Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeUhcTJqkr
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOJfIfHBNG
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKc4vXQwzA
It's been four months since that day.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26zV5H41mB
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoNx0JMCjy
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWH2owHcdy
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZB646kesG
Only loneliness.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJAWQZyR9j
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zz3jUth1T
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XuR3VedZh
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRqOx9UIE0
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurrLMkNHdK
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiixYUgYvG
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzaivrFyOK
They remind me of home. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0tfnqaDj3
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCiNYbLXw7
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTjuD8BpfH
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYkAaYCa0M
I don't want to be here. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWOpFhpPVi
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhdekxOBV2
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYC2i2EUwG
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQYLUGhPXg
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcssdSF03C
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbWRAEdbOx
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1T1Djy9IXy
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE2Vm98BlK
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUK8ZmSpDoU
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFlL8mXq4T
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66627TRSB3
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLww4D4zy20
I want it to make sense.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtntPeRND3B
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhNeQEopl7
The PaperGarden.509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUz9pSXSOAs
To be Continued...509Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQgq6HxB1p
