I wish I could understand why I feel this way175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlPwJC2yxp
Why flying doesn't feel the same 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFglOmPtLac
And the lows don't seem to fade175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4dOARNnhw
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLs9GikUtkD
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34MAqzTQ64
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH36i3r9VOu
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7eZziZlJM
I'll convert this pain into something that works 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreu3AulMwY
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sdgULNkDW
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WYn9VRlnV
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS45VP4Fzqf
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZRpcXe52Q
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjGjVwAr0b
The breathing turns to drowning 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsbflokICJ
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFz3aRxtXK
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuXVEoaNhv
But no one welcomes me with open arms175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ozH5KoNup
Their love is fictitious 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxg8KFnlG4
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHm2kxojSM
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ppXmduT5j
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx69ZCRPEQ
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSrVlQ6Wwt
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWSlcXX4J7
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0muUV1zb4
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kGHnKQ9xY
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZADgW8ykq
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAfae3dIJp
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK1JhHXQgm
They get their way, nothing remains the same175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeA0YPVOW8
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOTuASVnD3
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEPuliIc9d
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7CHLpTIbD
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZhPZCi333
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wA6N01rls
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRxIH7ulKc
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJckmsXn49
But full of myself and always on time 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpKCJ5yzTu
I admit that the crime is mine 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDxdUd3Jsa
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvrsYbZ4VR
The devil will lose his incentive 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDe7asNlHv
The weak little girl, poisoned 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8vWMaRBbr
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizVMMtnpCx
Brick by brick 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKG05lesUY
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMY2FO3l1dE
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXWa7oQGDV
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG61iNOHjlf
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw5FLP6lOu
It's still right there 175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsW5Bo28DQ2
The devil on my shoulder
