im backkkk
its the sorry teenager again and what a joy it is to be back within an hour of the first issue.....didnt really think i would be back cus i my ability to stay consistent with things is just like not there
which brings me to a majority of the worlds population, so drugged and obsessed with social media and the endless scroll of doom.
i blame it on my comfortable life
I have great parents , they earn fairly well so i get to wear nice clothes eat nice food and have nice gadgets on which i can rot my self away in . but like i said before i was good for nothing , but i thought that would be good because maybe if everyone around me was always better than me, outperform me in everything until im left feeling like a piece of junk metal taking up space on earth , it would light a fire in me , the kind that cannot be extinguished .........the one that will get me working so hard that no one.
But unfortunately as always thats not what happend
well partially that is ........people my age being much better than me in every way o ye that sure a shell did happen
i drown myself in the sorrow of my own inadequacy in sugary foods scrolling on social media watching k dramas and reading porn .
which is not an uncommon way to deal with it sure .......which is not realy my point sio sorry for going off track but my point is discussing this theory of success
uk really successful and driven and obsessed with work ppl like david goggins, andrew tate, and all our billionaire company owners.they all had a really shit life in terms of parents, poverty as a kid , having to work with minimum wage jobs.in which they got treated like the shit under people's shoe...all this build up trauma during childhood and the young adult age that finally unleashes a kind of wrath that cannot be sustained so they turn into these machines that work nonstop until they get what they want ..........ye thats the kind of person i want to be
but no nuh uh uh.............my life is shit because im bad at it i have no one to blame absolutely nothing. because i had everything i needed. Top tier education . check. top tier school. Check. encouraging and supporting parents. check.the required gadgets and tools . check. self control? welll...no
im shit at everything i was not even a good person .but the problem is there is no one to call me out for it ......all the ppl in my life love me except myself ( if it wasnt already obvious)
its always just this feeling of being stuck in this stagnant pool unable to move because ur own legs refuse to carry u forward
Everyday everyone is choosing as soon as they wake up .but unlike the difficult science multiple choice quiz we always know which is the right choice to make but yet we dont make it
What if it was not a multiple choice question ? what if we were in a situation where we don't have a choice to make and the only option in front of us is to do the hard thing: stop scrolling start working. stop eating like your dying to get obesity and hit the gym
if only it was that easy.
motivation was always easy to come by ........but my dopamine addiction has gotten too strong for me to get my ass up and get to work.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wQPQDdC2J
thats the problem with dopamine addiction ( im sure that s not the actual term for what im referring to but im clearly too lazy to find out what the term actually would be so......)
so thats y im like this.....my life is too comfortable for me to actually get my shit together ....and its also the case for most of us.............our head is to wrapped up in these cheap luxuries......and whenever we want to work our head just goes "why? we are doing just fine like this".
( i wanted to post this yesterday but i forgot )
bye. i hope whoever is reading this gets all the encouragement they need to not be a quitter
also pls plspls comment........i want to know that ppl reading this actually feel something abt it
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