You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLmoWwKDXw
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yZ9GyTPk5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgpPUEPuyu
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13VH2fPXQK
"I just want to go home," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFy2sGTwZi
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ811ACPw9ET
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLtIvBjQyk
Father sighs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbcPusJOAR
I say "I don't want to stay here!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflUrBRCZlt
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREz6fK7wJz
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzPewyKyyS
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnOF7VEPfH
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY1aKyh558
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVOjum3a6M
"Pet, come down from the tree."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh3nmWIZ7X
I stay silent.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbfhda07wy
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kVeAfm5l5
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiXFUhbw1T
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZ53xEmw7i
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2ieROOOp0
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fVdK67EHa
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Do6FMnBNk
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFTkN9RDOw
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW6exrgUmx
I say, "Please don't hurt me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDl8o2ic4C
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUsmnAzb0u
I say, "Please don't!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF9YqHOcA5
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwhFizEUnq
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1bdxzW2LP
"You'll find out soon enough, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3fWkUkaa6
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlCXK9MqHv
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaea3eHhhhY
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTprvM3MGnc
"Are you ready, child?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvri70Eplgt
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIwFowQzH1
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnq8hMIS1Y2
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I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSHjIVbZIE
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuv1Cgtx4q
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfaUu0ead2
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡio5LX2poNk
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskANvhgKiN
Father says "Good. Stay there."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcr3PrPGyh
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR9RTjDidF
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkxmBdcEuN
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctsVloV0FX
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfM7LQEdmn
"Please!" I whisper.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmVHtcEXwF
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JqLhSnaNf
I scream loudly.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MqIQt2Nxp
My scream echoes throughout the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58Mv9wywo
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCSU5EtU4a
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklQutPAeSe
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBhkRZSJ7U
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53RT7ipEew
I say "P-please s-stop.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe09ZvtM4j
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeo67Ur36YB
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBln3uONvTv
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZa9C3aTERw
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH3JBVJkRz
"Look at her," another says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNnOdhevCN
I say "Please leave me alone."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYeZtFuulp
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRQtad7dza
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlxRbf1YYg
"We'll see. Let's see."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelnyhWCKZF
I say "No no no.." They laugh.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Vn45IhlLa
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbSvDgN836
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiJ6lJVE4d
They untie me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSvPyRnHB4
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt1h4kF67v
"Ah... you're up," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj3Bjsm6Hz
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbvJx3ZxbV
"Where were you?" he asks,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9NkLLZxJA
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhrAjiZcMH
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClErZ48aAw
Father smiles.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QEZDcMi5W
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJmSgiOYGZ
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qB22ZTsBZ
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeg9VzhxtK
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvX0vNAIPC
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4zX3Luh27
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2I8T117EA
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHe5SI7oCX
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkJj3oKRQL
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MGRxaG4ok
I say, "Please let me go!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRhGjD2qWH
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar1Tf82uQs
"You will," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYiXho39YN
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjCKreQwrK
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BW7cgawBh
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69QFs1KSfz
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcozZlh2tdL
"Stop crying," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMRKeQP5vg
"I can't!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUleQRWaMqt
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkn3ZIVLeo
"Stop it!" I cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vUXsVlbDu
"I said stop it!" he yells,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpUMKYChHU
"I can't," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx4yCWqhYE
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATPj4FvSMo
"NO!" Father screams.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliDMjjF6vI
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIu7mzhdr7
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnsuMuJuAi
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8ZPxDqQ0E
"I would. I really would."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcSuuXWbi1
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6Qd1En2Qm
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmrCVn2qYW
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7wLDECL4o
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0eeUhTRXu
I say, "No I'm not!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBUKkmqrEj
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhqu1MRov3
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEVRXH2jTT
I say "No I won't!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXAwJrVK4f
"You will!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrnz8cd52k
"I said NO!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdn3nRxPvq
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniuCThPQp2
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTj9CpsAI1f
"I know you will," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh0zNePQVZ
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpcFNuN0Qk
He says "One."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd9OEF4Rjp
I say, "I'll do anything.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnytBDRmCvU
"Two."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2opR17vPs
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiTBhYv8kr
"Three."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9S6D6rsZA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20HjRkTu4V
"No, don't do it," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF6NwGsqgv
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSDXQZJGsS
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74idi2KDiF
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cH4Z3mPKz
