Why know the unwanted?
Nathan and the guys were doing the normal blank on blank youtube video this time it was Jay on Nathan twitter questions about small things like what kind of food he thought was gross or when you drink do you throw up badly.
Nathans point of view
It sucked too because I didn't feel so good today to begin with and the questions were just making it soo much more worse I wanted to throw up, but I didn't I just felt my face go pale and the guys noticed it too so they said bye and turned off the cam.
"Nathan?" Jay asked
"Nathan are you ok" Jay again
"ha ya I just didn't feel so good, I'm good we can keep going" Nathan said
"keep going Nathan your face turned white" Jay said
"ya" Max and Tom said at the same time
"I hope your not getting sick because we have a concert soon don't want Nathan yakking on stage" Siva said
"oh god ya the concert is in a week" Nathan said as he had a rush of Nausea and jumped up and ran to the closes bathroom
"how could he forget that" Tom
Nathans point of veiw
Bathrooms I hate public bathrooms specially when I'm throwing up why am I throwing up anyway.
A week later
Nathan was feeling batter a lot batter and it was the day of the concert too so that was good.
Nathan point of view
We just got here and we were late too yahoo we needed to get ready but I needed to pee like a race horse and every one was yelling telling us to get ready, go to makeup, go to the bathroom fast. I finally got to the bathroom peed and washed my hands I whipped them on my shirt but I stop and did it again then I just layed them on my stomach it was hard really hard when someone came in the bathroom. I left the bathroom to get ready I finaly got dressed and I was ready to GO. We were ready and on stage when I had a rush no a crap, no what was it, it was like butterflies in the stomach what was it. Then we started dancing and it happened again the more I moved the more it happened.
(If heartache was a physical pain
I could face it I could face it
But you're hurting me
From inside of my head
I can't take it I can't take it
I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind)
Then it came to my part but that feeling kept coming over me and it was starting to feel good.
(And I'd rather be crazy
I'd rather go insane)
We finished the concert and again I had to pee like a race horse what the fuck is going on with me
Throwing up
Peeing
Hard stomach
Feeling something weird in my stomach
He just kept thinking about it over and over till he got back and pasted out on the couch.
2 weeks past
that feelings kept happening more and more I stopped throwing up too so that made me happy and Tom found out he's going to be a father he was telling us too like right now
"ya I went over there and found her throwing up in the bathroom" Tom
"I tried helping her up when I felt her tummy it was hard how fast do they start growing she had a small round hard stomach under there?" Tom
When everything started moving and everything rushed to my head
Throwing up
Hard stomach
Peeing
That feeling I get
When everything went black
It was 12 weeks ago 12 .
Flashback/pass out
12 weeks ago
It was a huge party (as he I did his shoulder walk, walking into the party) and a little to big for me right now even to loud. They're music was even louder then our music and way to many people I get that every day why would I want it on my free time the only good thing is they have beer that Max can sneak me. Now it's 12 god I still don't want to be here but I'm drunk so that's have fun with this.
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(I don't need to try to control you (Oh, yeah)
Look into my eyes and I'll own you
With them moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger (Yeah yeah)
I've got the moves like Jagger)
Played as Nathan danced on the bar men and women all around him when the song changed to one of there songs.
Chasing the sun to be exactly Nathan started jumping up and down in the middle of the dance floor singing the song.
Nathan's point of view
I was having so much fun till I started getting dizzy the worlds spinning hahaha when Jay came over to help
"the world is moving, wow I'm drunk" Nathan
"Nathan how much have you drank?" Jay
"Not that mu... I think I'm going to yak" Nathan
"Ok wait one min the bathroom right here" Jay said as he was basically carry me
Nathan point of view back to the parasite
I wake up on the floor with every one over me
Then it was just flashes of good really good sex with Jay but someone else too a dark/bald hair guy then I woke up with no one with me so I just thought it was a really fucked up dream.
"Why would I sleep with Jay anyway" Nathan in his head
"Hay Nathan you ok dude" Tom
"im fine really get back to her yaking and hard tummy ya I just don't fell good again" Nathan
"Dude I'd say you were pregnant too if you were a girl" Siva
Nathan didn't even say anything to that remark just walked away with his eye brow corked
Oh god no I can't be pregnant I'm a guy why am I even talking to my self about this, I should just do it all ready a pregnancy test. yes that's what I'll do wait, what well I tell the guys oh that I'm going to get flu medicine ya that's it.
" hay guys I'm going to the store want anything?" Nathan
"Ya a root beer" Siva
"No thank" Max
"Mmm ya twizlers" Jay
"Aspirin" Tom
"Ok be back soon" Nathan
Thank god they didn't ask why I was going to the store, I hate lying to them. I get there and get it the casher doesn't ask anything thank god for that too god really likes me to day but right when I say that I look down TWO PINK LINES on the test then I started to freak out wow was I freaking to swearing.
"Fuck you god fuck you"
I got my self to gather but now I felt guilty
2 months later and I tried to forget about it but the baby moving around on me and the small bump forming under my white t-shirts which the guys are calling it a baby beer gut and them say i should stop drinking. funny because I haven't had a beer in 11 weeks. I'm not fitting in my normal clothes which is pissing me off, going ever few days or so to buy new clothes is just a pain in the ass I should just buy clothes that are to big ill grow into them. I have to get new white Ts but with my belly growing I think I'm going to go black so. now my shoes are getting small on top of that, I didn't know happens already I thought swollen ankles happened around the 4 or 5 month of the pregnancy, maybe it's because I'm always on my feet dancing and singing.
"Hay Nathan get out of your head dude what are you thinking about anyway?" Tom
"Nothing sorry" Nathan
"Well it's something because you missed to of your lines" Jay
"oh I'm sorry do over ill do batter" Nathan
"Ok" Tom
[Max:] sang
(We've only just begun
Hypnotized by drums
Until forever comes
You'll find us chasing the sun)
When all of a sudden Nathan get sick to his stomach and moved back a step I was from the baby moving but him remembering that night max voice being there max was the dark well bald hair guy. I slept with jay and max oh god who's the father. Nathan thought for a second
[Nathan:]
(They said this day wouldn't come
We refused to run
We've only just begun
Few mins later)
[Jay:]
(I'm never
I'm never down
Live forever, forever
With you around)
The baby moved to the point that my knee buckled and all I could think is how can a baby move this early in the pregnancy and out of jay AND max who's the father of my child.
[Nathan:]
(We've only just begun
Hypnotized by drums
Until forever comes
You'll find us chasing the sun
Then we'd finished the song)
2 months later
Now wearing big baggy sweeter and sweet pant god I don't wear sweat pants every day this is killing me on top of the baby kicking the shit out of me, me not knowing who the dad is, me hiding it alone is murdering me. I pee all the time, I eat like a pig and I know the guys notice I know they do how can't you notice the large melon under my shirt. wait how could I be that big.
I just pulped right down on the couch at the trailer spacing out I could still hear but I didn't respond. Thinking maybe I have more then one in me.
"What's up with Nathan?" Jay
"Could it be about that night we did a three sum he's different" max
"I hope not because he said and seem to like it... Nathan are you ok" jay asked
Siva and Tom just staring at Nathan
Jay sat next to Nathan and put his hand on Nathan's knee
The baby was kicking so I unzipped my sweat shirt and grabbed Jays hand and put it right on the spot where the baby was kicking he pulled his hand away and what I didn't see coming he put his hand back. The room was quit no noise nothin I thought they'd freak and call me name or make fun of me, run even. but nothing Jay just kept his hand there ya max moved a little a half ass sitting on the floor with his hand over his mouth. Siva and Tom just stood there and stared at my stomach I was the one to break the silence I hadn't to it was making me sick.
"What the fuck say something call me a freak do something please" Nathan
"Why?" Siva
"Why, what?" Nathan
"Why call you a freak or why do we have to say something" Tom
"Because I'm freaking out" Nathan
"Who's the father?" Max
And there I go gone balling my eyes out and every one came over to kind of comfort me. Jays hand was still on my stomach when I put mine on his by accident.
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