Thursday comes and goes faster than I expect. Friday morning, I wake up with someone's arm wrapped around me and a hand stroking my hair. I groan and put my face in a pile of cloth. Wait, what?
I look up and see Pennywise looking back down at me. I groan again and put my face in the ruffles around his neck--which was the pile of cloth.
"Good morning, Bevvy," he says and giggles. So, so beautiful, he thinks.
"Wait? What?" I look up at him, amazed. He just looks at me confused. "How on earth am I able to..." I trail off, realizing that I'm able to read his mind because of the evil entity that I really am. I sit up, wrapping the blanket around me and clutch my head in my hands. Surprisingly, I don't have to think much to go deep into Pennywise's mind. I close my eyes, as my mind is filled with Pennywise's thoughts.
Beverly is so beautiful.... I wonder if she's aware of the mysterious feeling I get when I'm around her.....263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkX9QeNr1CN
But she also seems to radiate so much power every time I'm around her... Ever since she moved to this city, it has felt like there's a being much more powerful than myself.....263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGCHcRZcuL
I always wonder why or how she hates the Losers so much..... Is that a good thing? Would she really help me get back the power I so long to have again? I really hate that stupid mayor... He thinks he owns this city... When is he going to realize that this city is my city, always has been and always will be...
I feel his hands tracing my bare back and I jerk out of all of those thoughts.
"What are these scars from, Bevvy?"
"They're nothing," I reply, hugging myself.
He pulls me back to lying down and strokes my hair. "You can tell me," he whispers.
"It's from Jacob beating me. In the years after he killed my mother, he started beating me with various things. It started out with a broom handle, then he switched to a flimsy stick until it broke. Then, he started beating me with a fly swatter, and then his belt. After the belt, he started beating me with a whip. Then, I got sick of him beating me and I tried to take control. It took about two years, but it worked. I started going out places of a night more often. Sometimes, there wouldn't go a night where I wasn't gone. And over the summer of 2023, I started coming to the Derry canal days with my friend and we stayed at the Derry Townhouse until the canal days were over. Then, we'd spend a few more days here before going back home." I sigh and flick the middle orange pom-pom button on his suit. "But then she betrayed me. She stopped bringing me here to get away from Jacob. She said that we needed to make up for lost time and work on our relationship. That was in 2026. That summer, I couldn't stand it any longer and came here myself. That was the year you caught me and I saw your deadlights." I sigh again. "But I still care about you. You deserve more than the way people treat you. If anything, you deserve the world."
At saying the last sentence, he gets a dark look on his face and then it changes to pure disappointment.
"But that's not likely to happen," he says. "I'm limited to the Derry city limits. If I try to go outside the city limits, it'll be like someone threw me back in the city limits. I can't go outside them at all."
"That'll change."
"How do you know?"
"I just have a deep gut feeling that it'll happen," I say with a smile. Because I'll be the one to cause that change....I'm an evil entity more powerful than yourself, I say to myself.
He grunts. "As if."
I chuckle and not caring that I'm naked, I get up. I grab my clown outfit and put it on. Then, I head down the hall and go to the room reserved for my mother's things. I go through her makeup and grab the eyeshadow, eyeliner, and mascara. I put all of it on and make the cat eyelash. I put the makeup back and grab my mom's perfume. I put it on and turn to go out of the room. I bump into Pennywise in the doorway. I look up at him and he pulls me close. He grabs my chin and lifts it. He leans down and plants a kiss on my lips. Then, he lets me go and disappears.
*****
Two months later, as soon as I walk in the door after coming home from school, Jacob steps towards me and raises his arm. I notice a whip. I roll my eyes and sigh. I disappear and immediately reappear behind him. He looks around frantically and turns around.
"You little--"
I grab the end of the whip and yank it out of his hand. He stumbles forwards and I grab him by a few strands of hair. I throw him across the room and see Pennywise watching in amazement. I don't care. I take the whip and lash it across Jacob's face, leaving a red welt on his face. I retrace the same spot until it bleeds and his face is soaked with blood and tears.
"That ought to teach you who is in control," I growl.
He whimpers and I laugh.
"What is wrong with you?" he spits out.
"I'm sick of people trying to own me and making me their property. I'm sick of the way people treat me. I deserve more than what I get. WAY more than what I get. I am not human. I was never human. And after all these years, I finally understand mother's last words to me. She had told me five words in the car before you killed her in front of my very eyes that one night. Five words that drilled themselves into the very core of my brain. She said these exact words, 'Revenge is in your bloodline.' Now I understand those words SO much. And I am going to embrace that."
"How the hell are you going to do that?"
"October 31st."
"Your 18th birthday?"
"Yes."
"What the hell is so special about it?" He turns to crawl away, but I pin him to the floor with my right foot. He grunts in pain.
"On that day, Jennifer Henderson is supposed to become the new mayor. At the high school, too. I am going to take advantage of that and show my true self to everyone there. And there will be hell, trust me. Everyone will find out my true age, along with the power and wisdom I possess. And there'll be nothing you can do to stop me."
"Why? How?"
"Why, you'll be dead, of course." I chuckle. "You won't be able to stop me anyway. No one will be able to stop me. Not even Pennywise will be able to stop me."
Jacob looks up to see Pennywise and Pennywise grins at him.
"Hello, Jacob. Nice to meet you. It's going to be so sad to see you go."
I throw the whip across the room and pull out my switchblade. I flip Jacob over and kneel over him.
"Poor, poor Jacob," I coo sarcastically. I use my switchblade and cut open his chest. He screams and his heart beats faster. I sense his fear growing more and more. I growl, my mouth watering. I set my switchblade aside and let my hands transform into clawed hands. I rip open his rip cage and grab his heart with my now normal, gloved hands. I rip it out and stand up, grabbing my switchblade. I back away as I look at Pennywise. He's watching with a hungry look in his eyes. I laugh as my eyes flash to yellow, to bright blue and back to yellow in a heartbeat. I look down as the heart I'm holding in my blood-covered, gloved hand. I see arteries and veins coming from it, connected to Jacob's body. It's still beating, too. I smile at Jacob, my teeth sharper than needles. He screams as I rip his heart in two with my teeth. I throw the rest of it down and lick the blood off my switchblade. Pennywise steps closer to me and I disappear with a high-pitched laugh.
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