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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEShlv5vdEH
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNjrNi3jK0
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaTWupIMjP
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnxAJwKfMR
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPVOU9whXj
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd0Ww2iiG2
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5EnrK9ACm
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUwGx2AcSY
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog4ryRbd6M
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigpKN7PgLs
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWuQca9FzP
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSImtGfDdwy
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjnnibI9XW
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQ4NtnT3ye
Alas... all he had was just his hope191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6c6WhHsAf
Alas... & what he got was a nope...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAD3AeZZE0
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxDbkb98Rj
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAACEfY7JX
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMnqcPAtFG
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3w1YXPBvlD
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkHHRVMniz
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNu8L1kAkb
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEPmCIUXXE
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0u8fAnebMU
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Chapter II: When it all began191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwWy8qwJo1
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzipjPlxk0
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ167nqkwyj3
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Abk5wk35
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGyMQvTfbt
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9ga4raMEM
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBJiBJQr9E
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQrbkyMAvJ
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xENp0RpsD
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February 2018191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS86ZV3jtl
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGp0enhyvyI
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSIV0DL5xC
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpsJp1EuTI
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoi5JEYhHw9
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxikCqHwYt
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June 2018191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ACYNt4Fyz
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GWIphIyE8
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMDPiIuXmU
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December 2018191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBYLEpGt1I
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡum1YRy8HzI
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJw9dPyc9g
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV7uWAVrKF
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July 2019191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFACJcxfr3t
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0nC6NOgBR
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9AdBZhDUi
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKBU05jWxo
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October 2019191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8jat5HmVd
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VR5Ox4os4
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHWKO7iQRQ
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDp0EMOFJz
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTXokp16FL
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZzP0PT7td
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November 2019191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZ5jJu5C5h
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5Q7ATPrrp
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Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWR5jm9r9j
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgU2omuLyuE
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeZLeeiAAQ
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQe86P34qCo
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZ4skQHkDy
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyIZdpOyU8
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June 2021191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDeYZz8ozp
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfInRwfCqh
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLd8w0z25C
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDxNzXOaSr
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRVjZjwhpR
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oQB3Xsf1y
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January 2022191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4lUa5aEP7
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pF6cYaIri
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmWZQRyv4n
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March 2022191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH8kjLJntS
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FP1D0jMy4
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W7uauZZzh
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbBrCaXmkh
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWGBC6rtve
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIgnQmDYXX
Stay safe, Sandra!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3yY4Zgtok
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April 2022191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkvwiUJc3J
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6cZvzv74p
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XPshwvh61
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9RD300Tfo
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydBr5gyF5o
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Chapter V: The End of an Era191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgdSMQRhEJ
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQUXfmHUKO
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvu1StmYZuu
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7Hn0EsTxX
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhyeCcFgFl
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnUHLgiFXv
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhy1aUR3yy
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXWGTDJFpc
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fkeT7NJzf
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UmKfGZHxf
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQNKC7rcoP
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wGa8oSSpC
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStgHFGgeAs
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtI8nlc61n
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Omp4llqzF
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God be with you191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbf0OVqkqP
Kaduk"191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHBQjPqenA
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67X9ZsZUyM
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...191Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNETTwtHEZ
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