Hello, all. This is the second part of my testimony and what I have been through in my life! Of course, at the end, I will give out lessons that I have learned for this specific part. God bless.
In elementary school, I was fine. I was isolated, but I was still okay in all aspects. I am not sure why though, but during 5th, or even 6th grade, I started wearing a coat in the summer. It was a long coat that had a lot of buttons. I am not sure why I wore it, but I wore it, every day, even if it was scorching hot outside. Of course, a few people started thinking I was weird. This guy, I will call him N, since his name starts with an N. N started bullying me since I kept wearing a weird coat, though I never reacted negatively to his remarks, so he stopped after a long while. I even helped him with a piece of homework during class since we sat across from each other. That was the end of my elementary school years.258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbM43LeBBx
In middle school, again, I didn't have much friends aside from a girl named N. J and I kept in contact, but not as often as I would have liked. We emailed each other since her mother didn't allow her to have Facebook back then. Anywho, N was absent quite a lot during middle school (the whole duration), so I was honestly usually alone during free time. In the morning, I preferred being late because if I was even 5-10 minutes early, it would mean walking around the school hallway, looking at other people hanging out, and chatting with their friends. Sometimes, the classrooms weren't open early so even if I wanted to, I couldn't go inside before class started. Anyway, that is when I started to get a "first long crush". Basically, a crush that lasts more than one month. This guy, I will call him D, since his name starts with a D, he asked me if I wanted to be his friend. He noticed that I didn't have many friends, so I guess that's why he said to me. Keep in mind that he is one of the outgoing guys in my grade. Me being the shy and awkward and (unfortunately) aloof person that I was, I think I said something along the lines of "I don't know" but I am not sure (perhaps I even stayed silent). I regretted (before) doing that, but I feel everything happens for a reason. He thought I was weird because I started acting weirdly around him (me trying to be obvious about having a crush on him, but going about it in a strange way). Anyways, all in all, he thought I was weird, and that was all for my middle school career. 258Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuBjZFHGjo
For advice, I would say to not be afraid to see how you feel when it comes to talking back positively or showing your inner emotions. Know that though, it's okay if you weren't able to do something you wanted to: never regret it. In the end, it already happened, and the best we all can do is to keep doing our best, learn from our past, and keep on going. Everything happens for a reason, too, so please be aware of that as well. Another thing, is that it's okay to be alone. If you are fine with it, then that's okay. Remember too, that although you may be "alone" in terms of no contact with other human beings, God is always here for you. I'm so thankful... Another piece of advice is to don't be afraid to talk to others. I don't mean that you should be close with everyone, since even being close to a few people is hard enough (at least to me). What I'm saying is that being nice to everyone can make their day. I realized I was so aloof during middle school. I can't change the past, but I am changing my present by being nice to every single being I come across (or even don't come across). Finally, no matter how old you are, please remember to treat yourself well and that it's totally okay to be single. Don't be sad if your crush starts dating someone else or likes someone else: if they truly were the one for you, then this wouldn't have happened. Singleness is amazing, and will always be amazing. :) God bless.
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