You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVSpidDxkl
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN585727YTV
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTQuXjCast
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A5MyNeEMF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBpTEr2Po7
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJt4lVvHSV4
He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjJOyh9E8C
"I just want to go home," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv55OGnqUDs
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehWRPPhwPI
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlqWwxMkJQ
Father sighs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzSRY3dRii
I say "I don't want to stay here!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1SxVXIacr
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyLDTIJbby
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVvDlBjUER
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5igEl5IDD
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByjZKmuxY9
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cn9EOCE39
"Pet, come down from the tree."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCVMVkGx4R
I stay silent.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpMPqVMXnf
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0H2cmKPLa
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXwZzaD6gC
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgiwjTN3AV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpgH6iPMkI
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZh1bylhHv
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2Z1rzsU8q
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchPeaCBEwu
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7oKbb5UO7
I say, "Please don't hurt me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBp0j6JAmw
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCxd2XMCZ4
I say, "Please don't!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqJ64GFM6Y
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro7YCQapjE
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNbNoq2Mx2
"You'll find out soon enough, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDYgRMj2iX
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGO2ZOcsYd
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pQV76jxEZ
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDTJt3267r
It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ7J9SUJD2
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE88IgqPb1F
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ362X5RwboI
I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WU0fFVH1S
"Are you ready, child?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2A2fx9HzZ
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmSHPNlAir
I nod and say, "Y-yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtPIcUt0Wu
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMuHbdQQmn
"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡospur2dUty
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpQiUx1b2w
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdX8Cudj99
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAUyC15udI
I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfZoEziJu3
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTeiLi72eW
I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzcpTQHZ3r
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetnI7BdsCu
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3bq0dnipD
Father says "Good. Stay there."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykvvzjj4xI
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVD3yIWR2s
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRxp2TsiLY
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBhaz5uSZX
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX24IDPqvvi
"Please!" I whisper.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMIFkQP57N
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmchiJbKTA
I scream loudly.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS4xaVvaVz
My scream echoes throughout the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBaVu939IK
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8PYLmydLz
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYb0wX7ssc0
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa55bkdED2u
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTlNatVaF3
I say "P-please s-stop.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQvZaeBVun
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgPhxUf1EI
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HNVY6URRP
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhouxNUZOx
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2ahrWn6qZ
"Look at her," another says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO4tRqwdsd
I say "Please leave me alone."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDohqWMXqnE
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAY2Bu0345
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0bKl7tcSQ
"We'll see. Let's see."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjG6aHAq3F
I say "No no no.." They laugh.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ367w7nJZzo
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZnT7re8S2
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeXsUC818x
They untie me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMfTDiSRI5
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v3CjfaFD1
"Ah... you're up," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXCsJZvQ5M
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeraRw0YnJc
"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lomOC1a4l
"Where were you?" he asks,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowQCgkYfSs
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomdGE22hUJ
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevvTDgPrl5
Father smiles.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOD8ZLMivl
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW69pVNriYy
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA3C7zbdVn
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrl6zCsgm4J
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ajpwFxRTU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhXfSdTNxq
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnhEqPu8eq
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUIDVKcFa8
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34bJvuoYq7
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX2M6QxzE2
I say, "Please let me go!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBIaxXA2Z8
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdtXP4znCV
"You will," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhqIF0Pck0
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPB03frMzR
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdc6eu1q1G
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD0Bha7JGv
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgmcXDbbgN
"Stop crying," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmH0hw8JG3b
"I can't!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHlMf7Ypll
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFtyeGgh3
"Stop it!" I cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxLczPELxx
"I said stop it!" he yells,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAAcZDWuhp
"I can't," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiDfhdiilf
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTxejWHBym
"NO!" Father screams.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97HiozhpYJ
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs2y8mLABF
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP5bzfcIkq
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLqPzKgRd
"I would. I really would."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ99XZWT4rM
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ln6R8OGj2
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWaFRQ1pUB
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDTskjeQXt
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRYzNxG9KH
