It all started when I was in high school. I would say from when I was born up until the summer before my first year of high school, I was pretty naive. My life was good. Keep in mind, I have always believed in God since I was young (my parents and sister are Christians), and I have gone to church sometimes. My dad, however, always took the time to go to church as frequently as he could. My parents are nice, and I'm thankful to have been brought up in a calm household. I was born in the United States of America, but I lived in another country across the world (from the U.S.A.) from Kindergarten to First Grade. Then I moved back to the U.S.A. in second grade until the end of high school (and then I moved back across the world from the U.S.A. but that's not really what I'll be writing about here as when I was there, I already felt complete and I truly started following God and followed His guidance, completely). When I was in pre school, I remember that although people were willing to play with me (even though I wasn't really close friends with them per say), I was shy. I decided to play alone but I was thankful that those kids asked me if I wanted to play with them (after the teacher told them to ask me). Anyways, in elementary school, I realized I was an odd being. When it was recess (keep in mind I wasn't disturbed about any of what I'm going to say but) I usually kept to myself. I don't know, I think I felt isolated and I feel that the other kids didn't want to play with me. While they were playing tag, or using the playground equipment, playing four square, or even playing wall ball (they throw a ball against the wall and catch it), I just watched them. I just stood there and looked all around me. At that time, I was probably in second or third grade. I guess I felt alienated (but not in a negative way or anything like that) since I just moved back to the U.S.A. after 2 years of being in a totally different country. 271Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNVwUevlJj
The country I lived in for two years was really different from the U.S.A. It wasn't as advanced, and it was very calming. My mother's side of the family was there, and I played a lot with my cousins. Anyways, back to the U.S.A. I didn't have much friends, but I had one best friend, and I will call her J since her name starts with the letter J. She also had a similar upbringing as me, and the fact that my older sister was best friends with her older sister, helped a lot! Anyways, I'll tell the truth now and say that none of my friendships lasted. By lasted, I mean either we stopped being great friends or we lost contact. Life goes on. Anyways, J was one year older than me and didn't go to the same school as me so I didn't have a close friend at my school. So, every single day at school, I would just watch kids play on the playground. I remember I would even take a long time getting out of the school building into the playground but I would do that rarely. It was so the time could go by faster.
The moral of this part of my story is, is that every life is different. Every person, even if they happen to be born on the same day, same time, and same place, their lives will still be different in SOME way. Everyone's lives are unique, and each person is different. There's no person that has the same exact life as another person. That's one thing that makes life a special experience. No other person can see through your perspective except you. Having a belief (religion) also truly helps. When you first are born, you are still learning and experiencing the beginning of your life. Having a religion will make you feel more comfortable, loved, and it will give you a base on your core beliefs and more. If you feel okay, happy, and at peace then keep on doing what you're doing. No matter what you are going through, just please know that things will get better, and what you're going through will be finished and in the past. You're turning into an absolutely wonderful being. Don't be afraid to be a kid and also know this always: God is good.
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