Caspian watched her reaction when he asked her if she wanted love, she was confused then she seemed to contemplate it.
“No My Lord.”
“Your face said otherwise a few seconds ago.”
He watched he hang her head down,
“What type of love are you looking for?”
“None My Lord.”
“Even if you are not looking for love, humor me a bit then.”
He saw her nodding,
“If you had a suitor what the main attribute would you want them to have?”
“Compassion.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“I mean someone who is aware of other’s suffering and feels sad or some sort of emotion akin to what I just said.”
“What about looks?”
“Looks come and go but someone with a great personality one does not have to worry if it will come and go.”
Caspian was surprised by her firm and straight forward answers,
“Carry on Aurora.”
“Having someone who isn’t shallow and to have deep conversations with them.”
“I see you are calling me shallow?”
“No My Lord I could never, you are the most intelligent and magnificent of them all.”
“I did not ask for your flattery Aurora if I did, I could have anyone come and give that to me.”
He saw her nod in understanding,
“Have you met this kind of suitor that you want?”
“No My Lord.”
“Why is that?”
“I don’t have time as I am always working at the palace.”
“Have you ever had many suitors that want you?”
“Not really My Lord, as I don’t pay any attention to those sort of things.”
“Well you’re missing out on the simple pleasures of life, life will pass you by without you experiencing anything.
“But aren’t we all slaves to whatever we serve.”
Caspian looked straight at her, “So by your own words I am in bondage to my desires?”
He saw that she was squirming, in her seat.
“Forgive me My Lord I was out of my bounds, and I am a mere maid after all.”
Caspian nodded, why would he get rattled by a mere maid’s opinion of him, what did she know besides serving.
“You don’t have to sit frozen on your chair, drink.”
He saw her take tiny sips of her tea and it was cute the way she tried to blow the tea so it could be cooler,
He found himself watching her and his eyes zoomed in on her mouth, so pretty like strawberries, he wanted to kiss her again.
Would he let her?
“I want to kiss you Aurora.”
She looked up and was startled at his question.
“What do you say?”
“I can never say no, My Lord.”
“I don’t want to kiss you against your will but that you feel the same way as I do.”
“I don’t feel the same way you do My Lord.”
Caspian nodded, he knew she would not give in so easily even when he knew she was hiding her desires for him.
Something held her back but what was it that made her be firm in being a virgin?
Was she afraid of sex? Or did she want love? Or was she playing mind games on him?
“Why don’t you feel the same way if you don’t mind me asking?”
“I prefer the relationship we have right now, I as the worker and you as the master My Lord.”
“You are just putting up walls between us Aurora.”
“As it should be My Lord.”
Caspian was getting frustrated at her answers, seemed she had a book of perfect answers that were detached.
“It doesn’t have to be that way.”
“For me it is.”
Caspian was surprised at how strong her reserve was, she was tough to crack.
“Fine for now but I will tear those walls around you.”
“I would rather you not My Lord, you have many women at your abode, I just want to have my heart and job intact.”
Caspian could see that she valued her job more than anything,
“What if I don’t hurt you?”
Caspian was very much shocked as Aurora’s face was, how had the words just slip out of his mouth. What did he even mean by that?
His head was swimming, what was this girl doing to him?
“You may leave.” He said it roughly.
Aurora got up, “Thank you for the tea, My Lord.”
With that, she was out the door and she did not look back, she realized they were chatting for a while as it was time for dinner.
She got her food and sat down with her friends.
“What took you so long?” Ida asked.
“I was talking with the prince.” She replied in a low tone.
They all hurdled in at her words, “What was it about?” Ella remarked.
“He just gave me tea and said nothing much. I think he just wanted company.”
“Did you have any delicacies?” Agnes asked.
“The tea was amazing and I had one piece of delicacy as I was too nervous to eat in front of him.”
“Shame I would do the same if I was in that position.” This time it was Evelyn.
“Me too, I would be all over with nerves,” Barbara added.
“I have an old couple and they have their sweet moments if you do things in the right way,” Lucy added.
They spoke some more and Aurora made her way to her place. She got in and undressed then climbed into her bed.
She sighed as she only had told them a quarter of the story, Aurora did not want them to know the whole story that was happening between herself and Caspian.
Her mind started to wander, why had he asked her about love? Did her face show that she wanted a man to herself who would be devoted to her and her only?
The more she saw and spoke to Caspian he seemed to be burdened with something that he wanted to hide with his charm façade.
If she weren’t analyzing all of this she would not know as he was good at covering his emotions. Her face warmed when she remembered him saying he wanted to kiss her.
So he was sexually attracted to her and nothing more than that, she was just another girl to heat up his bed for a certain time frame.
If someone told her that she would be in this position were a prince wanted to kiss her she would have outright laughed at them.
It all seemed too far-fetched but here she was swooning over him.
She also wanted to be in his bed but she was afraid of so many possibilities, and most of all what if she got attached to him and her heart breaks every time he was with other women.
To make things worse, there was Nadia the woman who had to marry him and that meant they all would get discarded even before that.
Why did love have to be so complicated? It was a matter between two people unless they have Caspian’s methods of view on women.
Aurora did wonder what made Caspian sleep with so many women and not care about a single one of them.
Surely there was a girl who made an impression and that was how he had started to only do one-night stands.
This was just her speculation and maybe she was way wrong and he had a whole different meaning as to why.
The other thing that baffled her is that he did not care even if she saw the girls that entertained his room for the night.
It just showed her that she was nothing special and if she gave in, she would be like the other girls doing the walk of shame.
That is something she was not willing to do under any circumstances, she would much rather he focused his attention on Nadia.
It seemed as if she had hit a nerve today when she told him about the slave part, she was threading on really thin ice.
She had gotten away with so much, from slapping him, for speaking over her bounds. She needed to stop playing with a fate like this.
All she would do know is do everything monotone so that she would not give anything away. She rolled and after a while, she fell asleep.
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