I wish I could understand why I feel this way149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydo4QkxC2J
Why flying doesn't feel the same 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFqGRALzsL
And the lows don't seem to fade149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSBjr3ukI9
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7bBagg38S
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYrwcoMrR9
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvucJh4O0gT
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn6qHfaMIP
I'll convert this pain into something that works 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNFEdWBy2P
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUtjByM21K
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JbsDi6ka6
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb51z15SOQ
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAa6p2W55d
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8VMtOkUWJ
The breathing turns to drowning 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUdcNL5J4Q
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuXljwzSyZ
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT56yMWPvzp
But no one welcomes me with open arms149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2DfHFVZHz
Their love is fictitious 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArJWEcvaXX
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QDhLI9xBL
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMNMFqVNSE
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFxx0F2aST
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hVBG5k4nE
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNSKaPwn1w
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RVWLSh89M
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6m4wl5xEg
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYsxjmow47
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSALoGCEqfp
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TBo6UZNYZ
They get their way, nothing remains the same149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhYArZDibd
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbW1fr7icV
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aAeZOgP1W
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJe5ohYhqOY
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwgXCCCgG7
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMFG7OOTvI
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSaDib0D4E
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeHHq6Dzwt
But full of myself and always on time 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGlnemGi2N
I admit that the crime is mine 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFh5Rlwlna
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNQZrlxYcH
The devil will lose his incentive 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92AdvV6uuc
The weak little girl, poisoned 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsuKBc7La4
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pXUQu8CYN
Brick by brick 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCManQG2asn
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMffQSyQ4kh
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvv0ixYugQ
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEfHmBIIYa
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc50LP61px
It's still right there 149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqa6OtHfyqH
The devil on my shoulder