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCbynAbEg7
I say "Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZRx3LmA6L
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIparAytQfJ
"Yes," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVHcsCLIIW
"Good girl," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKd3bq3efdb
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpyGWXjSDU
"I won't," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7wBLvkxms
I stay tied up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwjQovXtnE
"Now," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtanGZ55rAg
"Kneel."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyVlkiBfVI
"Please," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh8BuUtlUu
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVDFVmi4lg
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCqeoopnde
I just know it.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQgKdSNJJW
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyfehJmaPw
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69A0mIdpZo
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu7sfb5vKw
I'm all alone in the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLqlFOFCEe
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I hear the door open. I look up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfWBFq5tso
"Hello," a man says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW3oiKiteT
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgpNv29QLs
"Hands behind your back," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPduJLqK2J
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8R9wqhXiS
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECQiJTLrVg
"Stay there," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfA1JSnOW7w
I stay on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwOOfpqcUn
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58VMbocId
I say "No no no."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xi8InaTai
"Do it," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJTesgQpd
I say no. He pushes harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENIxdkqdjW
"Do it!" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gfDnbSeC2
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScUFMVkJsW
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmsxC7dNtk
"Stay there," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrsX3ZetDz
I stay on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbWXJdHlbj
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzzDpnOEXN
"Stop moving."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHZQaxBlwn
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq6Uvj7bi9
He pulls it out of my throat.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceoTL9Wy7J
"What's wrong?" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2XFMXckW6
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL0mjRTzSy
"What?" he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirg7YHrSZ8
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDaGQYE7Rb
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0hXTqgp0r
"Is this too big for you?" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9yEI74rdN
I nod.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMykb8U2zKq
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXT7pJVhZF
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdAny1pcEU
He shoves it back in.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm59o5iYVLe
I decide that vomiting once is enough.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUDAWMwSCf
He shoves it in deeper.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHQ5cDpOyn
I struggle and fight.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FBA4bNn6u
"Stop fighting me," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bG1rKHex9
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN8xwsliAN
"Get dressed," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbXhUOL5e8
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQaLrvKnMt
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NQBRKfpP8
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO7kzhc3Lk
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmIU8EFwJJ
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaD7avhvck
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxV49GrXiFm
I say, "Where's dad?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4q2SCpsfl
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo9Zb0Yj1g
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaWDoqdrzP
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVfop2rCt1
My father says, "Where have you been?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmIDJ3mcAc
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1OKrqQzN6
"Did they hurt you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF08W8MMlF4
"Yeah," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjcEgmq6YL
"I'm sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fXilF0NHv
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbjuBCnmMD
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7c9TGgTJZ
"Is Allie in here?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvg6xkKSIA
My dad says, "Yes, why?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqxLADnOpf
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEoAzSsDfd
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4hbeiANNa
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfh6dDMHOJ
"No." I respond,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZbWQMkFGf
"Can we come in?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6VLPRsxRh
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUwcrPEekC
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO7LQxXaTU
I say, "I don't know."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2IQ0q1h39
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HpBGXKaUP
"No." I say,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvaxnEsfxg
"Are you sure?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQ9YmaaREX
"Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTvlP4TSus
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH7e8Hrym4
"Did he give you any food or water?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2oU57Ywvv
"No." I respond.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDWGKqfzEI
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmSqf9mpb4
"No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76MeYkbfcC
"What did he do to you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHP6EqvcJpe
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAOvhvJGf1
"Did you fight him?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RkAvdrgmg
"I tried."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAeIJyeOUB
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0btjD3SM8
"I think I blacked out."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0vpUWO4t1
"I see."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThJm2lSlPR
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkDFMK0690
"And how long were you with him?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQZ6pfgqff
"I think about ten hours."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9vY369SjC
"And you only just managed to escape?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscl5cl7VeD
"Yeah."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxsV84UeRN
"Do you know where you were?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptbNWFhwlP
I say "No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGEJ1fq4M2
"What is the last thing you remember?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQgkw3zJf5
"I remember walking down the road."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI6K55Xezh
"And then?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1g8D8etsy
"I don't remember."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrS0EDBc4t7
"Do you know how you got away?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhCQiBJaun
I say, "I just ran,"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo06em0b5xr
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ7wiWjOwj
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbECVwDKCP
I say, "So that's how it all happened."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95ogZYVucE
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaaz4h0Bi4
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZK7sz7ja0
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4dtaoQWqn
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqsScykc6M
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQVNJbJSz5
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoB4iR4e14
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXcOwXMZqJ
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH1hGW0Qs6
