冽茶水滑入我口中的剎那，喉舌間便凝聚了一股頗具深韻的苦澀，但細嚐到底後，舒展開來的是滲入心脾的清透甘甜。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKP82EdX9M
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil3tVSRO2w
「你煮的蓮心清露，已經跟清波姨的不相上下了呢。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwR11WhGS4
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVPajkLhk7
聽見我的感嘆之語，清漣的唇角勾起欣慰卻又些許苦澀的笑，說道：「娘親已經不在了，若我不能煮出來的話，這味道就要失傳了……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHLPzc6y1n
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語畢，沉默在我和清漣周遭悄悄蔓延，淅瀝瀝的雨聲在默然中迴響著。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeMpNlf1nU
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三年前，清漣和涓兒成親後，我就搬離了青門客棧，不再當客棧的夥計。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMP1caqepc
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQjcUbJa5A
我選擇在連方鎮偏僻的某處定居，成為舟夫替外來客擺渡以餬口，避免與清漣有過多接觸。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChA6G8CvTI
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcG24XH93uc
清漣似乎看出我對他的刻意迴避，他沒有向我深究原因，把心思都放在青門客棧和妻子身上，我和清漣也愈漸疏離。過去十幾年親密無間的情誼，被歲月的匆匆流逝給輕易沖淡。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjxDI3dKN6
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVHPh4Gp1W
這幾年來，即使無法化解的苦悶於胸口不斷積累沉澱，這樣的距離卻讓我獲得了心靈的寧靜，我可以學著慢慢放下這段情思，讓將來的自己能笑著說，對清漣的這份情愛只是年少輕狂的誤解罷了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw4U3Xvy3a
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqmDamnp7T
但是今夜，清漣主動邀我到青門客棧品茶敘舊，不尋常的邀約讓我心底湧起強烈的不安，但隱然生出一絲的期盼，卻又讓我前來赴約……361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlBlU1RFPO
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXniQii5OfD
「漪洀，如今你過得好嗎？舟夫的工作應該很操勞吧。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxppIsqTgo
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoCxojX7MP
清漣首先打破靜默，而我則輕啜一口茶，淡淡地道：「還好，工作再辛勞，習慣了便沒什麼，反正日子總得過下去……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaLA7ki9oM
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJFZzPVd4R
雖然這些年不是沒跟清漣見過面，但像這樣坐下來好好說話卻是少見，我偷偷覷看清漣幾眼，他的眉眼已擺脫年少時期的青澀稚嫩，多了幾分成熟穩重的韻味，舉手投足間展現內在本質的清俊秀雅，讓我的目光依依不捨地在他身上流連徘徊。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBzcqizoNp
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAaQ3C2S1r
此時我才驚覺，我對清漣的情意不但沒有消退，反而蘊積得更加深重，在看見他時一股腦傾瀉而出。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q4Ab5OhLw
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT0JPaVQ3j
難以抑止的情思滿漲於胸口，這般糾纏著我的冤孽魔障，如同無底泥沼，終究令我陷溺而向下沉淪，此生無法脫離了嗎……？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFMDkCRYxX
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTh75eIahK
縱使內心是千頭萬緒的洶湧澎湃，我卻將其壓抑在平靜淡漠的表情之下，不讓清漣察覺到我的糾結心思。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDNSC5O5Cz
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡec3uDUrt8Q
「是嗎，你覺得好就好了。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXlTpF34eo
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXxJtxa47O
對於我故作淡漠的回應，清漣露出釋懷似的神情，將目光投向水閣外的雨幕濛濛。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFRmEBKDZr
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5924c0Qj7
「以前你剛來這的時候，還老是懊惱自己學不會渡舟，但過沒多久，你的渡舟仙法就使得比我還行了。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1R5hHklml
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34ozfpSXDl
「那時你總是晃悠悠地渡著蓮舟，而我就坐在你的蓮舟上頭，天南地北地說著各種故事軼聞，一同行遍連方鎮裡的每條水路。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyr9L4aYMv
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsKj3vBkCy
「然後等到天完全黑了，我們就點著水漣燈回家，回到家後娘親都會叨唸我們一番，卻又已經煮好了夜宵給我們，就怕我們餓著了……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnX4QHsLUYc
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbotGSa3Rp3
清漣低啞的聲音滿溢懷思，宛若悠悠流水，溯回遙遠歲月的彼岸361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJ5tbdFDVI
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「那些，已是好久好久以前的往事了。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4HMnE5aHE
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jdnnX8q44
我淡然地提醒清漣，那段無憂無慮的日子，是我們已然回不去的往昔。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxkAfjMcSh
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRHlDtlNkA
「是啊，你說得對。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGpnX1PCjk
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsli8SG6cB
清漣從我的話裡明白了，他的心緒從記憶彼端回到當下，那一雙清明澈亮的瞳眸正對著我。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBb8hHI9PxJ
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8IYeqLzLM
那一刻，一道細微漣漪，在我死寂已久的心湖悄悄擴大。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPCvIb7rFq
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vlG65wqPU
「漪洀，我有件事想拜託你。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKm1UTlGmMH
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9suHuMdkV
「什麼事，先說吧。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbg6w8Yogg
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBFSfvIn7u
我沒有直接答應清漣，因為清漣的態度誠懇而嚴肅，卻隱然透著一股訣別的堅決，讓我心裡生出一絲憂慮。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9FRJTsHLm
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ANt8G9hKo
「我想拜託你，在我離開這裡之後，替我照顧涓兒。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYHOchI0vB
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf70aEN0maE
