Two Months Later
One more month until my birthday. One more month and I'll be a mermaid forever. I haven't fell in love. Or well, maybe I did. But, he can't know that so I gave up on breaking the curse. What's the point if I can't be with the one I truly wanna be with?
Land is a big place and I don't know anyone other than the people Aiden introduced me to. Maybe Cameron but after that one night, I never heard from him again. Maybe I could try the party thing again to see if I could meet anyone but even then, I thought it was impossible to fall in love in only three months, I'd be out of my mind if I thought I could fall in love in a month or less.
Besides, I'm dating Aquarius now. I didn't want to if I'm being completely honest. But, after a month of trying to get me to go out out him, I finally agreed. I feel like I'm betraying Aiden in a way because I've come to realize I love that human boy so much that my heart aches every time he pops into my head, which is a lot.
I don't love Aquarius and even though he tells me he loves me, I can't bring myself to lie straight to his face by telling him I feel the same.
I do love him as a friend but that's all I can feel for him. I keep telling myself I will grow to love him so I'm still sticking to that. We haven't even kissed yet. I'm not sure why but I keep thinking that my first kiss was supposed to be for Aiden. Maybe I should let that fantasy go.
I haven't seen or heard from Aiden these past two months. I found a spot way down the beach where he wouldn't expect me to be. When I left, I started to go to Kelsie's but didn't because I didn't want her to call Aiden. Instead, I kept going until I found a little laundromat. I walked in to ask where I could go that night.
The man asked me if I was homeless and I shrugged and told him 'something like that.'
With a smile, he tells me there's a little apartment upstairs and that I could take care of the laundromat at night. No questions were asked but he gave me the key. Ever since, I've been working at the laundromat and living upstairs. He even pays me so that I have money.
For the first time in my life, I feel human other than with Aiden. I know that it won't last long but, at least I can enjoy it for even just a little while.
"Bambina?" I get jerked out of my many thoughts as someone calls out my name. I look over to see Kelsie walking in with a basket of laundry.
"Hey, Kelsey." I greet her with a small wave.
I missed her greatly but I must admit it's upsetting her being here. She's Aiden's friend and I don't want him knowing where I'm at. Besides, she hasn't come here before. At least not since I've been here.
"What are you doing here?" Kelsie asks before leaving in like she was going to tell me a secret. "Did you break the curse?"
I smile sadly. "No, actually. But it's okay. I've accepted it honestly. What are you doing here?" I ask, changing the subject.
She frowns. "My grandma's washing machine broke so she asked me to come down here and wash some of her clothes."
I nod at her answer but look around her. In a way, just for a moment, I had hoped Aiden was with her. But, he wasn't there.
Later, around twelve in the morning, the laundromat closed and I was able to go upstairs to my new home. Kelsie and I spoke a little while longer. Mainly about her and Alex. I wanted to tell her about Aquarius but, the words didn't seem to want to come out.
After reading a few chapters from this book I found at an actual bookstore, vampire academy, I decided I wanted to take a long walk.
I wasn't sure where I would go but I figured I could GPS back home if I got lost or something with my forty dollar phone I bought.
I walked for a long time before I realized what I was close to. I don't know why I ended up here or how but I wasn't ready to turn back.
I walk over to the swings where I had first met Aiden and sat down. I push with my legs to get going and enjoy the wind in my hair. God, I've missed this so much. I wish I didn't have to let this go. I wish that Aiden loved me as much as I love him. Even now, I don't understand why he lied to me.
If he would've told me the truth, I would have found a way to accept it. But he lied and then kissed her. Maybe I over reacted by leaving but I was hurt and I felt my heart breaking into pieces. I realized that even if he hasn't lied to me, I couldn't accept it. How could I when I love him so much. How could I watch him love someone else?
Easy answer: I can't.
Now, I know for sure. Being a mermaid is how my life is meant to be.
Sorry, its been a few days! I took my kids to the beach over the weekend. We had fun of course and even though I wanted to give y'all a new chapter, I wanted to spend time with my babies. I got so sunburnt tho! Oh, and I got two new tattoos!!!
Hope y'all enjoy!
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