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz5UDaqVTL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnWL5nG0g8
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vn0xTh8kq
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIEpDljqS9
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOjog7Y0z2
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLN3ZF1EzAE
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mf266FnHv
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKmdKqeV8F
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYJlZgLHbn
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCxJXfr2os
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡas3N9FDStI
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fqrzZKv3n
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7mAHyC3Zh
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L0FYQh14t
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKRVOma7Si
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX6hujpA8U
"Get up." he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxAHszTIx3
"Why am I here?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzl41OE6s1t
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYYsijwXap
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZWsaS3ekc
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZR4SmsRpG5
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhHhz85VqF
I sit down.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nVwa6QX8K
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0murFDD6V
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRArKsWb20
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVldzYogE3
I say, "No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ1a3d8lkd
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7peqmK1nJ
I respond, "Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0g4t7OTQm1
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFECswVTNr
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZzdYb6fMC
"Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfP56CMWCf
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRf2szNzXo
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi49rzYpC6
I say, "Hi."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNNKgmIGad
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd0ENX8B5J
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOXo4diC7k
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw2ebiFt2V
"Right away," says the woman.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCquqLdSzp
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bLbyZoTbO
I say, "Okay."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAskNqk6nX1
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DUnWnve87
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0fAUo8JQT
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLRMjnNQtt
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQjZYBCiSO
"He kidnapped me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83TJmhV9NY
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrDQcYki0x
I say, "He tried to stab me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqkp1FSkv6
"Who was he?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmW4c9oIFC
"I don't know."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHXsWyYvLQ
"Where did you get the knife?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzhAHqH4KH
"He had it in his pocket."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9zwY3HfM9
"Did he threaten you in any way?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwms4mSbzI0
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLVPNg4dyh
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDQWr2lnCU
"No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltTz64QRm9
"You sure? Think hard."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzr7TPBAyl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lkmLDH2p9
I say, "He killed my father."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaI4jIpq5WA
"What?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLWn0oXtdE
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYl0Ss9t36
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KVCk9SVbQ
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7amiEh1Cbp
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxczolTReLn
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhBrYhxa5C
I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs5w5M8Kyg
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8Ek1NPlzk
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO8gvrEMux
I follow him.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FgUMaEucz
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6htJJrMAfN
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrHW7HwPjy
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCLHSwFYGb
"Alright. Take a seat."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPNuGYuPq1
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7qJxq2aU1
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9asuyxB2W
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoZnKyXytJ
"Yes.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIltYUMNhi
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRYbFoZsWd
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB5vBHV3Rn
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKZYMzluk3
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlqJomyv8G
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92S3df8udv
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9sfoxS38v
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYnJjjnvBF
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNihM0T0pRt
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI1mUwbhj5
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCnptRPDpi
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt1jEZocOw
"What is it?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaT9KcrS4k
Doctor Kessel says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqS2CgyOJpT
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT46aT8NHNk
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZNwlDb799
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi5uD93lF9
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBkcFKYeie
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY80Hfr3Tn
The nurse shakes her head, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOvp0SdGvx
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkVo1xWtOg
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD1rz77syE
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1PbPuYbx4
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASpuG1xsPl
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0CSJQJqCT
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubTx9GXFXU
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgxrJ4QkFe
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Im3uDANKB
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0BjKsmy16
I say "Where am I?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxveuVJVgnN
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaTzV0TP9c
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7KURecMSn
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W5qC6SbPe
I say, "I want to see my mom..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPjP9vC9P8
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"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3ZkZBdxbL
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBKokfuHtD
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7nwg8hwbI
"M-mom.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZQXxZhFf8
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre7z8i3ha9
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKypgPoMZ3
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukh68w2xTP
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2REhnCOrj
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTTY54arbR
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeahsD2vNy2
"Yes.." I say quietly.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFheoOK0L7j
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkN9kjAOn0n
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunN17HnvdR
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwM3rIOQ7N
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBEwWdvqvI
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46e3V4gOnx
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2JwET7eHT
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNPjMj9N9w
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ1rw4LR1D
I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡactPM9uJ3Y
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFCHO2bvw9
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNwlGtDIKU
