兩年前，剛考完公開試的我本來收到美術大學的取錄通知，不過母親以前途為由，要求我留在出生地完成會計學位。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzWUj9m8jY
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要說一點後悔也沒有的話，那是騙人的。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8bdhD0VCf
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只是，我知道希望我讀完會計學位的不只有母親。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cErZD1Z1L
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7LOQ0xPOE
畢竟從父母的角度想，把女兒交給一個以漫畫家這種虛無飄渺的職業為目標的人，會感到不安也是人之常情。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfJDKZ7tzK
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所以，我讀這個會計學位不只是為了母親，更多是為了我和她。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0WiCqw1QD
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaELi29Gb2K
我搖頭：「點會？又冇人規定要讀美大先可以畫畫，就算我而家讀會計，一樣可以畫呀。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1M95OP3Vl3
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19gYu0qQbO
她定眼看了我一會，良久吐出：「咁好啦。」說罷開始把玩起手上的iphone。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VGEjyWqCs
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpsv98QNgp
我以背向她的姿勢躺到床上，把屈曲的手臂當作枕頭。我想望著漆黑的晚空會讓我快點入睡。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77m5E19Eb5
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SEJDAke1p
除了因為明天早機以外，還要趕在我的理智消失，對旁邊的她做出什麼之前。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXICNfhMQb8
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx0OD6rd93
額…雖然這樣說很奇怪，畢竟我和她在一起已經一段時間，但長期分隔兩地的關係，像這樣子睡在同一張床的機會少之又少，那種事情當然也是一次也沒有做過。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95K3gw6ujr
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV4RALJMs5
不知是否太少親近她，每當我鼓起勇氣想要做什麼越界的事（說是「越界」絕對也很奇怪…），總會在最後關頭被無謂的羞恥心給阻撓，每次也不能成事。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDndjPkQlX
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQLZ9QqmIA
我甚至想，如果再是這樣子下去，我或許要看心理醫生了吧…438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ChrkzaxNb
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0jtTm8pYd
旁邊不時傳來她的輕笑，大概是在ig瀏覽著那些無聊的迷因圖。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNt1enhRcW
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7KFWPLGtR
忽爾，背後傳來她的聲線：「要唔要熄燈呀？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFAZ1QN7RX
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被她這麼一說，我才想起——的確還沒有關燈。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6azV83lD6
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstKBfQ9j1s
房間的燈掣長在比較近她的床邊櫃上，不好意思勞煩她的我只好把手臂繞過她的身體，去觸碰那些遙不可及的按鈕。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmS9ZTRdKj
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WQrOUALMb
把身體湊向她時，她好像瑟縮了一下。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LuF3CdG63
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1FxbTe5bc
嚓——房間陷入漆黑一片，只餘下光線柔和的小夜燈。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWN8ZIP4Ic
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LPuJeq3hY
她依然目不轉睛地望著iphone屏幕，在白光的反射下，她的睫毛顯得比平日更為修長，我不禁看得入神。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZbyqL3Blv
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFzzilfA6O
在黑暗的籠罩下，她大概沒有察覺我的視線，然後大概是看到了什麼爆笑梗圖，發出了凌碎笑聲。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KaKdxRZTU
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6fhPK3vtM
我禁不著問：「睇到咩咁好笑呀？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOCdm0Urgw
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她把iphone翻轉，讓我看到屏幕那方。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGGW8y1p0g
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ84Bcv3N5I
我花了兩秒才認出照片裏那個正在奔跑的男生正是自己，背景是不知名的荒山野嶺。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3itYY5uN3
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOjPhkXrmi
「…聯校宿營嗰陣嘅相？」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAf6RRXZg3
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcVGyCmcSD
她聳了肩：「嗰陣見到就好想影低，你唔覺得你個表情好好笑咩？」說罷又笑了兩聲。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH0xnLXY49
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8jZiPeWoJ
「好笑？on9咋掛？」望著那張呆頭呆腦的臉，除了這個形容詞，實在想不到其他合適的。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYI6QO0ULot
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94lXx3LmZb
「唔係，係閃閃發光。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tLCDw2BPZ
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9ASrn3XzT
這什麼形容詞啊…。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUECBQ4pCQu
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQMJFc2lfI
「…傻妹。」我拍了她的頭。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVLiPfFM85
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她雙眼悄然垂下：「嗰段日子，真係令人懷念。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡootR6UiFrV
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聯校宿營，充滿回憶的兩日一夜。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqAFJ2bOxR
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl96sWHy2p
我把照片往左邊掃，才發現這傢伙私藏的比我想像還要多，儘管拍的角度不同，動作和表情也有著微妙差異，但每一張的共通點都是那時候我的一副呆相。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFUqAfZChE
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVnJtPstiW
「點解碌極都有，你影咁多做咩？」總感覺，有點害羞…438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMItvCAf9pw
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt936tUrsAE
「因為鍾意囉。」438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4LjGalqXc
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppCCRA7F2P
乜你鍾意影相架咩？——即使再笨拙，我也說不出這樣的話，尤其和她一起這段時間，我知道她是偶爾會發出一記直球，把我弄得面紅耳赤的類型。438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhC5UVapPA
438Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1gpCkil2P
換言之，為了避免她說出「我係指我鍾意你」之類令人害羞的說話，我選擇閉上嘴巴。
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