還記得上次跟你度過平安夜,已經是十幾年前的事。819Please respect copyright.PENANAb03fOgnQ37
那年跟你一起考完會考,就在我到英國留學前夕;819Please respect copyright.PENANAUW5dvRDvju
我們一起到廣東道,在那擠迫溫暖的街道上倒數聖誔。819Please respect copyright.PENANABc0C6PC8Pc
那些還打算將多年的感情,在離開你之前跟你表白。819Please respect copyright.PENANAhVAHywHHo2
那時的我卻又含蓄收斂,一心又怕被人群聽笑;819Please respect copyright.PENANAEowRjC0Zi0
一心又覺即使我跟你表白,未來也不能夠再愛你。
一直想着想着,又被人浪裏浩瀚的叫聲驚醒。819Please respect copyright.PENANA0eyYFKVHx9
「十!九!八⋯⋯」原來已經開始倒數,但我依舊未曾向你表白。819Please respect copyright.PENANAhYfo6vqGgo
「七!做乜嘢你仲唔數啊!就快到啦!」你對着我吼叫,我亦開始跟着人群倒數。819Please respect copyright.PENANA6CCyiCa01o
「三!二!一!Merry Christmas!」我們對着大家大叫著;819Please respect copyright.PENANAEgbYnPKSjw
我叫聲雖則澎湃,內心卻是充滿遺憾又無奈。819Please respect copyright.PENANA383WWR8KSD
深知道已錯過了表白的機會,還錯過了一段不該猶豫的感情。819Please respect copyright.PENANAbVnnyRMcZM
我只好帶着微笑的表情,為求直到最後不令你對我失望。819Please respect copyright.PENANAKf7z8A17rl
或許我真的沒令你失望,但自從那天起我跟你再沒有聯絡。819Please respect copyright.PENANALOYmAjIa7a
沒令你失望,卻是令自己失望。
自從那次我離開香港後,每次過聖誕我都會想起你。819Please respect copyright.PENANA1aLF0H80YW
甚至,每次打算認識女朋友我就自然想起你。819Please respect copyright.PENANAVPL9bIB2nG
自從那次過後,每次平安夜倒數我都只能獨在家中;819Please respect copyright.PENANAqwm5WVuN1K
玩著電腦渡過,或是忙着趕工做那些project。819Please respect copyright.PENANAy0M14yz6Aq
儘量麻痹自己,不想再度回想起那段遺憾。819Please respect copyright.PENANAdbYHqEczaj
當然,這是不可能了;819Please respect copyright.PENANAAwj36iltqu
每次過聖誕都只能看着當天朋友幫我們拍下的照片,回味當時的情況。819Please respect copyright.PENANAm4qkRWkMhN
如果當時我沒有發呆亂想,你會否接受我的表白?819Please respect copyright.PENANAWT1m1LWHYp
如果那時倒數跟你表白,你會否成為我的異地戀人?819Please respect copyright.PENANAcKhZayQm5G
只是看着那些舊照片,就能冒出千千萬萬個如果。819Please respect copyright.PENANAsW3glZpKgj
還妄想著直到現在都跟你談戀愛的景象,害我有着飛回香港跟你表白的衝動。819Please respect copyright.PENANAsj9vn9BVZ8
可惜我早已在英國定居,一切都只能成為空想。
「你來探下我地啦,你好耐無返過嚟啦!」我駁著長途電話,跟父母談電話。819Please respect copyright.PENANAOrAgK8nvy3
說起也是,自從我去留學開始我就沒回過香港。819Please respect copyright.PENANAbucZBdGNQw
自從離開香港後,大家就再沒碰過面。819Please respect copyright.PENANAuCkL4EbhQF
只能透過電話或是信息中,知道他們的生活。819Please respect copyright.PENANA6EuNMAiPRQ
「你不如趁着個聖誕假期,過嚟探下我地啦!」我沒猶豫,就跟他們說聲好。819Please respect copyright.PENANA9IzM9XbrmN
或者這次是我的最後機會,彌補十年前的遺憾。
出發前的一個月,我不斷密謀著跟你表白的事。819Please respect copyright.PENANACYP6Y8f9yp