I wipe the tears off my face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VZEVMmJG8
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1AF7x6ii7
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YF67yWLHK
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RYj7PMSSI
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTbaOWFeSl
I say, "Tell me!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6S85RC1BO
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbKPDH7TON
My heart drops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkpvmI1QyH
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9X12tqotN
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In the morning, I get my visitors.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAwwMyJLiz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22RvLH1Bk9
I say, "Wait!" She stops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpizcxahasu
"What is it?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SUx3e7JqU
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTvsGPpL07
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4veNOIa1h
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPLp4WP93U
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTDQ8Ona6Q
I cry myself to sleep.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ080RC3LLF
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyY1JtmRlu
"How are you doing, honey?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVGYqoIxDe
I say, "Horrible.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wih9wZR9j
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x3Kh7c7t0
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIDjD0PJtV
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvVUis5e3o
"It's not your fault, honey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCW74vEMYb
I start crying again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OFdXubqnd
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31BfjY8py2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrUyelpDMd
Maybe I'm dead after all.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUEE7Eoj4O
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBF4qelBKMv
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpfLIy60e1
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dbVNsTk4l
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnCVBD87Iw
I say, "I still want to win this."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBSCHX6DoO
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZx92gPjTe
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToQlkQC2fv
"Really?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XdeVK01js
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tDSHbguXs
I start crying, and I can't stop.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0hevkiJeX
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7glFL8APlZ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBJ5bx5Zhx
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePomAUnLjt
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYef8Osbuy
"I wanted to see the flowers."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlSVJOOBi0
"Why are you out of your room?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLDgicYnE2
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFokUYcSw0C
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpJPKnAs9j
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r6WzBw5Sm
"Thank you for being you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoqD3sRiQW
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeAG2sP03a
I make a decision.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtolfucYFEN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckogUEB9Rj
"What's your name?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z37OLu6zC
"Allisa," I say, smiling.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3H1kn0a1x
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlrfZaBYTt
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxv5lDzOtC
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyer9q4YOi
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi6a0q2Sn2
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yZ9GyTPk5
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgpPUEPuyu
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13VH2fPXQK
"I just want to go home," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFy2sGTwZi
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ811ACPw9ET
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLtIvBjQyk
Father sighs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbcPusJOAR
I say "I don't want to stay here!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflUrBRCZlt
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREz6fK7wJz
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzPewyKyyS
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnOF7VEPfH
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY1aKyh558
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVOjum3a6M
"Pet, come down from the tree."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh3nmWIZ7X
I stay silent.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbfhda07wy
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kVeAfm5l5
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiXFUhbw1T
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZ53xEmw7i
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2ieROOOp0
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fVdK67EHa
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Do6FMnBNk
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFTkN9RDOw
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmW6exrgUmx
I say, "Please don't hurt me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDl8o2ic4C
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUsmnAzb0u
I say, "Please don't!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF9YqHOcA5
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwhFizEUnq
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1bdxzW2LP
"You'll find out soon enough, child."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3fWkUkaa6
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlCXK9MqHv
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaea3eHhhhY
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqF74i4qILI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTprvM3MGnc
"Are you ready, child?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvri70Eplgt
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIwFowQzH1
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnq8hMIS1Y2
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I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSHjIVbZIE
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuv1Cgtx4q
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfaUu0ead2
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡio5LX2poNk
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskANvhgKiN
Father says "Good. Stay there."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcr3PrPGyh
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR9RTjDidF
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkxmBdcEuN
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctsVloV0FX
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfM7LQEdmn
"Please!" I whisper.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmVHtcEXwF
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JqLhSnaNf
I scream loudly.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MqIQt2Nxp
My scream echoes throughout the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58Mv9wywo
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCSU5EtU4a
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklQutPAeSe
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBhkRZSJ7U
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53RT7ipEew
I say "P-please s-stop.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe09ZvtM4j
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeo67Ur36YB
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBln3uONvTv
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZa9C3aTERw
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH3JBVJkRz
"Look at her," another says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNnOdhevCN
I say "Please leave me alone."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYeZtFuulp
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRQtad7dza
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlxRbf1YYg
"We'll see. Let's see."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelnyhWCKZF
I say "No no no.." They laugh.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Vn45IhlLa
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbSvDgN836
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiJ6lJVE4d
