I wish I could understand why I feel this way159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6AeMRaCKz
Why flying doesn't feel the same 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LHDqW0mhb
And the lows don't seem to fade159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ486kozLtcn
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzL8MAQCAPo
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm4JXVRPwR
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLRSG41OVN
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jV0ZtaMvZ
I'll convert this pain into something that works 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzguevOvUBz
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2fV05cvkj
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86emuvAzkn
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLmRd1BEtH
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPtCsSr2kv
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9KN4JG7OX
The breathing turns to drowning 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7RdfT3NqR
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5Ny3Bgy46
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiyfz5lVQ1
But no one welcomes me with open arms159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7MIiObsFU
Their love is fictitious 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRntfPA9KA
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5UHcKqwrO
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKmOJrsxiQ
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrf2i9QSaVB
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkCRiiFYMR
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GneybXz1M
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDY1s2Sqxp
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBxUVH6GR5
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRu13YXCr6
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDSiUXAoFt
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoKmgfhZsg
They get their way, nothing remains the same159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3OYtLt1Lj
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTXT1ED5NW
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbD6mT9TgRQ
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZZ3k8F6Lk
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMeq2VVoiJ
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX9c071qoB
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF234kirqmS
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZEN7iCCy7
But full of myself and always on time 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXqEvGJJhY
I admit that the crime is mine 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLdQMOM7CJ
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpRaAJ9FeO
The devil will lose his incentive 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX9I6saVCA
The weak little girl, poisoned 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3jsDNmV5N
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgs5ehFRF6
Brick by brick 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoMYVnCF3n
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0uLQNhpeI
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IlR4QId8x
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONnSoKe5Hd
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgmGQLqqAe
It's still right there 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuEc55QiP6
The devil on my shoulder