I say, "No I'm not!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dWacZJY6a
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NgnwP5hK7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgwHsRls9k
I say "No I won't!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV0zQVpdWr
"You will!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINZtx10nZb
"I said NO!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kZE7yShOO
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6F39CY3Mm
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfQEP2csgx
"I know you will," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpiAJeCv2v
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTv5Sjk62r
He says "One."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQeJVvl4hc
I say, "I'll do anything.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFgZwNGTDO
"Two."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmPvDfxLxe
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuPzD6VCZO
"Three."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PFTWoEaaA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZq5AfwTBj
"No, don't do it," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSAPcPSsTz
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVFNoNawTA
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe85EGEKAK
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB2yY49GrQ
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KkuklfqZr
I say "Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvamkYZ8Cy
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8o5f3PaS4
"Yes," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdpuRWvXeW
"Good girl," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucBcfsq9Tf
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY4AxXNwL6
"I won't," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKDnyj6DaI
I stay tied up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡal9mx6SBnx
"Now," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz5nA2YSmN
"Kneel."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGiBVpNgQQ
"Please," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyl9za1I3ax
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkCtfQofzS
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4YYWubcc0
I just know it.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqPRDA1hro
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndzYJ7i8pY
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNOu1YVA5D
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeRQWa8rLq
I'm all alone in the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfwrIrJcYq
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVGvelmW6K
I hear the door open. I look up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36Xv4NFls2
"Hello," a man says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOiqw7YgkS
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfepo1PNHS
"Hands behind your back," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvYZYzgokC
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zbvvLm0VI
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmNUgFi1lu
"Stay there," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tltNrMdRu
I stay on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zjYSs39nR
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vnPHHdoOf
I say "No no no."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINzVRF5uRl
"Do it," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7pvASB8B7
I say no. He pushes harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRysFdKweA
"Do it!" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkC6NISSQV
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3z3HOFgjc8
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK5Rp6BurT
"Stay there," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVUTlRxNEG
I stay on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ3Nj8qjwc
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzadpe163Oj
"Stop moving."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwlr1WIuQj
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKdMf86JHw
He pulls it out of my throat.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbTL5uiy90
"What's wrong?" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTU8nlJX0G
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVxMLxXt97
"What?" he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2plGscmcrH
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOiF3XhbTj
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVpY43Tmsd
"Is this too big for you?" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvW3pHmdaC
I nod.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUW7TdvfOQ
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtutJnLmZJ
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGzmc3j669
He shoves it back in.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96XtwISh57
I decide that vomiting once is enough.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LJGUWSZsM
He shoves it in deeper.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmKNIn8r5A
I struggle and fight.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSLGoTZSZj
"Stop fighting me," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwqF7liG06
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3CxWsCpJf
"Get dressed," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEywVkqqgqQ
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEA2WcMnXc
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjMUZBC7dG
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz0C08dVCj
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8NNVcUYXh
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WIfNyw1EA
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZsvFcHfq6
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrJNELdf2n
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ULMXq6Gr5
I say, "Where's dad?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jTD62IrRD
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0cYlhsXch
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdfSW6P9bH
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpeljLY8kl
My father says, "Where have you been?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr0z3gLLCF
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVL4ABKppp
"Did they hurt you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBieJylMG5z
"Yeah," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQ1Gr02b3q
"I'm sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXJRlX9uWo
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeiwe2BPHY
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINuVyS5zLm
"Is Allie in here?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4niQbmF7X
My dad says, "Yes, why?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14bpR5Rqak
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfMPs2noGS
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1GfLvQ0nF
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bgh2agMhT
"No." I respond,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW92hFpKcfh
"Can we come in?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhIaBnWHgb
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1G5HveQD8
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0xC55PIgd
I say, "I don't know."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCml3lhIjl
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8EHc4B8Um
"No." I say,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESB8UFn7il
"Are you sure?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUxoVm1WHj
"Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDvjxKAOd0
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdi3bGSf58
"Did he give you any food or water?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBI6nw6TPrS
"No." I respond.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU566EO16G6
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1QHKh80o3
"No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG64AoyRiCT
"What did he do to you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXIjVTInDP
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkGLtxu5zq