They untie me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSvPyRnHB4
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt1h4kF67v
"Ah... you're up," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj3Bjsm6Hz
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9BnzrsGhF"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbvJx3ZxbV
"Where were you?" he asks,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9NkLLZxJA
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhrAjiZcMH
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClErZ48aAw
Father smiles.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QEZDcMi5W
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJmSgiOYGZ
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qB22ZTsBZ
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeg9VzhxtK
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvX0vNAIPC
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4zX3Luh27
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2I8T117EA
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHe5SI7oCX
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkJj3oKRQL
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MGRxaG4ok
I say, "Please let me go!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRhGjD2qWH
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar1Tf82uQs
"You will," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYiXho39YN
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjCKreQwrK
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BW7cgawBh
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69QFs1KSfz
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcozZlh2tdL
"Stop crying," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMRKeQP5vg
"I can't!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUleQRWaMqt
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkn3ZIVLeo
"Stop it!" I cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vUXsVlbDu
"I said stop it!" he yells,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpUMKYChHU
"I can't," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx4yCWqhYE
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATPj4FvSMo
"NO!" Father screams.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliDMjjF6vI
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIu7mzhdr7
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnsuMuJuAi
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8ZPxDqQ0E
"I would. I really would."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcSuuXWbi1
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6Qd1En2Qm
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmrCVn2qYW
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7wLDECL4o
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0eeUhTRXu
I say, "No I'm not!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBUKkmqrEj
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhqu1MRov3
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEVRXH2jTT
I say "No I won't!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXAwJrVK4f
"You will!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrnz8cd52k
"I said NO!!!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdn3nRxPvq
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniuCThPQp2
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTj9CpsAI1f
"I know you will," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqh0zNePQVZ
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpcFNuN0Qk
He says "One."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd9OEF4Rjp
I say, "I'll do anything.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnytBDRmCvU
"Two."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2opR17vPs
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiTBhYv8kr
"Three."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9S6D6rsZA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20HjRkTu4V
"No, don't do it," Father says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGF6NwGsqgv
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSDXQZJGsS
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74idi2KDiF
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cH4Z3mPKz
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCbynAbEg7
I say "Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZRx3LmA6L
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIparAytQfJ
"Yes," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVHcsCLIIW
"Good girl," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKd3bq3efdb
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpyGWXjSDU
"I won't," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7wBLvkxms
I stay tied up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwjQovXtnE
"Now," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtanGZ55rAg
"Kneel."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyVlkiBfVI
"Please," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh8BuUtlUu
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVDFVmi4lg
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCqeoopnde
I just know it.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQgKdSNJJW
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyfehJmaPw
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69A0mIdpZo
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu7sfb5vKw
I'm all alone in the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLqlFOFCEe
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnx8xgAZL1QI hear the door open. I look up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfWBFq5tso
"Hello," a man says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW3oiKiteT
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgpNv29QLs
"Hands behind your back," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPduJLqK2J
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8R9wqhXiS
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECQiJTLrVg
"Stay there," he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfA1JSnOW7w
I stay on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwOOfpqcUn
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58VMbocId
I say "No no no."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xi8InaTai
"Do it," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJTesgQpd
I say no. He pushes harder.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENIxdkqdjW
"Do it!" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gfDnbSeC2
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScUFMVkJsW
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmsxC7dNtk
"Stay there," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrsX3ZetDz
I stay on my knees.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbWXJdHlbj
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzzDpnOEXN
"Stop moving."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHZQaxBlwn
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq6Uvj7bi9
He pulls it out of my throat.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceoTL9Wy7J
"What's wrong?" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2XFMXckW6
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL0mjRTzSy
"What?" he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirg7YHrSZ8
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDaGQYE7Rb
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0hXTqgp0r
"Is this too big for you?" he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9yEI74rdN
I nod.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMykb8U2zKq
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXT7pJVhZF
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdAny1pcEU
He shoves it back in.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm59o5iYVLe
I decide that vomiting once is enough.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUDAWMwSCf
He shoves it in deeper.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHQ5cDpOyn
I struggle and fight.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FBA4bNn6u
"Stop fighting me," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bG1rKHex9
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN8xwsliAN
"Get dressed," he says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbXhUOL5e8
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQaLrvKnMt
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NQBRKfpP8
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgTqQkzmgb153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdpIosF6kU
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkO7kzhc3Lk
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmIU8EFwJJ
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaD7avhvck
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxV49GrXiFm
I say, "Where's dad?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4q2SCpsfl
