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Two weeks later..
STOP IT STOP IT-
I cried my lungs out..
I couldn't even hear my own shrieking..
The cold air from the window hitting my face turning both my cheeks and nose red...
who was I shouting at..?
my thoughts.. my mind.. just everything..
I was worried, angry... you name it-
My eyes full of tears, falling sideways due to the speed..
I was going way too fast.. my hands gripping the steering wheel..
My mind gave me no control, I just couldn't focus with such hurtful news..
Covering up your fucked up mess by causing consequences to those who have nothing to do with it.
Ryan deserves better..
"THOSE BASTARDS" I screamed remembering what just happened...
my fist rounded into a ball, my nails poking my palm pretty hard..
The blood dripping from my nose into my mouth..
This was just too much to process in such short notice..
God they're gonna see something that they won't like..
Those salty tears burning my ripped lip..
I screamed again.
So frustrated, suddenly U-turning in the middle of the high way.
Causing me to arch to the side barely sitting on the driver's seat..
Uneven breathing attempts..
my clenched jaw begging me to drop..
What's happening to me-
I blinked my eyes to just clear my blurry vision, but it didn't help at all..
Does anyone have a heart anymore..? Or is it all that I get rocks and robots..?
like that saying: 'There's no life to whom you're calling'
looking at the ground next to me papers and books everywhere..
I had to take them, evidence.. it was so much to do in such little time..
The had the video tape in my lap, so grateful I recorded ever single thing that happened...
I wanted to throw up when his remembered That guy's face
Marcus..
My phone lit up all of the sudden, buzzing on the seat right next to me.
I thought it was Ryan but it wasn't..
It was my mom, I just had no readable emotion on my face..
She always, always senses if I've been into deep shit whether she was next to me or not.
my shivering hand reaching for my phone, the cold glass on my fingertips..
Four messages, two pictures two texts..
It was a picture of me and my parents at the beach, I took the selfie with my mom's phone that day. We always share the pictures we have, like to reflect but in this situation it was different.. The other one was an eight year old me, so innocent.. standing in front of the shore my hand on my cheek acting as if I was thinking my eyes squinting since it was daytime still, a slight smile drawn on my cheeks... I've never seen this picture before..
Momma❤: When You are only You, no need to search elsewhere.... just look for the beauty within and in the eyes of people around you (flower emoji)
Momma❤: Small action of kindness and spreading beauty might me your lifelong message on earth
That was it, I sobbed even harder. Everything is just so out of control.
I'm worried about him. It's ridiculous how I can't go a day without him.
My foot went harder on the pedal in the empty highway I couldn't see anything but a bright light blurry lights cross by..
My temperature dropped when I saw the bullet pierce through my window.
Oh fuck here we go again
I drove faster, not knowing what to do.
I looked at my mirror to see Marcus aiming his gun at my tire, driving that wicked looking sports car.
My eyes widened jumping to the back seat.
Opening the window, my upper half stopping to look at the passing road tracks
A hard crash, threw me across the ground dropping my gun a few feet away..
A sigh left my lips looking at the collision of our cars turning into a big fire..
my eyelids dropped, as my body just stopped on the cold ground...
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A/N:
omg at last-
i swear to god i re-wrote this chapter twice yesterday cuz somehow i forgot to 'save' it. glad i even wrote it today :')..
anyways, phew i got this off my list, mercy mercyy... Hope y'all are doing just fine having a nice morning/ evening whenever you're reading this :D can't believe we're like one month down till 2021, this year was packed ngl either it's too much or just we got our minds distracted. buuuuut, ehem, you have to have faith in god, he won't give you more than what you can handle because obviously if he did we all would have been extinct or just mourn all the time which is such a non-liveable life so i guess we should be grateful, i'm sure we all have blessing pouring on us and we're just blinding ourselves from seeing the beauty in it (^^;) ok imma shut up before i get one of my theories rolling around again.. heres a joke just cuz i feel like saying one-
what did a book say to the math text book..? you got problems..
okay okay here's a not so nerdy joke.. T_T what did a hat say to another hat..? you stay here, i'll go on a'head'387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoliuvvfaIZ
*hits the drums* ba-dum-tssss387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl083NQcNK
yeah, i think i should go to bed-
well fyi, the only thing holding me from just leaving the chapter for another day or procrastinating was because i actually wrote the chapter just cuz i wanna leave something for you H 👉🏻👈🏻
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ahhhhh i feel like i'm leaving you this love letter admitting that i love you for the first timee god i'm burning rn- i just miss you so muchh.. like i love you i wish i could just come hug you and let you fall asleep in my arms wallah.. you know you're so sweet right? im just reminding you cuz like what else should i do.. would you listen to dusk till dawn for me, idc if you know it already just hear it again as if i was the one singing it to you, cuz i will someday.. wait did i mention that i love you 😅 i feel like saying a hundred times i bet i'd be sleep talking :P you have no idea how everything around me just winds up reminding me of you. or how i turn so red when i remember something you said when i'm just doing my homework- idk i feel so excited and enthusiastic idk why but it's cuz i have something to daydream about and just feel like the luckiest idiot in the world~ i love you dumdum idc if this sounds annoying, but i know you like it :D i just wanna ask you if i could keep the jacket you gave me that day when we were walking.. remember..? i need a souvenir and something to just hug 24/7 that reminds me of youu.. i heard that nothing lasts forever.. would you be my nothing? oh and i went to the doctor today and he said i lacked vitamin U.. 😂 sorry i just love you so much.. I wanna ask, were you a boy scout when you were younger? cuz like you sure have tied my heart in a knot :D❤ oh umm i was struck by your sweetness, so I need your name and number for insurance reasons... 😅 that was worth the wait i had it since the beginning of the week :P 387Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtkJqC3CaO
i wish you sweet dreams and warm snuggles here are my kisses for you 😚❤❤, i love you my boo so so much, i'll be holding you hand in my head wherever i go because i want you to know that i'm always here for you ❤
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