"Did you fight him?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDVVPO7p4n
"I tried."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtLNGrpIZM
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfSa7rIzmV
"I think I blacked out."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8MpFenMU0
"I see."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKWmVMfe5F
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa5ajJILRS
"And how long were you with him?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfKtduYrlY
"I think about ten hours."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHa7i6fp1a
"And you only just managed to escape?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnvuxHrtH8
"Yeah."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXPcxsABNT
"Do you know where you were?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxA9csnZa5
I say "No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQBcVgh0vm
"What is the last thing you remember?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbV1XEyOuw
"I remember walking down the road."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXYvMhFU6r
"And then?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3Q5ZjaH9I
"I don't remember."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcPVXE88gV
"Do you know how you got away?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXZ5Ik58pQ
I say, "I just ran,"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILLWlDGdT5
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT64PFtry54
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4Cy2IHWGW
I say, "So that's how it all happened."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPIQHRIPfC
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31C1FzMI0c
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnko0mquFi
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgaopdmgwZ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqO07b2UlVI
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4BxWDghm8
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F2uX2DSTu
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjxesYIWbc
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5FK9hN3pL
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex0H9GPbw0
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrHJcmU1pb
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdaipf1JVW
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OVwXsUZCy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBYez83Qzf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVUrTMHuqF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KWEDZHzkN
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhmiDE56oj
I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWlXtZOcBE
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOp2TUhNGc
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5h5rCs2yU
At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfzn2Jbb2I
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspJwiOizUA
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwt5N1fnW6
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNAyvXUawA
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SycT9rPjs
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODC9PWOPU2
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvW5rw23jJ
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfzmCAHcyU
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFO2HKABVV
I am woken up by a man in a suit.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cgVMBXsZF
"Get up." he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD9Zo1eAiH
"Why am I here?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs59hekMw41
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BHWXBW2zD
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z9VBM4Dsx
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj02paclcsP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbxzZUo8fR
I sit down.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucdxoANPKc
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nU4UY7Q9R
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxpSKlBDdS
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX95k9iDuUW
I say, "No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwqfoPuaVI
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPBlknErbY
I respond, "Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFG0IEcEX6
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8h2wrjZil
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBPyHkFFJK
"Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNg7qfw89u
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjer2SjBVkW
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWMEH4u29m
I say, "Hi."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINk9jzj34h
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx2XY1py59
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleuHKNHXW0
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TkrC2Jh2N
"Right away," says the woman.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxSzPfeZ9S
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKOHPETS21
I say, "Okay."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hH0vcPOjx
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUooxfspHsx
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E3x7w6poO
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nHUbQsFcM
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNtnlnQC5f
"He kidnapped me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwn99ZHJPMZ
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqOeFKqfAj
I say, "He tried to stab me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHOUIKrwl3
"Who was he?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nNRk93XJK
"I don't know."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWYGiWw42s
"Where did you get the knife?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK8SWYmtJP
"He had it in his pocket."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtydMWmy9M
"Did he threaten you in any way?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEJQ04QlaT
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmlUFwljIt
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyobE6usVVe
"No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Lg2t16jqs
"You sure? Think hard."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpUWQFPyqP
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovsreLkmem
I say, "He killed my father."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8R6R8JL9q
"What?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7G3vV3GNw
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAKrQo1h8u
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DL36Soknv
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3qLOsmCJn
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA1iSNf5id
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOMdSARJ6v
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhdhAzb2T8
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpue554Gjfu
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyu2riRM49e
I follow him.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDJBlc7lun
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpH7O4whth
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB0Qf1ZiYr
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ECgy1V62D
I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHkJbaF2O8
"Alright. Take a seat."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OcyKDdywh
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpmE2dFcxq
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuZSam57k5
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoXe5kZEdh
"Yes.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PVnU5abFc
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqtkW61MsE
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99vbNsX6ZU
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz33oKiRjTO
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaYZLWP4fb
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOdikxOz0G
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnzIicvHE2
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoMqpNrQN5