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo9Zb0Yj1g
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaWDoqdrzP
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVfop2rCt1
My father says, "Where have you been?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmIDJ3mcAc
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1OKrqQzN6
"Did they hurt you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF08W8MMlF4
"Yeah," I say.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjcEgmq6YL
"I'm sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fXilF0NHv
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbjuBCnmMD
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7c9TGgTJZ
"Is Allie in here?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvg6xkKSIA
My dad says, "Yes, why?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqxLADnOpf
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEoAzSsDfd
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4hbeiANNa
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfh6dDMHOJ
"No." I respond,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZbWQMkFGf
"Can we come in?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6VLPRsxRh
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUwcrPEekC
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO7LQxXaTU
I say, "I don't know."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2IQ0q1h39
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HpBGXKaUP
"No." I say,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvaxnEsfxg
"Are you sure?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQ9YmaaREX
"Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTvlP4TSus
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH7e8Hrym4
"Did he give you any food or water?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2oU57Ywvv
"No." I respond.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDWGKqfzEI
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmSqf9mpb4
"No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76MeYkbfcC
"What did he do to you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHP6EqvcJpe
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAOvhvJGf1
"Did you fight him?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RkAvdrgmg
"I tried."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAeIJyeOUB
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0btjD3SM8
"I think I blacked out."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0vpUWO4t1
"I see."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThJm2lSlPR
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkDFMK0690
"And how long were you with him?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQZ6pfgqff
"I think about ten hours."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9vY369SjC
"And you only just managed to escape?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscl5cl7VeD
"Yeah."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxsV84UeRN
"Do you know where you were?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptbNWFhwlP
I say "No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGEJ1fq4M2
"What is the last thing you remember?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQgkw3zJf5
"I remember walking down the road."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI6K55Xezh
"And then?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1g8D8etsy
"I don't remember."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrS0EDBc4t7
"Do you know how you got away?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhCQiBJaun
I say, "I just ran,"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo06em0b5xr
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ7wiWjOwj
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbECVwDKCP
I say, "So that's how it all happened."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95ogZYVucE
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaaz4h0Bi4
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZK7sz7ja0
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4dtaoQWqn
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqsScykc6M
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQVNJbJSz5
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoB4iR4e14
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXcOwXMZqJ
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH1hGW0Qs6
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz5UDaqVTL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnWL5nG0g8
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vn0xTh8kq
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIEpDljqS9
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOjog7Y0z2
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLN3ZF1EzAE
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mf266FnHv
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKmdKqeV8F
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq9wbLo9WwAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYJlZgLHbn
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCxJXfr2os
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡas3N9FDStI
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fqrzZKv3n
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7mAHyC3Zh
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L0FYQh14t
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKRVOma7Si
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX6hujpA8U
"Get up." he says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxAHszTIx3
"Why am I here?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzl41OE6s1t
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYYsijwXap
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZWsaS3ekc
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZR4SmsRpG5
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhHhz85VqF
I sit down.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nVwa6QX8K
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0murFDD6V
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRArKsWb20
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVldzYogE3
I say, "No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ1a3d8lkd
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7peqmK1nJ
I respond, "Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0g4t7OTQm1
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFECswVTNr
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZzdYb6fMC
"Yes."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfP56CMWCf
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRf2szNzXo
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi49rzYpC6
I say, "Hi."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNNKgmIGad
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd0ENX8B5J
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOXo4diC7k
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw2ebiFt2V
"Right away," says the woman.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCquqLdSzp
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bLbyZoTbO
I say, "Okay."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAskNqk6nX1
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DUnWnve87
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0fAUo8JQT
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLRMjnNQtt
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQjZYBCiSO
"He kidnapped me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83TJmhV9NY
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrDQcYki0x
I say, "He tried to stab me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqkp1FSkv6
"Who was he?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmW4c9oIFC
"I don't know."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHXsWyYvLQ
"Where did you get the knife?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzhAHqH4KH
"He had it in his pocket."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9zwY3HfM9
"Did he threaten you in any way?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwms4mSbzI0
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLVPNg4dyh
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDQWr2lnCU
"No."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltTz64QRm9
"You sure? Think hard."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzr7TPBAyl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lkmLDH2p9
I say, "He killed my father."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaI4jIpq5WA
"What?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLWn0oXtdE
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYl0Ss9t36
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KVCk9SVbQ
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7amiEh1Cbp
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxczolTReLn
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhBrYhxa5C
