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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABT037n5ic
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgB9giw6jU1
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHWNPnMlrN
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIxAGiKA58
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2lPNcT5bO
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyPXTsZr54
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfEnqnaPhd
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYWnVvREWa
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpT6nNtOo4
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXRez4xTB7
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQ5dpGJddM
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWZ0ETgnGw
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKaKiAxk1F
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7LJ2MQFnd
Alas... all he had was just his hope171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSYYtlU2F9
Alas... & what he got was a nope...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQVIke4TuT
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgFpHFKrH9
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9J12bNwDL
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndBRC5AzEA
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCKnSh0mBH
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLreRQ1Y3an
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiE8rbEqf2
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAwvwrFyV9
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNfunzMbWT
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Chapter II: When it all began171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dYWELvDTg
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx3OMvRpbS
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegabCqtqPh
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGRGqeiWG0
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNVPtCVyXN
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwvwkN8ZkJ
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSF1YKrB9q
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh2uZIe3AS
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTROLzcBa3s
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February 2018171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRq9XB8cnnN
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF55b7az5w3
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFReVcXYFij
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DnPUehuua
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmRMV0YqZc
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiSECC8MPW
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June 2018171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO9wxphJSl
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07rZqbvO6w
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xt4FV38RB
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December 2018171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUeISAccD3
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdo7ZOWJ39
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8qmTVxTgh
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlhxe9GsI2
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July 2019171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJdvMG7WMa
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04FIl2KAUn
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiruxYrJwP
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp93Y58aI6
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October 2019171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnODKIzhqGk
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxyztNb56x
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYzFZkQZYh
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uRT5q6gMg
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPrQWGUD7c
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjEbaNfQrt
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November 2019171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZPYQ7DTeQ
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rQK0fVZrt
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkABo9frl54
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmShScO1U3
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVhWczRTmW
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVFko9kiDE
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuaM3nDUe8
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGDfILvmV8
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKKAgsMerD
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June 2021171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKFvLdtONJ
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo3URkrGSr
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutFGimalsO
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS6Qtw5nt8
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLfUl4JJ9Y
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGm3dPKP1g
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January 2022171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡway3EgeUxz
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVaWmiWLdB
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnoRBVNdai
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March 2022171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY9gmnlUf9
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GTZzYixbi
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9a2ujPMThR
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGFwTol9iO
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbplXGwmSRp
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ONZQYXw1J
Stay safe, Sandra!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAZzyhLm7U
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April 2022171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSoVDiREv7
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolOAYobAT8
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhd6qJfSbBN
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ17ZKhlI2
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstfV2GnJDs
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Chapter V: The End of an Era171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqFMVPkane
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST1QeHE4WK
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrktO8NlDPe
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDClV3AWFpi
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaO3TcfZpD
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoYhzmBodv
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDY1qcNBpIx
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEuiF2nr36
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXacWpBX65
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsxQdrTtsu
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKn3kts7SU
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8YzJ6UzCi
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7ZSckId9T
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIazTkAz6v
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpduw3RHpUA
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God be with you171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBZROmBbim
Kaduk"171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGubl7pmHVD
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDEPEnK4FJ
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWwR5x5zBp
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