White sheets stained red in a hotel bed153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvngmwqi2C
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZoxMrFNwM
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3iXTWfJWF
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwLskkCHYY
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFNPJNdqwN
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2JU7qmsch
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX64t5wRNq
Vivid visions invading my rest 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlkvAbsqQm
I can't sleep because all I see is death153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44yWoJAh7i
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga0WmWNiuB
Thinking about death at such an early age153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQfgOiXCzV
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQP6ZV5Ow3
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfFjVQSQfS
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTAHmWCRg5
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhzvr49YPr
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfbcX3SLqd
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE8EAv1Ef8
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVmhd2pkB9
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0lwdFwzBV
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKZOLAbOXL
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7HHn4x1pM
Nobody actually cares until you're dead153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDMESUXPiy
Until you're another headline in the news153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MM5Tm65fP
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncgGKEGcAZ
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mvsdebWeX
"I miss you today" 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNr7b59128
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzcp3QQRWI
But they care now, 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjbTkKJ5Aq
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSu7SmhQR0
Mixed signals is all they send153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBvZPOgVKz
One day I matter to them 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DlPlF3wK0
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnjpy6rg1M
A few months ago, I felt like flying 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYvhqLTkyb
A few months ago, I truly felt alive153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wiX68t3kK
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVg2fhjxIJ
It's hard to explain with words,153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5F6yVkOvh
How the silence kills 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUyAXGLfSh
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoNVGyNvLQ
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv0z3k3SX3
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsTw9unEzK
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbuYv62q7r
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9F2kou2d5G
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB7DFPPHZF
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJbaLMnCcY
The little voice in my head, it screams it153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdnDH5GLMz
"This was their choice"153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYL4UtmE1f
And to be lonely all the time is mine153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZil7GoTG8
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CaYE1IrYI
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVW6UQWObBD
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0zyF9oLjj
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pRLnIYo32
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1lg4GEySb
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3WhnWs6ah
I wish somebody would call153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGJhHaiLMH
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiDl0g2aRK
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSuSXkUixM
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTZDolal51
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFKEpVbuJ3
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJyaEWdWRK
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 153Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36GOCqHN22
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