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVboveZZ6Q
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnOAwO5qID
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4bSz3iSyh
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23b0tnhsYn
"What is it?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTP80MeBVX
Doctor Kessel says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M3bku0wpS
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h66QBBxBf
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGasE9I1dP
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QJzaXp8KC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40uYBSG0Wq
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kIRKWEMV0
The nurse shakes her head, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaDyJ1czgT
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZDYGr9Qb6
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMMMX2XxSQ
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecJw78QKEl
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRABcUg0pe
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeXLLF4ziW
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRk3N8xtUh
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjafQLhUH5d
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW00mkQhmb
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMIoOZ6LYZ
I say "Where am I?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFNd3EZyZ9
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Kcvr7nkrL
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk91IAbXqvQ
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1RCqbScLr
I say, "I want to see my mom..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbeK7L0y7Y
The nurse interrupts me and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAmVOjfnOI
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCHwa37h7F
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m5gk1trtA
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qysR8DzPO
A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjImoPQ5hz
"M-mom.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpmDY3MGfn
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6WX9d3ZFh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0utQTIcRq8
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrRoLcXkux
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfFAMULZMd
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrSpa8JUeC
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8jnasks27
"Yes.." I say quietly.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JRb3otSxO
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIJ55Bxrz4
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTQhILRPCw
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcDeld2uEZ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpQZ4PKgzI
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEH359WIuX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdVuIrBEfC
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iLn7on8Ac
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwCxGtp0hD
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk20hmjkcy
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ88insyyPF
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXAYISihFd
I wipe the tears off my face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lu9VDFOgB
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JpNyCYQbS
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzy8oNdFPfD
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w8iiqepS5
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhrWziFPgS
I say, "Tell me!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89kN6bqb6L
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3FBA83NO8
My heart drops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgnFzxKB3A
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgGBwV1dYc
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2ODqwf0Aw
In the morning, I get my visitors.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfKrF0CdkL
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLYIfOyamo
I say, "Wait!" She stops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6vgNbwdDk
"What is it?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGDN4LkFtj
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYO7u8VXHt
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4uOkrF4yt
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20wMtbz8gj
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ980dlFD3x0
I cry myself to sleep.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyzqUlxVDQ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgSeUL33v1
"How are you doing, honey?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXiCyNq2Bg
I say, "Horrible.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gspLXuSN8
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM7WXgC4B5
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG107Msfti
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWE3UdHKGYs
"It's not your fault, honey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuui1KBAxWZ
I start crying again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigB7j1uR46
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMPk9naOz0
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAf6YWJzgD
Maybe I'm dead after all.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGONiprTnw
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPOq1LOOOE
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BxizlQ6Jo
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4lQLdGQSe
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA7xShBxVe
I say, "I still want to win this."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOizteL8bru
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVvToBz50p
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MzA2KNMrj
"Really?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPP4eEjcXR
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DWKdueT3z
I start crying, and I can't stop.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2XeDm4Wda
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwmM9t5svg
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ522ZHLQ4zt
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIWl5RdTjO
I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkeVYZ8En9
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHqohymVSz
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyFgcc4uB0
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHoyF5ZmMD
"I wanted to see the flowers."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIXEa1J92Q
"Why are you out of your room?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWsm7i9naw
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMvwxv3D1s
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3ByeKyE0M
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zwl8pnlnd
"Thank you for being you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x7BW6733G
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUw2Abl2eh
I make a decision.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZfXj36i7G
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBjvJRfvoT
"What's your name?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjB47szBfA
"Allisa," I say, smiling.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQkqHdgL0b
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hSchqwEOY
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uUt78geHs
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mESKtKvfk
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoVbMxK0JF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuttfAcRPC
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bwM2lm6N7
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mTrPrkNXC
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN585727YTV
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTQuXjCast
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A5MyNeEMF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBpTEr2Po7
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJt4lVvHSV4
He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjJOyh9E8C
