Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FHrm3jgxr
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDOBzdGsXt
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtKAhLfMJp
It's been four months since that day.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi07o6qeugJ
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHCTG5e5Cy
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFcnjNZHlu
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHKmzXicPn
Only loneliness.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwK2unGCGj
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7b8P5Etem3
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQJyfvrZr8
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaiv39SfQM
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5EZs8aKAD
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fJ31Ec8oP
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhUr5x0FAY
They remind me of home. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCG6qdkSiT
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEY9Yu9YjA
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6SUz3s4dU
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfLhPoTq4n
I don't want to be here. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqQHkg5hQx
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDMqiYAADu
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVnCFWxZUR
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdhMW96sZK
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuCUtByofh
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaST9Lc05wT
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBILToXQMC
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnzCK4VMpR
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFaxTuvjx0
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXAqEEQGnI
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaBY7vWzgk
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKDkfxWpyj
I want it to make sense.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIrMuUotdj
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrgH3jJADa
The PaperGarden.634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx98qfBQEl
To be Continued...634Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8p7Vl64JWC
