Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCZouoOiNb
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYobdGT4XJL
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS85Oor4pOo
It's been four months since that day.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowuHsaLWO4
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8HAveHXbW
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdT1kGVpsfL
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrndFY5agU
Only loneliness.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbK9uybVaXi
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlqqZmAyNT
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnMOVAQt4z
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgslXJXHmh3
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm49OsPC5Fq
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wxSgriRtS
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgJNzvIhEE
They remind me of home. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnDrXS4Rws
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsW6ODjFw3E
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qYu7sbOAr
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CpsPF1hv3
I don't want to be here. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLshTLoT7A
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36ZHGiTiU7
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS3NXa7N5k
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe4K32ubiK
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqme9i0dqL
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIykOdYRmb3
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgiOeOxAtg
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjFzbYf6Sj
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZmbJ2mZRr
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjQpJUUj8s
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK0iD4eFfQ
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zWElvNK5f
I want it to make sense.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrLH1hn1yD
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlJFaHuRWl
The PaperGarden.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlrTP34YxC
To be Continued...545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp3HyFCtqW
