Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8WWXnoduj
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfL8PJ7qrV
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutmStS8GyV
It's been four months since that day.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYurNkSUDH
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlT1pfzMAf
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8bpYtV9F5
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfMEnKUVk7
Only loneliness.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeeEygA8Ei
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lpK2iYO2p
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSZy4oAjWD
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw2K5HhVf1
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhx28esUw2N
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWSkSJYbWj
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3PmYCpSuD
They remind me of home. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwumP5jPkri
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75gf8xEGtv
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOVcMLQdZP
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHjjc35Znl
I don't want to be here. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYTFnCH3pb
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5FCekohbi
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09Nsas3Re8
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lvdN39pca
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI2Itb4wFK
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KhncwJA7V
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgl6A0bwGM
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxZ63CviCb
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Mh1zXbe0G
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXrEaISHlm
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOf1kajlpy
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBne4EyCaPA
I want it to make sense.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CxMiNLTrV
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLkc8R0vxQ
The PaperGarden.631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVqqFJcs2i
To be Continued...631Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoiUUYb22y