"I just want to go home," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv55OGnqUDs
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehWRPPhwPI
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlqWwxMkJQ
Father sighs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzSRY3dRii
I say "I don't want to stay here!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1SxVXIacr
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyLDTIJbby
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVvDlBjUER
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5igEl5IDD
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByjZKmuxY9
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cn9EOCE39
"Pet, come down from the tree."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCVMVkGx4R
I stay silent.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpMPqVMXnf
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0H2cmKPLa
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXwZzaD6gC
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgiwjTN3AV
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpgH6iPMkI
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZh1bylhHv
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2Z1rzsU8q
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchPeaCBEwu
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7oKbb5UO7
I say, "Please don't hurt me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBp0j6JAmw
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCxd2XMCZ4
I say, "Please don't!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqJ64GFM6Y
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro7YCQapjE
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNbNoq2Mx2
"You'll find out soon enough, child."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDYgRMj2iX
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGO2ZOcsYd
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pQV76jxEZ
2
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9TOewLlp4132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDTJt3267r
It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ7J9SUJD2
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE88IgqPb1F
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ362X5RwboI
3
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9QagYgMTZI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WU0fFVH1S
"Are you ready, child?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2A2fx9HzZ
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmSHPNlAir
I nod and say, "Y-yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtPIcUt0Wu
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMuHbdQQmn
"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡospur2dUty
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpQiUx1b2w
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdX8Cudj99
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAUyC15udI
I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfZoEziJu3
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTeiLi72eW
I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzcpTQHZ3r
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetnI7BdsCu
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3bq0dnipD
Father says "Good. Stay there."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykvvzjj4xI
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVD3yIWR2s
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRxp2TsiLY
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBhaz5uSZX
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX24IDPqvvi
"Please!" I whisper.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMIFkQP57N
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmchiJbKTA
I scream loudly.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS4xaVvaVz
My scream echoes throughout the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBaVu939IK
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8PYLmydLz
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYb0wX7ssc0
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa55bkdED2u
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTlNatVaF3
I say "P-please s-stop.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQvZaeBVun
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgPhxUf1EI
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HNVY6URRP
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhouxNUZOx
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2ahrWn6qZ
"Look at her," another says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO4tRqwdsd
I say "Please leave me alone."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDohqWMXqnE
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAY2Bu0345
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0bKl7tcSQ
"We'll see. Let's see."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjG6aHAq3F
I say "No no no.." They laugh.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ367w7nJZzo
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZnT7re8S2
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeXsUC818x
They untie me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMfTDiSRI5
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v3CjfaFD1
"Ah... you're up," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXCsJZvQ5M
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeraRw0YnJc
4
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1VKTaXnDu"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lomOC1a4l
"Where were you?" he asks,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowQCgkYfSs
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomdGE22hUJ
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevvTDgPrl5
Father smiles.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOD8ZLMivl
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW69pVNriYy
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlA3C7zbdVn
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrl6zCsgm4J
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ajpwFxRTU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhXfSdTNxq
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnhEqPu8eq
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUIDVKcFa8
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34bJvuoYq7
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX2M6QxzE2
I say, "Please let me go!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBIaxXA2Z8
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdtXP4znCV
"You will," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhqIF0Pck0
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPB03frMzR
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdc6eu1q1G
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD0Bha7JGv
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgmcXDbbgN
"Stop crying," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmH0hw8JG3b
"I can't!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHlMf7Ypll
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFtyeGgh3
"Stop it!" I cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxLczPELxx
"I said stop it!" he yells,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAAcZDWuhp
"I can't," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiDfhdiilf
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTxejWHBym
"NO!" Father screams.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97HiozhpYJ
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs2y8mLABF
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP5bzfcIkq
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLqPzKgRd
"I would. I really would."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ99XZWT4rM
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ln6R8OGj2
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWaFRQ1pUB
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDTskjeQXt
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRYzNxG9KH
I say, "No I'm not!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dWacZJY6a
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NgnwP5hK7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgwHsRls9k
