White sheets stained red in a hotel bed155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1uLyMnR4M
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZchuuuE3Z2
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFKUFlZ613
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefmN5CSevP
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kskNvMKdS
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcrIk2i3o5
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAYSgUGoY4
Vivid visions invading my rest 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiOXsNMJGq
I can't sleep because all I see is death155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m4EVzibEa
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1La4YlKxym
Thinking about death at such an early age155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEY1bidvKf
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9f8r4hVpl7
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhu6yBMm6fb
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnBXzCxmFC
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2Cmu1c72f
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMoxYJx7od
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMsA0bGZCo
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCzbgUxZJM
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK2HIZrOkz
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG9tiUrthT
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEadKxQSbis
Nobody actually cares until you're dead155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzIEVbhBYq
Until you're another headline in the news155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh00zC6MwP
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVcrlF6ui1
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E96pvhkGP
"I miss you today" 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIkz6Qjuns
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNiUnOd6Gi
But they care now, 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCbkGadKmJ
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwIpmt0rkD
Mixed signals is all they send155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4XMbH4zBc
One day I matter to them 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZBMAiEfL2
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsPKIUdoZE
A few months ago, I felt like flying 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OE6t6yTZM
A few months ago, I truly felt alive155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LaISfloeh
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdue90Bbsm
It's hard to explain with words,155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAVhz5VTUo
How the silence kills 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUaxDZDRB2
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDGqoZvIdP
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiJ6bN5MOR
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj1dcl7tu8
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVUqQbikm3
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F7ufvdlhu
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfv6YAQFrL
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KzsypKtEX
The little voice in my head, it screams it155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDqapXB0Sv
"This was their choice"155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH0MsgCrdd
And to be lonely all the time is mine155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKItH9ml5nL
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGjPVAEHLo
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaJw7aTGtn
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidsZ9FJhy8
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUoNsQ7AFJ
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SYy6GZX78
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1BTdX2d65
I wish somebody would call155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg46m0Z5IMz
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJrHQCDLUU
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzP7DbaF83
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpnPNdf3fH
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDZkBDqZOt
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡII5nJ1x2RL
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 155Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1X2yBwpiI
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
