I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoqUy5gMHk
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x1bPlBnmk
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk631es7aHK
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu4Fnk7HCv
to pick them up and set them back down.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn78xXj6XpN
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZBKEFrmSG
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJm7lz3ZjF
like a normal person, thank you.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIHkq44oc1
I try.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYtIQOmA0K
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbq0iRZvKu
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8yp6bPtTB
just barely making it from one place to another621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8kl7kZFUe
without damage.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mkITQJcRg
Just this Wednesday I was driving home621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzz3rzlUu3
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeLCOcEqRb
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIu9cTj6N5
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJveLOQY7KS
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1BELBlDUP
for those I’m not sure how to help621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvti3JuDO8
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLCL8xkz4M
And while I was driving down the highway621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen4Mr2NPx0
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFs01y8k7i
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lQeXTim9e
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtekWMzWmT6
collide with the wall, break through and destroy621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz98lpqBi2
the other side.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgxyYcAaWi
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJRT9PZeGm
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaENfdjEq7
harm anyone else in the process. But I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGVZSYbOfs
didn’t do either, even though I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3ZmZj4PLq
got so scared for a minute621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o8wZHM0pN
that I would.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOOOMVFLqi
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMtMeOAZYq
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIc3QN5LVH
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9HrY6NSEw
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYjQHiY5M4
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAW1w4urbR
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpXsl6IHFc
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH1cVcaUSc
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCUg1dvqap
draw blood, but it was the first time621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM7YiT0Rru
I had allowed myself to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4kAkNd01G
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpiTCiCNX6
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5M9j12Amn
actually reach out and go through with it621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1bbSDV9to
I think because I’m afraid of not existing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tmWQbGWst
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0udnIxtFkR
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJMSqb57is
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBkZxJq0g0
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUZHDvfvdc
and give up. I have thought about dying every day621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjs3YlD3ri
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b535fdSjC
go through with it.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMBjt6Jri0
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS7DUvirWV
for people to care about me when they should621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttTCKMrAF5
care about me on their own. I often think that621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aVBBt9XVy
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKxxkq83wG
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJu8NzG360
She often hurts me more than she improves my life621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRKbbsPAmD
but I’m too afraid to say anything because621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNGr52Kr70
I need her. I need her to exist621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZpn0Iq0jS
in my existence, and I need her to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmNYvmiI6M
be by my side.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yMhthCArh
But I’m tired.
I’m tired621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBYDDsl5dN
of being tired621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVAmmuatmW
in this tiring life.