I say "No I won't!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV0zQVpdWr
"You will!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINZtx10nZb
"I said NO!!!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kZE7yShOO
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6F39CY3Mm
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfQEP2csgx
"I know you will," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpiAJeCv2v
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTv5Sjk62r
He says "One."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQeJVvl4hc
I say, "I'll do anything.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFgZwNGTDO
"Two."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmPvDfxLxe
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuPzD6VCZO
"Three."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PFTWoEaaA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZq5AfwTBj
"No, don't do it," Father says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSAPcPSsTz
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVFNoNawTA
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe85EGEKAK
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB2yY49GrQ
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KkuklfqZr
I say "Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvamkYZ8Cy
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8o5f3PaS4
"Yes," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdpuRWvXeW
"Good girl," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucBcfsq9Tf
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY4AxXNwL6
"I won't," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKDnyj6DaI
I stay tied up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡal9mx6SBnx
"Now," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz5nA2YSmN
"Kneel."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGiBVpNgQQ
"Please," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyl9za1I3ax
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkCtfQofzS
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4YYWubcc0
I just know it.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqPRDA1hro
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndzYJ7i8pY
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNOu1YVA5D
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeRQWa8rLq
I'm all alone in the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfwrIrJcYq
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVGvelmW6K
5
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCdByxyAfnI hear the door open. I look up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36Xv4NFls2
"Hello," a man says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOiqw7YgkS
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfepo1PNHS
"Hands behind your back," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvYZYzgokC
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zbvvLm0VI
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmNUgFi1lu
"Stay there," he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tltNrMdRu
I stay on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zjYSs39nR
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vnPHHdoOf
I say "No no no."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINzVRF5uRl
"Do it," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7pvASB8B7
I say no. He pushes harder.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRysFdKweA
"Do it!" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkC6NISSQV
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3z3HOFgjc8
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK5Rp6BurT
"Stay there," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVUTlRxNEG
I stay on my knees.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ3Nj8qjwc
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzadpe163Oj
"Stop moving."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwlr1WIuQj
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKdMf86JHw
He pulls it out of my throat.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbTL5uiy90
"What's wrong?" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTU8nlJX0G
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVxMLxXt97
"What?" he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2plGscmcrH
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOiF3XhbTj
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVpY43Tmsd
"Is this too big for you?" he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvW3pHmdaC
I nod.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUW7TdvfOQ
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtutJnLmZJ
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGzmc3j669
He shoves it back in.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96XtwISh57
I decide that vomiting once is enough.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LJGUWSZsM
He shoves it in deeper.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmKNIn8r5A
I struggle and fight.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSLGoTZSZj
"Stop fighting me," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwqF7liG06
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3CxWsCpJf
"Get dressed," he says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEywVkqqgqQ
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEA2WcMnXc
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjMUZBC7dG
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz0C08dVCj
6
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ30ie3AaFF132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8NNVcUYXh
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WIfNyw1EA
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZsvFcHfq6
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrJNELdf2n
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ULMXq6Gr5
I say, "Where's dad?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jTD62IrRD
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0cYlhsXch
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdfSW6P9bH
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpeljLY8kl
My father says, "Where have you been?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr0z3gLLCF
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVL4ABKppp
"Did they hurt you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBieJylMG5z
"Yeah," I say.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQ1Gr02b3q
"I'm sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXJRlX9uWo
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeiwe2BPHY
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINuVyS5zLm
"Is Allie in here?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4niQbmF7X
My dad says, "Yes, why?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14bpR5Rqak
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfMPs2noGS
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1GfLvQ0nF
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bgh2agMhT
"No." I respond,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW92hFpKcfh
"Can we come in?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhIaBnWHgb
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1G5HveQD8
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0xC55PIgd
I say, "I don't know."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCml3lhIjl
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8EHc4B8Um
"No." I say,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESB8UFn7il
"Are you sure?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUxoVm1WHj
"Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDvjxKAOd0
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdi3bGSf58
"Did he give you any food or water?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBI6nw6TPrS
"No." I respond.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU566EO16G6
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1QHKh80o3
"No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG64AoyRiCT
"What did he do to you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXIjVTInDP
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkGLtxu5zq
"Did you fight him?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDVVPO7p4n
