Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVdKgc0AZx
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMLZcYfbX6
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRk0jTn9Lj
It's been four months since that day.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1cUZnIAEQ
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb00cXyTnW
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxIietCW9s
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QgT96TtKD
Only loneliness.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtTLgKnfx9
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14eG99NTSu
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDXlCLARxx
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmTD1tqN2C
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIKNsepozf
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBeojicRTR
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNemaRxoELX
They remind me of home. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolQ2Z7MJg5
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxs8cdcTds
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzawS6vHgub
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWiJhs9wyM
I don't want to be here. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj6X0xZZ9V
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTQrR8rzRB
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm1q9tpvUL
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8WhdaHYrF
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlc2uvNbqk
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsOzJHYnNO
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKH9XcRkD6
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j9BPrunwp
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxHsgVVYqW
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshp1gw5jPz
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2qP15WOzp
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXmW2tCtD6
I want it to make sense.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLENJt9uSmR
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOB7VLICOY
The PaperGarden.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7LM2KYkLy
To be Continued...592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ORhxXViYQ
