I wish I could understand why I feel this way194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaspSDs8g4
Why flying doesn't feel the same 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RjjpeKvMQ
And the lows don't seem to fade194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoGpn5lLNt
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0r6htolmda
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQ4LgZRpdZ
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxfsV11cXH
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyeYnHoZ0U
I'll convert this pain into something that works 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwfUjAy16V
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQX3iLhEse
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZis5l8KAf9
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33Te1EsedV
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m7LJsPkR6
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRNTJXXZU8
The breathing turns to drowning 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCiK59aaO8
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvvhKopS8A
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurkDq7FIZw
But no one welcomes me with open arms194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltoun4sWkW
Their love is fictitious 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4rDSzFrsp
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9HtIjBcwi
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH1qpEhTVY
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJzhaAsYTI
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi6bz29Psd
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0UN6NISoZ
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbqQQpDF8b
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJ5NZH9RHJ
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNt1Klail3
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgheZSC50qQ
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6EVwx3fuL
They get their way, nothing remains the same194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHI34xX4IA
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVgDQId1l9
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawCqQ5ohEg
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWrlFprzml
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPZxke3aUO
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFxujIsY2G
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpPLq8066L
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxqBwGIrqw
But full of myself and always on time 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FAkTLSoRf
I admit that the crime is mine 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYcZjFkQvj
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrlRraOoNq
The devil will lose his incentive 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4m5q9QV0f
The weak little girl, poisoned 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPQfCJXUYm
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgF2LYoltfh
Brick by brick 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sFzdw27YJ
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWcYTz21Ra
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBT6x4QrYYl
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7X9LZ1jMJ
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCVzYCMiUT
It's still right there 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcOPDWnnHv
The devil on my shoulder