"I tried."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtLNGrpIZM
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfSa7rIzmV
"I think I blacked out."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8MpFenMU0
"I see."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKWmVMfe5F
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa5ajJILRS
"And how long were you with him?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfKtduYrlY
"I think about ten hours."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHa7i6fp1a
"And you only just managed to escape?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnvuxHrtH8
"Yeah."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXPcxsABNT
"Do you know where you were?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxA9csnZa5
I say "No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQBcVgh0vm
"What is the last thing you remember?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbV1XEyOuw
"I remember walking down the road."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXYvMhFU6r
"And then?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3Q5ZjaH9I
"I don't remember."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcPVXE88gV
"Do you know how you got away?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXZ5Ik58pQ
I say, "I just ran,"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILLWlDGdT5
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT64PFtry54
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4Cy2IHWGW
I say, "So that's how it all happened."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPIQHRIPfC
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31C1FzMI0c
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnko0mquFi
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgaopdmgwZ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqO07b2UlVI
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4BxWDghm8
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1F2uX2DSTu
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjxesYIWbc
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5FK9hN3pL
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex0H9GPbw0
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrHJcmU1pb
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdaipf1JVW
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OVwXsUZCy
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBYez83Qzf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVUrTMHuqF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KWEDZHzkN
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhmiDE56oj
I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWlXtZOcBE
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOp2TUhNGc
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5h5rCs2yU
7
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbTHcd0A2sAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfzn2Jbb2I
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspJwiOizUA
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwt5N1fnW6
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNAyvXUawA
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SycT9rPjs
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODC9PWOPU2
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvW5rw23jJ
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfzmCAHcyU
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFO2HKABVV
I am woken up by a man in a suit.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cgVMBXsZF
"Get up." he says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD9Zo1eAiH
"Why am I here?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs59hekMw41
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BHWXBW2zD
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z9VBM4Dsx
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj02paclcsP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbxzZUo8fR
I sit down.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucdxoANPKc
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nU4UY7Q9R
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxpSKlBDdS
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX95k9iDuUW
I say, "No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwqfoPuaVI
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPBlknErbY
I respond, "Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFG0IEcEX6
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8h2wrjZil
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBPyHkFFJK
"Yes."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNg7qfw89u
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjer2SjBVkW
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWMEH4u29m
I say, "Hi."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINk9jzj34h
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx2XY1py59
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleuHKNHXW0
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TkrC2Jh2N
"Right away," says the woman.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxSzPfeZ9S
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKOHPETS21
I say, "Okay."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hH0vcPOjx
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUooxfspHsx
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E3x7w6poO
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nHUbQsFcM
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNtnlnQC5f
"He kidnapped me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwn99ZHJPMZ
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqOeFKqfAj
I say, "He tried to stab me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHOUIKrwl3
"Who was he?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nNRk93XJK
"I don't know."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWYGiWw42s
"Where did you get the knife?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK8SWYmtJP
"He had it in his pocket."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtydMWmy9M
"Did he threaten you in any way?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEJQ04QlaT
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmlUFwljIt
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyobE6usVVe
"No."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Lg2t16jqs
"You sure? Think hard."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpUWQFPyqP
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovsreLkmem
I say, "He killed my father."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8R6R8JL9q
"What?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7G3vV3GNw
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAKrQo1h8u
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DL36Soknv
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3qLOsmCJn
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA1iSNf5id
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOMdSARJ6v
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhdhAzb2T8
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpue554Gjfu
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyu2riRM49e
I follow him.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDJBlc7lun
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpH7O4whth
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB0Qf1ZiYr
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ECgy1V62D
I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHkJbaF2O8
"Alright. Take a seat."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OcyKDdywh
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpmE2dFcxq
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuZSam57k5
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoXe5kZEdh
"Yes.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PVnU5abFc
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqtkW61MsE
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99vbNsX6ZU
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz33oKiRjTO
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaYZLWP4fb
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOdikxOz0G
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnzIicvHE2
