兩年前，剛考完公開試的我本來收到美術大學的取錄通知，不過母親以前途為由，要求我留在出生地完成會計學位。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRF6naAd9l
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要說一點後悔也沒有的話，那是騙人的。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0ISjRZaYr
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只是，我知道希望我讀完會計學位的不只有母親。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf7SSRdwDK
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畢竟從父母的角度想，把女兒交給一個以漫畫家這種虛無飄渺的職業為目標的人，會感到不安也是人之常情。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ipLBD1Izw
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所以，我讀這個會計學位不只是為了母親，更多是為了我和她。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6aPGiI9Xg
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我搖頭：「點會？又冇人規定要讀美大先可以畫畫，就算我而家讀會計，一樣可以畫呀。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBqxJUY0x3
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她定眼看了我一會，良久吐出：「咁好啦。」說罷開始把玩起手上的iphone。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYA3vL6ck1O
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我以背向她的姿勢躺到床上，把屈曲的手臂當作枕頭。我想望著漆黑的晚空會讓我快點入睡。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCedDIzIh4
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除了因為明天早機以外，還要趕在我的理智消失，對旁邊的她做出什麼之前。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29iXqDTny8
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額…雖然這樣說很奇怪，畢竟我和她在一起已經一段時間，但長期分隔兩地的關係，像這樣子睡在同一張床的機會少之又少，那種事情當然也是一次也沒有做過。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDygRePp46
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不知是否太少親近她，每當我鼓起勇氣想要做什麼越界的事（說是「越界」絕對也很奇怪…），總會在最後關頭被無謂的羞恥心給阻撓，每次也不能成事。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDrl9Tp1Nz
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我甚至想，如果再是這樣子下去，我或許要看心理醫生了吧…457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbnbPDEt8b
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旁邊不時傳來她的輕笑，大概是在ig瀏覽著那些無聊的迷因圖。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdT0F40IoWx
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忽爾，背後傳來她的聲線：「要唔要熄燈呀？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKdv1BwrCU
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被她這麼一說，我才想起——的確還沒有關燈。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDhueyYQIB
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房間的燈掣長在比較近她的床邊櫃上，不好意思勞煩她的我只好把手臂繞過她的身體，去觸碰那些遙不可及的按鈕。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75ZgJx9MSK
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把身體湊向她時，她好像瑟縮了一下。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACSu4nFZkh
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嚓——房間陷入漆黑一片，只餘下光線柔和的小夜燈。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI90wpx0RzT
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她依然目不轉睛地望著iphone屏幕，在白光的反射下，她的睫毛顯得比平日更為修長，我不禁看得入神。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj9vVlXQUp
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在黑暗的籠罩下，她大概沒有察覺我的視線，然後大概是看到了什麼爆笑梗圖，發出了凌碎笑聲。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjIDfJnje6
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我禁不著問：「睇到咩咁好笑呀？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97gthgoxdc
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她把iphone翻轉，讓我看到屏幕那方。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApLVRUjfHh
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我花了兩秒才認出照片裏那個正在奔跑的男生正是自己，背景是不知名的荒山野嶺。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4kb7zdRb1
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「…聯校宿營嗰陣嘅相？」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MI6hB5RYW
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她聳了肩：「嗰陣見到就好想影低，你唔覺得你個表情好好笑咩？」說罷又笑了兩聲。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX840Uc8W27
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「好笑？on9咋掛？」望著那張呆頭呆腦的臉，除了這個形容詞，實在想不到其他合適的。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZSwWJLNgM
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「唔係，係閃閃發光。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6JnnS8cbu
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這什麼形容詞啊…。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwENS0FwXuD
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「…傻妹。」我拍了她的頭。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioIiNFNnEE
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她雙眼悄然垂下：「嗰段日子，真係令人懷念。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTRbewROz8
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聯校宿營，充滿回憶的兩日一夜。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Y6KmvWiZM
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我把照片往左邊掃，才發現這傢伙私藏的比我想像還要多，儘管拍的角度不同，動作和表情也有著微妙差異，但每一張的共通點都是那時候我的一副呆相。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6mnISrA3D
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「點解碌極都有，你影咁多做咩？」總感覺，有點害羞…457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7uagJ0f4X
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「因為鍾意囉。」457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt8B2LA3Me
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乜你鍾意影相架咩？——即使再笨拙，我也說不出這樣的話，尤其和她一起這段時間，我知道她是偶爾會發出一記直球，把我弄得面紅耳赤的類型。457Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9rQMh38Rp
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換言之，為了避免她說出「我係指我鍾意你」之類令人害羞的說話，我選擇閉上嘴巴。
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