I wish I could understand why I feel this way195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwX6PwuALR
Why flying doesn't feel the same 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvgt9EXYzi
And the lows don't seem to fade195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pZbTqqwTU
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5PRX3YPok
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW4PCtcPpf
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76mv1GpziP
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZJhbUBj98
I'll convert this pain into something that works 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3JeWGo7z8
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xZpKlUtbJ
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDEQnUKUMG
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqXaUHwOda
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHf8OW54U6
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ794hNF4dwt
The breathing turns to drowning 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnCVRnIZTs
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4NXVhHco8
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsoEifX08A
But no one welcomes me with open arms195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkm98RWFKBX
Their love is fictitious 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo1YFB8Kkv
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBylGeC9oU3
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Fl27Hwqos
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2HxSHDC8U
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gx208pAh3
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0xqrLHAho
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNrK7vmb0Y
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMo3jmOQuR
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJcnqSF8dp
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbMf0sweJs
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPg7BdEIMeg
They get their way, nothing remains the same195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XopYFLorz
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHREIbwawr
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYf4bkprnZ
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPJFDnIQ6s
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4hGje4GK5
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN4mJIRRUU
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iISqWcZ28
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz15J3j5zn
But full of myself and always on time 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQT4H1aHNQ
I admit that the crime is mine 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELP4XrPnam
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEK6GMbNWJ
The devil will lose his incentive 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQlRiT6wLF
The weak little girl, poisoned 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzApiZ05mC
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL2usn769H
Brick by brick 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbCeF8jSVy
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN8yU6OXCc
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wCU9VJk4L
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HPIhZHa75
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYBacUhHpI
It's still right there 195Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3I3Lr9NYz8
The devil on my shoulder
