Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 482Please respect copyright.PENANA7vTUcAxNBZ
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAUCgsuQodvH
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.482Please respect copyright.PENANAvEm4qGYdZM
It's been four months since that day.482Please respect copyright.PENANA2gUcw6PTNQ
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAU3vVJV8yWs
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 482Please respect copyright.PENANA8cFuBM5nmk
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAkgCcUXS7xF
Only loneliness.482Please respect copyright.PENANA04sXgyOf5v
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.482Please respect copyright.PENANAR2MVoJ7wWz
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 482Please respect copyright.PENANACQUZYyWW6Z
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAgnxqWkcz1W
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 482Please respect copyright.PENANANCacnjGg88
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 482Please respect copyright.PENANASW27Q3uV6V
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.482Please respect copyright.PENANAKSdTD2IjH8
They remind me of home. 482Please respect copyright.PENANATA3LKoW0NE
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.482Please respect copyright.PENANAaIoFagSUnQ
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 482Please respect copyright.PENANA2MgHw7CIOY
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAC1PnqAHeBB
I don't want to be here. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAYcvBOD1muS
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAywBzau7Yfc
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 482Please respect copyright.PENANA8QeeJomJqi
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.482Please respect copyright.PENANAyGpWVLvUK9
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 482Please respect copyright.PENANA3e5b83m9Mc
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAinrRRocDuE
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.482Please respect copyright.PENANAGcMS6YYcfX
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAMiDpYpfjOm
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAdzuETYppcm
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAbPjZULRN0q
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.482Please respect copyright.PENANAh1CxdOj09n
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 482Please respect copyright.PENANAhvtWsrrqFr
I want it to make sense.482Please respect copyright.PENANAnrS7MG6Nt3
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.482Please respect copyright.PENANAMGlDdwHkfc
The PaperGarden.482Please respect copyright.PENANA0JTzRmQhHB
To be Continued...482Please respect copyright.PENANADgDSeWgVfl