White sheets stained red in a hotel bed181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURUXBI3XCg
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruJu3ePagJ
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iOxqLuHVO
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jrqWSxvHs
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yEKRmV3JD
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTvwVcljNb
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhSF9BHDwX
Vivid visions invading my rest 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiVbeTxH5S
I can't sleep because all I see is death181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja5M0NU8ze
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJH2Ho1tp8
Thinking about death at such an early age181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsapMu78fk
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiAF3cE8R2
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPXUuMPqlK
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCTv4pI3mg
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiF084hxGXy
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInq9Jn1R10
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTUsxQ4ls1
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpaZkVTfWC
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9F7QT3Mvu
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56d5jSdh0P
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JLGFszfri
Nobody actually cares until you're dead181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXhcl15Znz
Until you're another headline in the news181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTz5FGY4tD
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJLQoxgTtb
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvlSfJr9ce
"I miss you today" 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu8Da5qxxq
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrCO2Y93VV
But they care now, 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCVCs3oAgb
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLwHfIa8q0
Mixed signals is all they send181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTXTG17IuL
One day I matter to them 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIotmyha0j
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ752b1HC0ND
A few months ago, I felt like flying 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7C3IotERRI
A few months ago, I truly felt alive181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4KxsLz8XG
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOWlCm8tRt
It's hard to explain with words,181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwvBsejS0R
How the silence kills 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoKGQapRXf
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHtudBHbuf
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAZdLcnBzL
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSCJIu2GZH
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx482dyuWD
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ4p0Hh92P
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsCjb8ebLU
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveX248NovR
The little voice in my head, it screams it181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYEhOM8Vhq
"This was their choice"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwKpQDVVEI
And to be lonely all the time is mine181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNCKRjNMuu
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyEni3jymk
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYEbVjJ0cm
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuKxVJCkCo
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iIJBGRb2h
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30fpFGBUcz
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqAVlVdo78
I wish somebody would call181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWl1ZUc7pF
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1h1gTHjYL
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcePtvoeBQn
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpeBEoyPYP
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KcNxlNYKC
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9gRh8KBBH
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxt5I8WMSB
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
