White sheets stained red in a hotel bed180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqfJwCYFOK
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMWmuwCa3D
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HNPCRbxRN
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNG6SO1w7h
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu49wauGCle
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2Uzeijzv9
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJiFio5xfF
Vivid visions invading my rest 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXo0YSA5O8F
I can't sleep because all I see is death180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXAsjErehx
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBy9fwAeL5
Thinking about death at such an early age180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHWAhpm34t
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOv1Si3Hyl
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHxIRN5mwi
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV2H89f7GB
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FGDsPoaIx
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXUrvoAUV3
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg9WbQTUUu
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19GFq9ojRI
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7KJnKI32R
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q5m0yVsbM
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphsJtKcYta
Nobody actually cares until you're dead180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWakIy8zpC
Until you're another headline in the news180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeq00Fxl1e
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmbyhZijBr
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1x8f6lGnZ
"I miss you today" 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivo9tEKTLT
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0C8kBkt4q
But they care now, 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36FiFSULBg
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQODZwMjSI
Mixed signals is all they send180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0luSp5thNT
One day I matter to them 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwyhUDx34b
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySvG5QQQc8
A few months ago, I felt like flying 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wSkgGozFv
A few months ago, I truly felt alive180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQHJAd79QD
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnp8D2dugj
It's hard to explain with words,180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahFAVrajeF
How the silence kills 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYaGuYRmbw
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZFcIBx0pr
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWkToFUv08
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvSRklUx8q
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxemAJIPBw8
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzcTUA7KRn
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1oEMKYnQL
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfuUHBR3ZW
The little voice in my head, it screams it180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthLuPy7ggJ
"This was their choice"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPsl0cRgHJ
And to be lonely all the time is mine180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNmO1b5KUU
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM77V4u8t2u
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7T9CTuXXE
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z6JrDH9D5
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiPdv35Bq6
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6KlwxhY04
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp0wVrDodt
I wish somebody would call180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5SvgIaAmg
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yp73vUxVR
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVwwEB7pag
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIG0Ze9iOj
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJc3lqSnQDf
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQ6XMqYXyT
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GkIbw9HTY
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
