If I ever get the chance to go back in my life I would like to go to the day I was born, the day I first cried after coming in this world.
When we are born we cry because we face a certain change in whole atmosphere, so when nurse will keep her in cradle and my mother sleeping beside bed I would like to take her in my arms, holding her in my hands, I would like to say a lot to her, even if I know that baby me will not understand it.
So let's begin what I have to say, "Welcome to the world, you will soon have a baby brother to look after, don't be jealous of him he will be best part of your life."
Then I will kiss her forehead as she will look at me through her questioning little eyes, "Be brave! Be strong the world is not a bad place some people are adamant on making it, but fear them not as you have wonderful parents they will look after you."
Then after taking a relaxed breathe I will once again start speaking, "You will have a wonderful life ahead, will meat many wonderful personalities, will learn a lot from them and life, but you will have to remember everyone is special and unique you will not be liked by all, your trust will be broken because of certain events, but have faith believe and hope inside you and you will be fine!"
Even though she don't even understand what I want to say it she captured that moment with a smile, looking at baby me smiling even I smiled at her as tears will flow down my cheeks these are of relief I hope now she will be ready to handle this beautiful life which I am living....
Keeping her back in the cradle and I look at my mother, who was sleeping, father he was also resting, then checking my brother's picture in my phone I will murmur, "I love you all!" Then close my eyes, ready to come back to my present from baby me's present.
And opening my eyes here I am back again as I look around for everyone, my brother who acts as if don't care but still do the most in my family, mother who looks like an angry witch ready to cast her spell for failing her but angel who loves me a lot and father who will never say anything if he is hurt by anyone of us, and even after being hurt no matter what always try to fulfill my wish...
Going back in time I would have seen my mother's face even after being in immense pain how she held me lovingly, how dad was hoping to see me having bright future, and looking at them, looking at my motivators from past and looking at my family now I could have then said guaranteeing my parents are still like before!
However I still can say without even going back, that they still will look at me like I am little doll looking at this world with wide eyes.
Well, I will want to go to another day well it is a tie, but I decided to write about baby me, that day is the day my brother came in this world from what I can remember I was angry that day and I won't/can't change it but still I would like to hold him in my arms like that...
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