如同一道猛雷直劈我的腦袋，我愣了半晌說不出話。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dFuiBYFgC
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0YmReFxfp
過了許久，我發出近乎嘶啞的聲音：「你要去哪裡？你找我來，就只是為了說這個嗎？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZbs9ldqKF
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52AkwO37uv
「漪洀，你現在還不知道吧，我們黃朝與西方異族的戰爭，已經蔓延到武陵山南方來了。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh9EfLYqzg
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Cf9zCmBP1
「這是前幾日投宿在我們客棧的京城商人帶來的消息，據說前方戰事吃緊，黃朝軍節節敗退，死傷慘重。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5I35xGMoi
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Yui6iwTnK
清廉語重心長地說道，神情無比凝重，我已經隱約察覺到這番話背後所代表的含意……361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvfxfuTAtB
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcZ5oYlwVZ
「再過不久，朝廷就要徵召新的兵源了，之前我們連方鎮因地處偏遠，所以沒有受到徵召，但我想這次徵兵令就會來到我們這了。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcH8jhMomo
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc1sB1u2Sv
「連方鎮裡所有入籍的男丁應該會被徵召入伍，但漪洀你不同，你是從外地來的孤兒，籍冊上不會有你的名字，你也不會被徵召。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddTFb6dpm7
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQT8aSwaZk
「所以我想拜託你，在我入伍後替我照顧涓兒，現在涓兒有了身孕，留下她一人在這，我始終放心不下啊。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoARATIonF
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZwRsfmpSF
「這是我對你，最後的請求……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn04sFmEpE3
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNapGc6h4nz
清漣極為哀戚地低聲懇求，坦露出最真實的軟弱及無奈。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dzfD5INkb
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi1wnRVjmi
我默默的聽他說完，然後面無表情地冷然道：「你以為我會像以前那般，答應你的任何要求嗎？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01UVjiCNJ7
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxyk6Gm2QC
清漣在那一瞬面露愕然，料想不到我會這般斬釘截鐵地拒絕他。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUWfi8R121
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESNxYEwBsa
「我知道我對你有所虧欠，但你忍心涓兒受苦嗎？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWNLgsLgo8
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdNK8pcJC0
「這話什麼意思？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnBEArVFRc
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBisyPGSqY
我感到不太對勁，風雨欲來山滿樓的強烈不安充塞我的內心。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXPaIgQFzf
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE59Ea9qTZ
「我明白的，漪洀，其實你對涓兒，是有情的吧……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gsOTptDUF
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrWb68b952
伴隨這句話朝我襲來的洶湧激流，將我整個人徹底吞沒。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOzCQG23DZ
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiLKUCNg7L
雖然清漣滿載哀愁的清俊面龐在我眼底無比清晰，但我的心裡卻是昏黑一片，無法多作思慮，只能用嘶啞低沉的聲音，從乾澀得發緊的喉間擠出沉重的疑問：「你為什麼……會如此想？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sbBlrjK9y
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFBzUXpeA0
「其實很久以前，我就害怕涓兒會對你萌生情意，所以才會想先對涓兒表明心意。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt12G33MzUe
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDEXLddGWb
「但自從我和涓兒在一起後，你整個人就變得不太舒坦，抑鬱寡歡，像是不想看到我和涓兒走得太近。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h2baJwJTe
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpuIE5gAdh
「所以我就察覺到你對涓兒有情，但我卻選擇忽略你的感受，因為我是真心喜歡涓兒。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhPaGgfsZu
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOWpXjok7h
「然而你卻因為顧慮我，一直隱忍下來，甚至在我和涓兒成親後，獨自搬離客棧。這一切都是我逼你的……我對不起你……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIvagLLRi3
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhn4Rqeq36
清漣鏗鏘有力的音調，把他深藏多年的心聲說得真真切切，他的一字一句都在緊掐著我的心房。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL8MbsGbX9
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq0GE17NDh
我的劇烈心跳是無聲的吶喊，我想叫清漣不要再說了，卻發現自己發不出一點聲音。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w01Puyu8Q
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHL0ZTbPkG2
「你這一生都不會原諒我也沒關係，但如果你還對涓兒有一絲憐惜，在我走後，就請你替我……」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzDcTjRrYi
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzehRlonSu
「不，清漣，你始終什麼都不明白。」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF4O9zQbOH
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRT87Qaimqn
我冷冷吐出的這句話像猛然丟進水裡的小石子，在深靜清幽的雨夜，在清漣的雙眸中，掀起困惑驚疑的重重波紋。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdCgbQyCg6
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxW6xt8osI
我近乎偏執地凝視那滄桑俊雅的面容，一股油然而生的衝動，令我想對他宣洩蘊藏多年的深深情思，義無反顧地投身進那雙清澈如水的眼眸中，即使會就此溺斃也無所謂……361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMa15fCvlN
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5JhtTGg8E
但，一切都只是空想。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqytc3K6QOi
361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNvi6xrZP1
我逕自起身踏出青門客棧的大門，將那杯還留有餘溫的蓮心清露，清漣的聲聲挽留，盡數拋在身後，只留下空寂的淅淅雨聲以及最後無言的道別。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZcSYEkR1M
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