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoMqpNrQN5
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVboveZZ6Q
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnOAwO5qID
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4bSz3iSyh
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23b0tnhsYn
"What is it?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTP80MeBVX
Doctor Kessel says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M3bku0wpS
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h66QBBxBf
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGasE9I1dP
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QJzaXp8KC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40uYBSG0Wq
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kIRKWEMV0
The nurse shakes her head, and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaDyJ1czgT
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZDYGr9Qb6
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMMMX2XxSQ
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecJw78QKEl
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRABcUg0pe
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeXLLF4ziW
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRk3N8xtUh
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjafQLhUH5d
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgW00mkQhmb
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMIoOZ6LYZ
I say "Where am I?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFNd3EZyZ9
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Kcvr7nkrL
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk91IAbXqvQ
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1RCqbScLr
I say, "I want to see my mom..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbeK7L0y7Y
The nurse interrupts me and says,132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAmVOjfnOI
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCHwa37h7F
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m5gk1trtA
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qysR8DzPO
8
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu63tqyx5y9A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjImoPQ5hz
"M-mom.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpmDY3MGfn
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6WX9d3ZFh
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0utQTIcRq8
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrRoLcXkux
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfFAMULZMd
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrSpa8JUeC
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8jnasks27
"Yes.." I say quietly.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JRb3otSxO
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIJ55Bxrz4
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTQhILRPCw
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcDeld2uEZ
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpQZ4PKgzI
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEH359WIuX
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdVuIrBEfC
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iLn7on8Ac
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwCxGtp0hD
I say, "Okay.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk20hmjkcy
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ88insyyPF
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXAYISihFd
I wipe the tears off my face.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lu9VDFOgB
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JpNyCYQbS
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzy8oNdFPfD
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w8iiqepS5
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhrWziFPgS
I say, "Tell me!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89kN6bqb6L
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3FBA83NO8
My heart drops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgnFzxKB3A
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgGBwV1dYc
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2ODqwf0Aw
8
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsZL80ZsYxIn the morning, I get my visitors.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfKrF0CdkL
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLYIfOyamo
I say, "Wait!" She stops.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6vgNbwdDk
"What is it?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGDN4LkFtj
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYO7u8VXHt
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4uOkrF4yt
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20wMtbz8gj
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ980dlFD3x0
I cry myself to sleep.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyzqUlxVDQ
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgSeUL33v1
"How are you doing, honey?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXiCyNq2Bg
I say, "Horrible.."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gspLXuSN8
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM7WXgC4B5
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG107Msfti
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWE3UdHKGYs
"It's not your fault, honey."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuui1KBAxWZ
I start crying again.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigB7j1uR46
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMPk9naOz0
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAf6YWJzgD
Maybe I'm dead after all.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGONiprTnw
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPOq1LOOOE
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BxizlQ6Jo
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4lQLdGQSe
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA7xShBxVe
I say, "I still want to win this."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOizteL8bru
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVvToBz50p
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MzA2KNMrj
"Really?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPP4eEjcXR
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DWKdueT3z
I start crying, and I can't stop.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2XeDm4Wda
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwmM9t5svg
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ522ZHLQ4zt
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIWl5RdTjO
I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkeVYZ8En9
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHqohymVSz
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyFgcc4uB0
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHoyF5ZmMD
"I wanted to see the flowers."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIXEa1J92Q
"Why are you out of your room?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWsm7i9naw
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMvwxv3D1s
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3ByeKyE0M
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zwl8pnlnd
"Thank you for being you."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x7BW6733G
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUw2Abl2eh
I make a decision.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZfXj36i7G
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBjvJRfvoT
"What's your name?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjB47szBfA
"Allisa," I say, smiling.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQkqHdgL0b
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hSchqwEOY
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uUt78geHs
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mESKtKvfk
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoVbMxK0JF
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuttfAcRPC
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bwM2lm6N7
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mTrPrkNXC
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnD3DEqL5S
132Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFmPaIInDE
ns 15.158.61.45da2 