I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs5w5M8Kyg
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8Ek1NPlzk
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO8gvrEMux
I follow him.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FgUMaEucz
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6htJJrMAfN
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrHW7HwPjy
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCLHSwFYGb
"Alright. Take a seat."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPNuGYuPq1
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7qJxq2aU1
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9asuyxB2W
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoZnKyXytJ
"Yes.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIltYUMNhi
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRYbFoZsWd
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB5vBHV3Rn
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKZYMzluk3
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlqJomyv8G
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92S3df8udv
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9sfoxS38v
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYnJjjnvBF
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNihM0T0pRt
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI1mUwbhj5
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCnptRPDpi
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt1jEZocOw
"What is it?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaT9KcrS4k
Doctor Kessel says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqS2CgyOJpT
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT46aT8NHNk
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZNwlDb799
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi5uD93lF9
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBkcFKYeie
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY80Hfr3Tn
The nurse shakes her head, and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOvp0SdGvx
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkVo1xWtOg
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD1rz77syE
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1PbPuYbx4
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASpuG1xsPl
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0CSJQJqCT
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubTx9GXFXU
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgxrJ4QkFe
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Im3uDANKB
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0BjKsmy16
I say "Where am I?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxveuVJVgnN
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaTzV0TP9c
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7KURecMSn
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4W5qC6SbPe
I say, "I want to see my mom..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPjP9vC9P8
The nurse interrupts me and says,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzI5g7hB3D
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3ZkZBdxbL
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBKokfuHtD
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnkgV0agYwA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7nwg8hwbI
"M-mom.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZQXxZhFf8
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre7z8i3ha9
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKypgPoMZ3
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukh68w2xTP
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2REhnCOrj
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTTY54arbR
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeahsD2vNy2
"Yes.." I say quietly.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFheoOK0L7j
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkN9kjAOn0n
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunN17HnvdR
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwM3rIOQ7N
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBEwWdvqvI
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46e3V4gOnx
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2JwET7eHT
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNPjMj9N9w
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ1rw4LR1D
I say, "Okay.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡactPM9uJ3Y
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFCHO2bvw9
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNwlGtDIKU
I wipe the tears off my face.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VZEVMmJG8
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1AF7x6ii7
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YF67yWLHK
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RYj7PMSSI
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTbaOWFeSl
I say, "Tell me!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6S85RC1BO
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbKPDH7TON
My heart drops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkpvmI1QyH
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9X12tqotN
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153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDuuNDtrruIn the morning, I get my visitors.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAwwMyJLiz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22RvLH1Bk9
I say, "Wait!" She stops.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpizcxahasu
"What is it?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SUx3e7JqU
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTvsGPpL07
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4veNOIa1h
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPLp4WP93U
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTDQ8Ona6Q
I cry myself to sleep.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ080RC3LLF
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyY1JtmRlu
"How are you doing, honey?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVGYqoIxDe
I say, "Horrible.."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wih9wZR9j
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9x3Kh7c7t0
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIDjD0PJtV
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvVUis5e3o
"It's not your fault, honey."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCW74vEMYb
I start crying again.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OFdXubqnd
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31BfjY8py2
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrUyelpDMd
Maybe I'm dead after all.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUEE7Eoj4O
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBF4qelBKMv
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpfLIy60e1
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dbVNsTk4l
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnCVBD87Iw
I say, "I still want to win this."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBSCHX6DoO
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZx92gPjTe
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToQlkQC2fv
"Really?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XdeVK01js
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tDSHbguXs
I start crying, and I can't stop.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0hevkiJeX
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7glFL8APlZ
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBJ5bx5Zhx
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePomAUnLjt
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYef8Osbuy
"I wanted to see the flowers."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlSVJOOBi0
"Why are you out of your room?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLDgicYnE2
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFokUYcSw0C
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpJPKnAs9j
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r6WzBw5Sm
"Thank you for being you."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoqD3sRiQW
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeAG2sP03a
I make a decision.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtolfucYFEN
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckogUEB9Rj
"What's your name?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z37OLu6zC
"Allisa," I say, smiling.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3H1kn0a1x
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlrfZaBYTt
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxv5lDzOtC
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyer9q4YOi
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi6a0q2Sn2
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