Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAyY9L8mkh
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv969qhKgT1
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUna5khw51
It's been four months since that day.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzCTCx3w5F
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6pCObtMgg
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf21geJdLPQ
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgedWW61p0V
Only loneliness.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TCYzjWbLQ
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeZjzQnXqo
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdsbkYYPKD
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjD9jXFImhV
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO23dnEKZRx
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSmbh5Ddki
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrsGVQ1zh5
They remind me of home. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U2YJZzvy0
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7lfDjjOgy
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9rkSq1DzL
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGruymCpBT
I don't want to be here. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4BtOqjDWW
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmoAvc7vqH
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoluBpi6KuS
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVCVgMyAiK
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2sy3Xq4lJ
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91SESwPjP8
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m4AIx47kr
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pGxQwMNyv
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypkChwF3Jt
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxpBjSdrPX
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkyYiDKmXv
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKkZZBnheS
I want it to make sense.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySUeEP5Qi6
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngr4ZHCNa7
The PaperGarden.576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKelFuKswPS
To be Continued...576Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xbxqoFk5i
