White sheets stained red in a hotel bed152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KaKt7sPTw
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77W6DKRxPz
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdefNO6iXPV
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2yYDnxNnK
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Pz4ESTZ9
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTYzPYxo8s
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoyQeDZQXp
Vivid visions invading my rest 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6lt5Yn6RZ
I can't sleep because all I see is death152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8oo31Mjh6
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbToRYf2Wom
Thinking about death at such an early age152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DhkEjs5jy
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwUIP4AbLv
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbG1EqctVm
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEiNfcCSIK
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt9rEQLJNB
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlB9f1cfyc8
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS9xbi31rn
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKFydPlzJJ
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcF7MxHlGpI
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1IHgobCvw
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS9pAnPk0S
Nobody actually cares until you're dead152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85rOfXpl2n
Until you're another headline in the news152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeCukoLzcl
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYR9Wcmo9C
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEWKM4XnF0
"I miss you today" 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKAmIhWIs1
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS6Iq4D2Mh
But they care now, 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRINiFuT4Cw
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTg59iQ9IqG
Mixed signals is all they send152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnUkjRnoFi
One day I matter to them 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacDy7oQCrf
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kVQxSO51L
A few months ago, I felt like flying 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rzreXVymI
A few months ago, I truly felt alive152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPG67wy4ST
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg24q1dxfw
It's hard to explain with words,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3m8EPQyhy
How the silence kills 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDZPytj31m
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhH7nyky3K
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNDOSY6uQN
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XLoXiYHdo
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9levPR1DQ
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8SxMY14Hr
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbhvmBdBn4
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1zGcvWW0f
The little voice in my head, it screams it152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpcZ4zS9Lw
"This was their choice"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNi9hbjEC7
And to be lonely all the time is mine152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37wbDCDcz3
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8GxTw396y
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbJP6WIC96
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviLYOlLbWP
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaNm5SBGq3
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mEeokPkO0
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCeq17NXib
I wish somebody would call152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmsesqdVZF
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8GF8ChzIp
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbWyrJWDBb
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1EgAMHuiU
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SVWRhpYFp
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKUcDGvL92
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zgePr0kNq
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
