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I think I stood in the doorway for about eternity,staring at the vision that lay before my eyes.I didn't quite understand it. We had been in the same class for 6 years but that morning, I saw something that had so deftly escaped my notice all those years. It was like an epiphany. He was beautiful,the way only he could be beautiful. Just then he looked over and smiled at me. A slow smile that started from his perfect mouth and spread all over his perfect face, like the first rays of the sun at dawn spreading through the sky while bathing everything it touched in a soft,happy glow.
In that moment,I felt it happen. Something shifted inside me and my fingertips tingled. I was going to slowly understand that was the feel of my mind and all common sense I had slipping out of place and shattering into a million indiscernable pieces.
For years to come I would remember that moment and wonder if it had really happened. I would remember how I had thought it to be the best moment of my life, though many more have come after.
Like the times I would stare at him while the teacher droned on about algebra, wondering how such perfection could exist. And how my thumping heart leapt for joy when he quietly took my hand in his on graduation day and said he had something to tell me, all the while looking at everything else but my face.
I would also remember the moment he told me it would have to end, the long lashes I always thought he didn't deserve shading his eyes so I couldn't look into their haunted depths and see what he was really feeling.
And the moments after when I thought the pain would rip me apart, and the ones I had when I went away to university and made up my mind to be happy even when I felt like I had lost my soul. The nights I would let my mind wander while those thoughts slowly morphed into dreams.
And that glorious moment on a cold December morning while I sat alone on the beach. I remember it quite clearly; me sitting there lost in my errant thoughts when that voice that had haunted my dreams for 6 long years came drifting lazily through the soft breeze, singing my own name into my ears. I looked up and there he was in front of me. I'll never forget that one.
And then,the wonderful one when he quietly slipped the ring on my finger while I stared at him with teary eyes, not quite believing it was actually happening.
But none of them came close to that first moment,me standing in the open doorway of SSS3A,staring at him shamelessly while he smiled at me from his seat in the middle row,surrounded by people I wasn't seeing.
"Are you going in or what?",a voice behind me said, bringing me out of my reverie. I blinked and stepped into the class.That first step onto the roller coaster ride that was to be the rest of my life.
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