兩年前，剛考完公開試的我本來收到美術大學的取錄通知，不過母親以前途為由，要求我留在出生地完成會計學位。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeEmCpSifp
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要說一點後悔也沒有的話，那是騙人的。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51vw7OcWrK
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只是，我知道希望我讀完會計學位的不只有母親。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6plkMDosQ
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJLFtOZn93
畢竟從父母的角度想，把女兒交給一個以漫畫家這種虛無飄渺的職業為目標的人，會感到不安也是人之常情。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyskWNIbnge
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所以，我讀這個會計學位不只是為了母親，更多是為了我和她。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllWF9G5UeT
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPpx69hNZl
我搖頭：「點會？又冇人規定要讀美大先可以畫畫，就算我而家讀會計，一樣可以畫呀。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXN1pVRWyA
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJI4PfYeyQV
她定眼看了我一會，良久吐出：「咁好啦。」說罷開始把玩起手上的iphone。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNzyIFuWNL
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnMMAVBz3A
我以背向她的姿勢躺到床上，把屈曲的手臂當作枕頭。我想望著漆黑的晚空會讓我快點入睡。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhteyLLwsBb
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除了因為明天早機以外，還要趕在我的理智消失，對旁邊的她做出什麼之前。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH9zUpbufP
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGsbkplIKh
額…雖然這樣說很奇怪，畢竟我和她在一起已經一段時間，但長期分隔兩地的關係，像這樣子睡在同一張床的機會少之又少，那種事情當然也是一次也沒有做過。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjn09V1YYyd
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwajUIv2dJ
不知是否太少親近她，每當我鼓起勇氣想要做什麼越界的事（說是「越界」絕對也很奇怪…），總會在最後關頭被無謂的羞恥心給阻撓，每次也不能成事。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjETvvhM3IU
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我甚至想，如果再是這樣子下去，我或許要看心理醫生了吧…439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHrOSW74ke
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmL0aRCDBPR
旁邊不時傳來她的輕笑，大概是在ig瀏覽著那些無聊的迷因圖。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9yPVvk2ew
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWpHlHhEia
忽爾，背後傳來她的聲線：「要唔要熄燈呀？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2s1Z2efe3
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被她這麼一說，我才想起——的確還沒有關燈。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzyH2gGXky
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIeSGHB1pA
房間的燈掣長在比較近她的床邊櫃上，不好意思勞煩她的我只好把手臂繞過她的身體，去觸碰那些遙不可及的按鈕。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PJ9NfIfIe
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把身體湊向她時，她好像瑟縮了一下。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7jz1Lldst
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83V5XWcZNG
嚓——房間陷入漆黑一片，只餘下光線柔和的小夜燈。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJvaVMVyF6
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIkEmtgk9r
她依然目不轉睛地望著iphone屏幕，在白光的反射下，她的睫毛顯得比平日更為修長，我不禁看得入神。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhx44vf3ia
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF4LPYjRnb
在黑暗的籠罩下，她大概沒有察覺我的視線，然後大概是看到了什麼爆笑梗圖，發出了凌碎笑聲。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslbk95WZed
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我禁不著問：「睇到咩咁好笑呀？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ok35VzWrc
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她把iphone翻轉，讓我看到屏幕那方。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs927h4NNQH
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我花了兩秒才認出照片裏那個正在奔跑的男生正是自己，背景是不知名的荒山野嶺。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21qxtZ95fL
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5IFppGcUk
「…聯校宿營嗰陣嘅相？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHYV4Cd9N2
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I5T154G9d
她聳了肩：「嗰陣見到就好想影低，你唔覺得你個表情好好笑咩？」說罷又笑了兩聲。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgzEl9dNLL
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3Xj8z0JnR
「好笑？on9咋掛？」望著那張呆頭呆腦的臉，除了這個形容詞，實在想不到其他合適的。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBpkGvH4I
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIw8D8dN2c
「唔係，係閃閃發光。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8RI4aFvoB
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這什麼形容詞啊…。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeW7nC9IMGR
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「…傻妹。」我拍了她的頭。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ipiUrJbfH
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW76Z8eAoq
她雙眼悄然垂下：「嗰段日子，真係令人懷念。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJBnoWvEXE
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聯校宿營，充滿回憶的兩日一夜。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRSEs791jS
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我把照片往左邊掃，才發現這傢伙私藏的比我想像還要多，儘管拍的角度不同，動作和表情也有著微妙差異，但每一張的共通點都是那時候我的一副呆相。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBMPB42X4a
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「點解碌極都有，你影咁多做咩？」總感覺，有點害羞…439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvDmmHL2DL
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBXx2XsmYV
「因為鍾意囉。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHQv6XGFGz
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVgSx5DlHy
乜你鍾意影相架咩？——即使再笨拙，我也說不出這樣的話，尤其和她一起這段時間，我知道她是偶爾會發出一記直球，把我弄得面紅耳赤的類型。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqvCz4WgGI
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepY3Qg85WW
換言之，為了避免她說出「我係指我鍾意你」之類令人害羞的說話，我選擇閉上嘴巴。
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