White sheets stained red in a hotel bed140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNPZ8infj5
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX6fE0wVVc
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzt02yz2OIY
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoflRfPqwB
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCQ5so9OFH
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1Z3hcerhV
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdG7lnPEQlQ
Vivid visions invading my rest 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyH975zuXA
I can't sleep because all I see is death140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPQODsGkgX
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlRo0Pueqy
Thinking about death at such an early age140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcT86flipO
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUdpz3M8ov
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNc4eoJp05
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUsNDQ8qYi
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmX3mht91P1
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqPt8hUWPA
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWApxZjLKi
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjIOAc1hiW
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYDpT1AwK3
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF35j7IBVf
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSIgvxUJrT
Nobody actually cares until you're dead140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBfLddUOTs
Until you're another headline in the news140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhCsIcRlbo
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQEfyidcRV
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x711SB8F5
"I miss you today" 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gzy7QgefG
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kV9b5ektY
But they care now, 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkThZ7BHPRl
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcqlM3YNpQ
Mixed signals is all they send140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwCqmcn8ET
One day I matter to them 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpasNmI8fpQ
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP26kmW7QTw
A few months ago, I felt like flying 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CtaraFDvo
A few months ago, I truly felt alive140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG7LFniwVo
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P8b6ECfuG
It's hard to explain with words,140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeNFkpkqd4
How the silence kills 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHN57cvt7D
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxxalSSQNL
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDl8MgmI1zW
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSe7tENfCvC
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmDgi9rGMN
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPl3cih1Il
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaMoSrI2xC
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz62ibwBJKt
The little voice in my head, it screams it140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISBm0g0Myn
"This was their choice"140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL6sTRwIgZ
And to be lonely all the time is mine140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWIaovCkai
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuUn2oNaDQ
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPvQ9qHnPw
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZidqaGEPEi
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8DfT4fuSn
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmvehjxkXI
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlzw4jBpct
I wish somebody would call140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1JLSP2vSM
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeMjFVJBcy
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pzwYrWVbr
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm8aodaPXD
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC5PNro5jU
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6CMQ3rHLH
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19MlEM4hPg
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