到哪裏慶祝聖誕,約誰到這個聖誕派對;819Please respect copyright.PENANAuIVEtDiRdm
我都在腦海裏一一包辦,連那時打算說什麼也想好了。819Please respect copyright.PENANAwKhZpAF17l
就是怕跟你失聯多年,不要說認不認出你;819Please respect copyright.PENANAv84KEQsRyH
我怕連約也約不到你,或者當時一起的朋友才能聯絡得上你。819Please respect copyright.PENANAbVd7pIzNbt
想着終於不用再過一個孤獨的聖誕,那時還真的興奮十分。
就在平安夜前一個星期,我終於飛到香港。819Please respect copyright.PENANAi3ZCtN855d
看到不只父母變了樣,連街上的行人也變了樣。819Please respect copyright.PENANAkR9l7BmoN9
不,應該是整個香港也變了樣。819Please respect copyright.PENANA7JANIcO6OV
原本滿是食店的街道,現在都變了藥房與金舖。819Please respect copyright.PENANA83MM3Qlhpv
重遊舊地之際,又碰到佈滿名牌店的廣東道。819Please respect copyright.PENANAsjnZItsbyK
就是在香港遊蕩著,它就像提醒了我來這裏的初衷。
這次我不會再到街上慶祝,就是用一直儲下來的錢;819Please respect copyright.PENANAzaxF7Mn9kW
跟朋友一起合預租了一晚的露天cafe,跟舊朋友一起派對。819Please respect copyright.PENANAwhdzvQvOBe
就是希望營造氣氛,希望經過這麼多年你依然會答應我。819Please respect copyright.PENANAClty9mPsZU
之前跟你合唱過的詩歌,還有說過的話;819Please respect copyright.PENANAAAIWrv5Mve
通通也為你準備了,這下你沒法不能不答應我吧。
終於,我辛辛苦苦的等到今天。819Please respect copyright.PENANAFq5x7vgJWl
到了那香港差不多絕種的聖誕派對,一進來就看到你跟舊同學談得有講有笑。819Please respect copyright.PENANAlCQbXREssg
至少你的樣子我大概還算認得到,沒有如我想像中那麼陌生。819Please respect copyright.PENANA8l1fFimQEY
「喂,你做乜一入來粒聲唔出就咁崇過來啊?」你拿着酒杯半醉沒醉似的跟我說。819Please respect copyright.PENANATIzTZ6Wa2E
「咁耐冇見,你第一句就同我講呢句?」819Please respect copyright.PENANA7ph96RhuOG
「咁唔通未倒數就同你講Merry Christmas咩?」你又用玩笑回答我。819Please respect copyright.PENANAkcDKViNsFN
接着,又是談著一堆舊事。819Please respect copyright.PENANAeo3FzTiP3m
不是哪次二人三足拖手拖得太緊,就是那次纜車停電的醜事。819Please respect copyright.PENANAkLwnJwLmP0
你總是說着我的醜事開玩笑似的,不過也代表你依然沒忘記我;819Please respect copyright.PENANAaBoxzibg28
至少還懂得拿我這些蠢事開玩笑,我內心感到一陣恩慰。
「咁你宜家有冇拍拖呀?」我試着探問你。819Please respect copyright.PENANA1rZGDZGeZd
「無啦啦做乜咁問⋯梗係未,不過都認咗個有興趣嘅人。」你這麼一說,我的心又沉下去。819Please respect copyright.PENANA6umSQ2Qk2q
「咁樣啊⋯你地點識架?」我繼續探問你。819Please respect copyright.PENANA5i0VedWhKM
「冇呀,有次佢唔小心倒瀉左我杯咖啡,仲整濕咗我本雜誌,佢道歉不特止仲幫我買多本新嘅,林起佢份人真係好。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAJQW9iMdzrx
「之後差唔多每次佢都幫我預先買本雜誌,仲同我一齊睇添,又有共同興趣又傾得埋,有時咪同佢傾下公事心事囉,得閑將會約我出嚟食飯添。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAXqutOeV1ej
「聽落都似唔錯喎⋯」我開始知難而退。819Please respect copyright.PENANAJEKbdXNfE4
「你不如講吓笑話啦,你之前講笑話好叻架!等成晚都未聽到你講一句笑話!」你突然嚷着要我說句笑話。819Please respect copyright.PENANAnQpEwf3ScG
