I’m tired.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9gjzuyFjT
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPXnedHsjN
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKoMeCw5Bz
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAoehYHK4Y
to pick them up and set them back down.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTMX6Yd2Lp
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDgIRTbuD2
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA1hwiGfyL
like a normal person, thank you.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFV3tY7kPxv
I try.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtd5qVaBHg0
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7R3vqN8Mz
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMpAvg3SR4
just barely making it from one place to another620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM50A4maJ5y
without damage.
I’m tired.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQL1A6jcko
Just this Wednesday I was driving home620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkJglEcuzO
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2iUtnzABI
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjggXaRPdwV
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2thslRy3K
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4ZBiBizQE
for those I’m not sure how to help620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0KfKuSoXt
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7r7JuvXWJy
And while I was driving down the highway620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSLvYqLnS0
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwbnza3IGI
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSdCmpgeJN
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiCAJIpPZj
collide with the wall, break through and destroy620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1SQx19F5P
the other side.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVY6DTqNiXb
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY7lEniZQI
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXTMRRC9oH
harm anyone else in the process. But I620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyr9Xecctda
didn’t do either, even though I620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAKM8V82Mt
got so scared for a minute620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJu8CeRbjo
that I would.
I’m tired.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsyNa65nvL
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6ZSaNltzL
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCOxtN9G85
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsUtqwGrVw
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHAUb1zH24
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkerIa8zQj
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh4TBMZOL1
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAa4C4gMChB
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasggPhFEVk
draw blood, but it was the first time620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡid8hNqSk9S
I had allowed myself to620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAH602e2Fe
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoEs3fmXZQ
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5YI0fT4xW
actually reach out and go through with it620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqhFnim0N5
I think because I’m afraid of not existing620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAq8fx86HT
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfzQWEMAov
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMt71HAW7xE
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡck79kMwIgH
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS51kCL9BP4
and give up. I have thought about dying every day620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUqhRjFWAL
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd6yl6JPN6
go through with it.
I’m tired.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJjGVEjShP
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4jZ32Orfv
for people to care about me when they should620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZZBrZMRq3
care about me on their own. I often think that620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyKT0wFiOb
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuKNWqb84v
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku4kh5gAiO
She often hurts me more than she improves my life620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2owurWoHeF
but I’m too afraid to say anything because620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrk4D8KvVdx
I need her. I need her to exist620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0485Bx0kO
in my existence, and I need her to620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeH12dtAey2
be by my side.620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC5hV26zKb
But I’m tired.
I’m tired620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdqwRDassl
of being tired620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGKhic4J4F
in this tiring life.
