I’m tired.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtZvemTsPc
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLehGodyxJ
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJ3HMDaaqC
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aD1qV1EfV
to pick them up and set them back down.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjezCBXW4Me
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHgrVoCGNi
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxookBUjfM
like a normal person, thank you.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvO7Grk90nl
I try.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJMqAbJfBb
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgeiOwVrNM
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxRs1n5oAu
just barely making it from one place to another655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GEg6vrrfS
without damage.
I’m tired.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJeBLe4BMj
Just this Wednesday I was driving home655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpNrtxBFlh
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2MMiZN9Cn
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T2qgiRus6
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OwX6fl1Aa
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡie1e5YwFA8
for those I’m not sure how to help655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujMBTOFuTU
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bIVEvjWNs
And while I was driving down the highway655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSYSlW7Pjz
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuHmS94q3A
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1bkQNyXXC
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdJ9Ssa9Ar
collide with the wall, break through and destroy655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzB7Mnjaqg
the other side.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbXPwOQth3
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p5JcvrsNP
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaLPdy0kgh
harm anyone else in the process. But I655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUswIX3FohQ
didn’t do either, even though I655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUYQJ4Jxhs
got so scared for a minute655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZd7g7Mn35
that I would.
I’m tired.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mTD7ZRpbT
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GLoJSvU2U
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvSeNKuAjV
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhZJ1Y04QV
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPekk1e4Gl
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCTpnYVZLl
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c4ZKY3jBj
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDMQVVbWlf
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxIU0DjrX0
draw blood, but it was the first time655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwfhFBDIE4
I had allowed myself to655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Hi7NXR7QP
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EgS6kJACb
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQe8OPZ6yTC
actually reach out and go through with it655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ6ngrsq3z
I think because I’m afraid of not existing655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXOqkiOxoW
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenCSSxFBsa
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSWZZ7DjaN
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGiVpljctE
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcekBCjl0EB
and give up. I have thought about dying every day655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlK5r17vn8V
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fNpCuZ4DJ
go through with it.
I’m tired.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4hjKfHIjC
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0WnWCs8L6
for people to care about me when they should655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKdtlKnzmy
care about me on their own. I often think that655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38FkTXUFqG
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A7WADx56m
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsYQBkuUfm
She often hurts me more than she improves my life655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LYHe3fcxV
but I’m too afraid to say anything because655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEKVvBTBhE
I need her. I need her to exist655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTi5I4wW5Kb
in my existence, and I need her to655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70siimaXHq
be by my side.655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Obv1U0fcM
But I’m tired.
I’m tired655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0PdZIoJdt
of being tired655Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGokmMBwACz
in this tiring life.
