I’m tired.580Please respect copyright.PENANAGZhg0NjHEH
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by580Please respect copyright.PENANAcZRLjurSGi
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead580Please respect copyright.PENANAyeYKlEp0mB
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy580Please respect copyright.PENANAKCPGAmnjMX
to pick them up and set them back down.580Please respect copyright.PENANA3rJ4rAv3mN
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing580Please respect copyright.PENANAAyqCZkRqeh
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk580Please respect copyright.PENANA9pekvaYRB0
like a normal person, thank you.580Please respect copyright.PENANApVvNn7VIrP
I try.580Please respect copyright.PENANAHN5zklwMo3
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking580Please respect copyright.PENANAY9IPZPkSii
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground580Please respect copyright.PENANARTv0PFv6Gi
just barely making it from one place to another580Please respect copyright.PENANAwgQGAUx3bF
without damage.
I’m tired.580Please respect copyright.PENANALI6IBkP1HC
Just this Wednesday I was driving home580Please respect copyright.PENANA5pCQCSf8rd
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road580Please respect copyright.PENANAbYMfviBN5m
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and580Please respect copyright.PENANAoSfLP3fEwo
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me580Please respect copyright.PENANAV3lEGaoPCE
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken580Please respect copyright.PENANAW7aoW4IGcZ
for those I’m not sure how to help580Please respect copyright.PENANAuPfnkUDhEF
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.580Please respect copyright.PENANALc9B9EaFkt
And while I was driving down the highway580Please respect copyright.PENANAradPWeXCYi
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel580Please respect copyright.PENANAcIYpqg9t59
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the580Please respect copyright.PENANAbffRmugKKi
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to580Please respect copyright.PENANAtO35PTwbDq
collide with the wall, break through and destroy580Please respect copyright.PENANAkVTnPe6pjv
the other side.580Please respect copyright.PENANAHOWBqlK1H4
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right580Please respect copyright.PENANAiUo1lK4kz1
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t580Please respect copyright.PENANAEn9Sj6FPL7
harm anyone else in the process. But I580Please respect copyright.PENANABJ0QnThaSP
didn’t do either, even though I580Please respect copyright.PENANAH0JdkpYsTB
got so scared for a minute580Please respect copyright.PENANAgCDjMO8e1O
that I would.
I’m tired.580Please respect copyright.PENANAVuMpnlX0CR
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar580Please respect copyright.PENANAOOhYDysXrA
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough580Please respect copyright.PENANAqbN3WMRNpq
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt580Please respect copyright.PENANAC2QvpY0Oh6
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten580Please respect copyright.PENANA5vJIVhixva
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife580Please respect copyright.PENANAVYoQRAtanl
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart580Please respect copyright.PENANAsnTaR1xsEz
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.580Please respect copyright.PENANAc7FMwaBdy3
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to580Please respect copyright.PENANAsw3Eku9hn3
draw blood, but it was the first time580Please respect copyright.PENANADYTDCKrNts
I had allowed myself to580Please respect copyright.PENANAn8CHOEfzgQ
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.580Please respect copyright.PENANAzsFZzEErXu
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never580Please respect copyright.PENANAaRVIh9GCI3
actually reach out and go through with it580Please respect copyright.PENANAZ16v86WGZH
I think because I’m afraid of not existing580Please respect copyright.PENANAtNiKgCyull
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I580Please respect copyright.PENANAwpmPAN05xS
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure580Please respect copyright.PENANAypUfFfulkK
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people580Please respect copyright.PENANAKQARjKQflw
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself580Please respect copyright.PENANAXWgevHH51q
and give up. I have thought about dying every day580Please respect copyright.PENANA19OH5yF5v7
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just580Please respect copyright.PENANAP2Fgj6mIqq
go through with it.
I’m tired.580Please respect copyright.PENANA0TqniiJwVM
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing580Please respect copyright.PENANAwf12wthZ8a
for people to care about me when they should580Please respect copyright.PENANApAS5eISY3U
care about me on their own. I often think that580Please respect copyright.PENANAn0JjKw9xBV
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that580Please respect copyright.PENANAA3Y7G1nhKW
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.580Please respect copyright.PENANAt2uCgrKPvP
She often hurts me more than she improves my life580Please respect copyright.PENANAwVL3UeCBlj
but I’m too afraid to say anything because580Please respect copyright.PENANAAnVvSmrvdu
I need her. I need her to exist580Please respect copyright.PENANAfEm1cmrnEx
in my existence, and I need her to580Please respect copyright.PENANAmZK4AnImMl
be by my side.580Please respect copyright.PENANAXvHb7gs9Is
But I’m tired.
I’m tired580Please respect copyright.PENANAR9N6nzvhgJ
of being tired580Please respect copyright.PENANAIaVLCdABJh
in this tiring life.