White sheets stained red in a hotel bed110Please respect copyright.PENANAbm3Jg9iXLg
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone110Please respect copyright.PENANAdvfsAhDzUy
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing110Please respect copyright.PENANAhARYwV5sqd
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping110Please respect copyright.PENANAzzpoVqsoxJ
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 110Please respect copyright.PENANAmO6efSRXCT
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 110Please respect copyright.PENANApxM8C0TS4H
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head110Please respect copyright.PENANAeED4wFGQc2
Vivid visions invading my rest 110Please respect copyright.PENANAWm2j2D2lO2
I can't sleep because all I see is death110Please respect copyright.PENANAVi3YaEQc7i
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 110Please respect copyright.PENANAfG6G6118u6
Thinking about death at such an early age110Please respect copyright.PENANA2aVcS3yzPX
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 110Please respect copyright.PENANAKHbQQT0eNn
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest110Please respect copyright.PENANAHCNnG7GJCF
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 110Please respect copyright.PENANA9eMFIXn4aa
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end110Please respect copyright.PENANAd3gwfKYKMy
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again110Please respect copyright.PENANATSPuVrLThg
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying110Please respect copyright.PENANAaQba9qPpmj
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries110Please respect copyright.PENANAIgYZIV35VW
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"110Please respect copyright.PENANAl50d2aOYYy
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 110Please respect copyright.PENANAfw4ZqZYG3d
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends110Please respect copyright.PENANA5tS3jHPtO0
Nobody actually cares until you're dead110Please respect copyright.PENANAtfapzDctuo
Until you're another headline in the news110Please respect copyright.PENANAkGYuFpE03O
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 110Please respect copyright.PENANAhZDjvsoHRq
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 110Please respect copyright.PENANABXAmlv4xlS
"I miss you today" 110Please respect copyright.PENANAoPdVWxCNoy
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around110Please respect copyright.PENANA9uEM5iJJ3C
But they care now, 110Please respect copyright.PENANAyeZulIiQ8Q
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 110Please respect copyright.PENANAzIXZSo14Wm
Mixed signals is all they send110Please respect copyright.PENANASbH1fWjiRT
One day I matter to them 110Please respect copyright.PENANAU544nAjdJz
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine110Please respect copyright.PENANAmrXjTokuR6
A few months ago, I felt like flying 110Please respect copyright.PENANAvtyI8rNHqv
A few months ago, I truly felt alive110Please respect copyright.PENANAY5EdzAtDy6
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 110Please respect copyright.PENANABzDUmGKOSy
It's hard to explain with words,110Please respect copyright.PENANAaeE6yCr50L
How the silence kills 110Please respect copyright.PENANACLpKYVzUFF
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 110Please respect copyright.PENANAeKpCLzGvQL
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 110Please respect copyright.PENANAUAWFv0GSUO
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 110Please respect copyright.PENANAaO9LKVRRAp
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow110Please respect copyright.PENANAvMp35DJugb
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 110Please respect copyright.PENANAYuM5sU7R7F
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 110Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ew5ullpKI
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it110Please respect copyright.PENANAn2bZtKdUhp
The little voice in my head, it screams it110Please respect copyright.PENANAFwBhKSG5ru
"This was their choice"110Please respect copyright.PENANAfgvwdnA53L
And to be lonely all the time is mine110Please respect copyright.PENANAtUdQmUHymt
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly110Please respect copyright.PENANAOQnKXrYiyC
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains110Please respect copyright.PENANAKfGkqVLk1c
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned110Please respect copyright.PENANAR5Ts6dSqOP
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 110Please respect copyright.PENANAQZOCD6ViJy
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 110Please respect copyright.PENANAeNM4GKJZnZ
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying110Please respect copyright.PENANAaOwepewZW7
I wish somebody would call110Please respect copyright.PENANApPYLDY2E9l
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 110Please respect copyright.PENANA4Cx1I0iH3N
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 110Please respect copyright.PENANAibpOkbP17L
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden110Please respect copyright.PENANAcvAqaTnp4g
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 110Please respect copyright.PENANAWJtVph5MUA
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 110Please respect copyright.PENANAr48nhXL1Ur
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 110Please respect copyright.PENANAXk0gZVth9W
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried