That changed EVERYTHING
I felt so much batter knowing they knew and they were ok with it. Like really ok the first thing Siva could say/ask was if he could touch my belly, I thought that was cute but at that time it made me cry more it wasn’t a bad cry but a really good cry. All the guys got that I didn’t know who the father was when I cried. Jay the whole time had his left hand on my belly where my right hand was on top of his, Max just sat there for minutes and Tom just talked to me like nothing was going on, but he know that there was I think he did it just for me.
At that moment that felt like minutes turned into hour it was around 9 I was dosing of Max was finally next to me with his left hand on mine on Jays that moment made me so calm I fall asleep I woke up the next morning in my bed.
I walked out to the kitchen to see Jay making food and Max on the couch; Max stood up as soon as he saw me.
“Who put me in my bed” Nathan
“Max” Siva said coming out of the bathroom
“Thank you” Nathan said to Max smiling
“Well your soo small so it was easy” Max said with a giggle
“ya funny I’m not so small any more” Nathan said as he put his right hand on his stomach for the 2nd time since yesterday he thought about it he haven’t been touching his stomach through out his pregnancy when a rush of emotions hit him hard and he started to cry.
“no Nathan I didn’t mean anything by it” Max said walking toward him
“no I just realized I haven’t… I wasn’t caring for… the baby” Nathan
“Nathan you just carry the baby is caring for it you are its mother wait what should I call you, your… part of that baby” Jay
“but I haven’t shown the baby I love it till yesterday that was the first time I even touched my stomach” Nathan said as he sat down and up both hands on his face still crying
“Nathan you had this secret that no one know about that you had to hold in, you’re a busy person all the time and you’re a guy we guys are a little slow” Siva said with his super man smile
Nathan laughed with a sniffle
1 month past
The guys were so comfortable with it now when we’re sing a album they’ll sneak by me and touch my stomach, Max talks to the baby at home in his irish voice which makes me laugh, Jay makes me so clam he comes up behind me and puts both hands on my stomach and sways back and forth singing {Can You Feel The Love Tonight from The Lion King} in my ear.
It was time to think of how I’m going to keep hiding this I can barely hid it now I’m the size of a watermelon I cant believe people haven’t noticed, The guys were thinking a vacation which sounded so good to me my ankles are so swollen it hurts to walk I limp now.
We’re on a plane going to Ireland we want to know where Siva was really from.
We get there its soo beautiful I cried.
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