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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU771ErH5Dg
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAjpicFAqt
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EvJMVAVXE
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9MP7COO6z
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ5bRyPscK
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UxxQFE0Oi
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1A6Fuffobm
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVChHNJZrP
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1Upp2C5XL
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhSN4lqsN9
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnpNYlxV4j
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd1bZRE3RH
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AXkH2bt0K
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO7HEzyZJB
Alas... all he had was just his hope179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDghdDejfNn
Alas... & what he got was a nope...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXajeRERzBe
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X4GnEbXad
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vAuZIkL7d
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwXJQlcsDZ
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxaenvH7um
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9f9LcsXhG
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ycigkSI8Z
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJXcpq1B4v
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxB1zUsTI6
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Chapter II: When it all began179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSKuN1xc0F
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3kTx1iYH2
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5HA5HxHwf
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuSh4To6XV
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wlgTOOnMS
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt6Dzud5ip
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wrC5FV6mP
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHu56y1xjXf
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC6ENxQsUT
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February 2018179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMP0kASUjs
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQk2l9UkKIy
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJPHXfR8fw
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUoZtBTrjA
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhqxGMXz7p
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTprm6jduD
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June 2018179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYQAhiLVdX
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHYX723V3n
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcis3XZ4pxH
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December 2018179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡim5kI0zVNj
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zWPjr9CV4
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSQYaJVOa2
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhQXUeZszj
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July 2019179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNMHDMrfow
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPQrbSYpBJ
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOjlho3vtq
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowHLybsMsv
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October 2019179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBRK6eDLw5
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8x0o8PQE7
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9t2U2jYft
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMwvIGLnlw
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDllvrsRR7D
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4UWlrjCqQ
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November 2019179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7VDmjlMdV
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPL3UhjNHIa
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S8Vw1z7Ey
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa4R9mEzh6
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Vx2ZiHd8i
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EwpaKdtE9
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH8HNkmr9k
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6YXlWrbqy
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02JPah57gK
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June 2021179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEwbwUE788
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIy2WDja94
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X0HIewjZI
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkr2H1xVXs
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7uyFKO8Q6
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TytYbcr8V
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January 2022179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJpTfhGtW0
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsKtiZIagy
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJAD13PCIT
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March 2022179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOrcKn2vFV
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcTfOCN4r0
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVlGsmL29V
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnczWKSuct
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Pfaz0r04c
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG51yL7GMpN
Stay safe, Sandra!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaB9C9Z8vJ
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April 2022179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP12xaDiVJ5
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJLF8TT1Yx
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofr5M3xK7K
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVJtDZn5sx
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt1akafBi3
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Chapter V: The End of an Era179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdCJhXaTqK
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhAqtRr1N9
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRXcvdUuQq
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlimAOroGQ
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdttcW1LZv7
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMSdHoMlQI
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fAx3NEfwR
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2EAHf4cj5
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqwE9j1ggB
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tCYanGCR3
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHT5KETlqr
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn97elX8CH3
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfp6Cykixm
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypsOaUR4Y1
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6BtWkby68
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God be with you179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGOzb5Bt5h
Kaduk"179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDi8AXjQgl
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6ByldZoJ2
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...179Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AOw4vzhMW
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