「你當我黃子華咩⋯咁玩法子華都死啦⋯⋯」我心裏想着。
沒說了好幾句沒人笑的笑話,就開始倒數了。819Please respect copyright.PENANAZJxHBSBgNf
「十!九!八⋯⋯」又是聽着熟悉的倒數聲,忐忑著表白的事。819Please respect copyright.PENANAI1Q32UAITv
怎麼辦?你都已經有了對象,我突如其來的我愛你相信你也不會接受。819Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wmp0wbsgT
但不說的話,我也許再也沒有機會說。819Please respect copyright.PENANAc5sYYqjWUp
於是我終於鼓起勇氣,跟你說:819Please respect copyright.PENANAUZoHkszQsD
「其實我忍左好耐⋯其實我好愛你。」819Please respect copyright.PENANAfhFFCJ4i3X
「三!吓?你終於講咗句好笑嘅笑話!仲虧你用咁認真嘅語氣講出嚟!」你中斷倒數,望住我傻笑著。819Please respect copyright.PENANA0rh4lVoYNh
「唔係呀⋯⋯我唔係講⋯⋯」819Please respect copyright.PENANAkuy5pCPl8v
「Merry Christmas!」倒數完了,旁人都在歡呼。
後來你,越飲越最醉。819Please respect copyright.PENANAmbLUGY9N3O
我也是被你影響,也是跟着你飲醉了。819Please respect copyright.PENANAcc1GdziuDw
一直說着瘋言瘋語,還要越飲越烈;819Please respect copyright.PENANApKUfTyAT6h
仍然在傻笑,但你哪知道我想哭。819Please respect copyright.PENANAdP2ROL4tEF
我趁着大家還是醉的時候,偷偷抱了你一下。819Please respect copyright.PENANAqxM5D18qbs
還記得上次擁抱的時候,已是你送機的時候。819Please respect copyright.PENANAVklx4R1lMu
但你似沒反應般,依然裝着傻笑。819Please respect copyright.PENANAMAsNtW13cx
或者,明早即使有幸能在機場再碰到你;819Please respect copyright.PENANAsA4aO0UXOD
你也對這晚發生過的事毫無印象,甚至連來過也不記得。
即使我再遇一段感情,怕也沒法再有那熟悉感。819Please respect copyright.PENANAOTWKbomAoz
寧願在遇到這個派對,寧願在醉酒中辛苦嘔吐。819Please respect copyright.PENANAPtmv66mfI3
現在即使我清醒地歌那句詩歌,怕你也當作是笑話傻笑。819Please respect copyright.PENANAew1hNeHpub
看着時間一分一秒的飛逝,我逐漸變得清醒。819Please respect copyright.PENANA9Bk98r0ZuJ
看着你依然渾渾噩噩地望著我傻笑,我真的哭笑不得。819Please respect copyright.PENANAq3ebpNUuzC
我收拾好我的一切,準備要離開。819Please respect copyright.PENANALo3gcsZoar
臨離開前,我跟你互望了一會,期望你跟我會有所表示。819Please respect copyright.PENANAOZ9prhW9oD
——還是沒有,或者都是我想多了吧。
今天的天氣特別冷,寒風吹着街上一對對的情侶。819Please respect copyright.PENANADbndXdg8Zg
還聽說今天會下出雪來,到最後也別去麼?819Please respect copyright.PENANAs2igsU3uLN
看着那聖誕限定的燈飾,卻照亮我的寂寞。819Please respect copyright.PENANAr6kMTiFfbt
三點了,倒數慶祝聖誕的人早已曲終人散。819Please respect copyright.PENANAt1NiycZ1Ul
街上還是殘留着派對留下的痕跡,那一剎的歡呼。819Please respect copyright.PENANAwTJYUforeL
寒風陣陣,穿了羽絨的我即使住在英國還是抵受不了如此寒冷的天氣。819Please respect copyright.PENANAUgoHrDx2Br
我帶着一箱一箱的行李,在街上截了架的是;819Please respect copyright.PENANArg49hmFYNB
「赤鱲角機場。」是時候要趕機了。
819Please respect copyright.PENANARlDPvWECNS
819Please respect copyright.PENANAfjn3vxSvoe