I’m tired.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNDdtVnAvv
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuNEDT8CpB
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKRHPtqvh0
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eAELnKVln
to pick them up and set them back down.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFcJzzFG90
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RmFfAYvMi
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdddrAgOH1P
like a normal person, thank you.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yDkZxNwmH
I try.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡToWEBECUej
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aICAsNwpH
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vTUkn8fR6
just barely making it from one place to another657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeotHWe3YE
without damage.
I’m tired.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAZYX9Hjm9
Just this Wednesday I was driving home657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWXP8ACB5o
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8Pi0fDYHZ
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9sUbiYxOF
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlov1DlT86
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynruXCigj2
for those I’m not sure how to help657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WTp9OL6F7
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkToqzyoZV
And while I was driving down the highway657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsSbNg0Xcm
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOacFRUrxrG
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SHKEFmL87
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fJAHicN2A
collide with the wall, break through and destroy657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHc2riarvls
the other side.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOyurmL1G7
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa53B3E8rx
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamnScLt1oe
harm anyone else in the process. But I657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ0ZAyUOgF
didn’t do either, even though I657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFUcwxtanD
got so scared for a minute657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9x7FdVIlb
that I would.
I’m tired.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5EcUlZD08
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMGAOOB1so
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUCcglb8Hs
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WBt4quLNf
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPG5Nrw1wk2
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7vvnCVMI7
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxzTIZlcOl
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDp1HIMLxe
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQfn40jtsq
draw blood, but it was the first time657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO90WeDMLW
I had allowed myself to657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIc33H7POBm
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CfcgbYJcP
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHANIiT99zQ
actually reach out and go through with it657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXsYpvpDya
I think because I’m afraid of not existing657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEQ20A3mH0
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElLVvPqsaS
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakBD0k4dsr
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F0HT13M75
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNSsKjxGnz
and give up. I have thought about dying every day657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbWsuc5WWv
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTPQGrpz7k
go through with it.
I’m tired.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6UPyqf35b
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5wh6Rhwvq
for people to care about me when they should657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EcpNgkEXR
care about me on their own. I often think that657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpBcoEetU8
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CXpWoKQ6N
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjnNFMGCgf
She often hurts me more than she improves my life657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXO44BxVvQ
but I’m too afraid to say anything because657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUvYBzZsQA
I need her. I need her to exist657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg90DsMhjXA
in my existence, and I need her to657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVXmRNO7AZ
be by my side.657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tRNu13JX8
But I’m tired.
I’m tired657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneLVvfaKsj
of being tired657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W0jkkvUxO
in this tiring life.
