Dear Future Me:
I'm sorry that I opened my heart again, especially with what is to come. I don't know what is going on when you are reading this but I hope it is something good. That something finally went right in this stupid world.
I'm currently dating James, and my father got a job that he accepted. He leaves March 8th. Things are starting to get hard, but it's okay. Really. I just, have to keep pushing through. Though it does feel like I can't really be myself around my parents anymore... the tension of my dad leaving is hanging in the air, and despite us talking about it, hell, even joking about it, it all seems... awkward in the end.
GSA is coming soon, and I'm leading the group. I'd figured I'd let everyone know, since I told them about it most likely going to happen. Well, now it is... After that group I wont be leading for a while honestly, I've lead a lot already this year and it seems like everytime I lead it ends up in tears, so I'm sorry for that. Woops...
I haven't been as bad lately, talking to Hailey has really seemed to help a lot, to which I'm grateful to her and for her. I can't wait until I moved back to the states and get to see her again. When that day comes. *sigh* It'll be one of my happier days honestly. She told me that I'm helper her as well. She's been able to sleep more, and she seems to be happier more.
I love her so much. Just like I love Nicole. Sometimes, when people say that love is about the relationship you have with a bf or a gf, it's not just that. You have relationships where you are closer than friends, thicker than thieves.
...I hope that when you read this you still have Hailey and Nicole, and that your pride is still together and that you are still strong and hopeful. Just because Aang said that sometimes hope is a distraction, and that you don't need it, doesn't mean it's time for that now.
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