The life never asked her for a choice it just went on and decided that she will be alone for rest of her life….
I know I should not feel this way about her but each time she comes across me (which happens a lot, because we are neighbours.) I feel a spark inside me which only she can give-off. She is March and she quite represents a sad spring. Full of refreshing green-ry but truly upsetting as she lives alone with her daughter April and is a single mother.
I myself am a single father and know how hard it is to look after your child and job if you are alone. Her eyes look hurt but the way she looks after her daughter and never seemed tired can really confuse you. The truth is she is suffering from coma and whenever she goes for therapy leaves April with us.
She used to tell that her death is near and today was the day she was talking about since we know each-other. She faced sudden ache and called me and asked to drive her. The fact that we are single parents forces us to stick together. Our daughters were still in school when she called me. I was going office that time but I called in soon enough and asked for the leave and made a big u-turn to go to her.
When I reached she was looking paler than usual and was sitting at the front porch from the look of her face it was clear she was thinking about something so deeply that she couldn’t realize that I was even there.
I walked up to her, “March! March!” she came into this world after a lot of trying.
“Feb…” she replied in merely audible sound.
I helped her to reach my car and made her comfortable at the passenger seat. After drive of about 3o minutes we were at the hospital. We got down and went to her therapist. She admitted her as soon as she looked at her.
After a while of looking at March she turned to me and asked me to come out.
With a face full of defeat she said, “Sorry Mr. February but we can’t help her in any way, her tumor has increased to such a level that we can’t save March even after giving her the best medical treatment of the world. Hope you will understand.”
“I-I understand doctor. I d-do. C-can I meet her…… one last time.” I said last three words to myself. But she seemed to hear it.
“Why not sir, no use of giving her any treatment and I would suggest that you complete all the formalities till there is time.” I knew where it was going if anything happens to March, April will become orphan but I can keep her and save her from it if only-
She permits me to.
I entered the room which was now filled with sadness. Because of course she knew that by avoiding treatments and she was only decreasing her life. What I saw in front of me was what I have seen for first time in 10 years. She was crying, tears were actually coming out of March’s eyes.
It took me time to understand what is happening and that today is the last possibly day I would be looking at her beautiful eyes which I love with a passion.
Yes I loved her, the way she is strong and unmoved at the weakest point of her life, how she don’t want to live on others mercy and do job, take care of her as well as mine daughter, her house is perfect, she decorated it with love and care, the way she looked at me the first time I saw her.
I first saw her when she was moving in, through my window. Kitty was just sleeping beside me in the cradle and her mother’s letter was in my hind which read-
“Dear Feb,
I love you, love you a lot and love our daughter as well. But my parents will never allow this, not because of anything else. They wish me to marry their one friend’s son who is CEO in one of the top-most company of the world. I want to stay with you and look after our daughter, how she will grow, how will she look, whose colours of eyes will she take and everything a mother would like to do. And wait for you like wife but my parents will never permit me that. I will have to leave.
With all the love I could muster in here, without stopping myself,705Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nMzC9pomi
Yours June”
I was just getting up after reading her letter, when I first saw March, she was same full of originality but so lonely it is like looking in a vast Greenland where there is no one and you are alone. Her eyes seemed puzzle and she had April in her hands it was clear that she is single and the fact I love is she was the first one to approach.
May be she understood from her telepathy that I am also single like her. I have never seen her crying, known her for past ten years but never seen tears in her eyes. In fact she was my power source. With last hope to express the fact that I love her and ask her to not leave me, which I knew was not possible I went near her and sat beside her on the bed.
She acknowledged me she showed it when she started saying, “You know Feb what… I came here because of reason even after I was simply heart-broken and had a daughter of 10 days. I moved the whole country to reach here. To meet you. ” she then turned her gaze to look in my eyes and that was the first and last time I knew her eyes was looking at me with love, not the love of friend but that of the lovers.
“When I first got the news that he is marrying someone else I was heart-broken. I was so hurt that I wanted to kill myself. What could you expect, I was pregnant with his baby and he just dumped me. I would have killed myself but then I heard about you from my one friend, she told me that fiancée of him is also pregnant with someone else’s child and that she will dump him as soon as she gives birth to their child. That someone else was you.” She stopped and took my hand.
“I searched for you for the next months and finally got your address and moved near to you. St that moment I just wanted to be there for you because I knew you will be there for. This little affection to you turned into a huge love for you after getting to know you. And I have looked the same love in your eyes. I wished to tell you this but then-” she topped suddenly as if sudden brakes were applied into a fast moving car and then tightened her grip around my hand.
“But then my disease was diagnosed and I knew Feb I will not be able to live more and I never wished to leave you just like Kitty’s mother did. Forgive me February, please forgive me.” Saying this she started to cry bitterly and hugged me. As soon as I hugged her back tears also started to flow from eyes.
The hug I have craved for without knowing she did the same is what we are doing but- but all of this was just our first and last. She mumbled between her cries in my ear, “I love You Feb love you a lot. If only I would have stumbled up on you than that jerk.”
“Love you too.” I whispered back and kissed her forehead after breaking the hug. After wiping her tears she looked at me and tried to change the topic, “Now- now it is time for me to tell you that you are legal guardian of April and that will have to look after her after today. Then she is heir of all my property but you will have to look after it until she grows.” My heart could not tolerate it anymore.
“Please don’t say this……” I could not help myself at that moment I held her tightly.
“And there is my one last wish Feb will you complete it.” My heart was shattered to million pieces at that moment it was even much more painful than the letter left by June.
I closed my eyes and nodded, what could I have said she was dying and it was her last wish.
As much as I hate to admit it, it was all true. And even before I could open my eyes she smashed her lips into mine. Soon enough I was exploring her mouth to remember what it tasted.
We pulled apart due to lack of oxygen, her eyes were no more hurt, March was satisfied, with that genuine true smile on her face she threw herself back on the bed and closed her eyes in front of me. For forever.
It was the toughest task of my life to make April normal after her mother’s death but she did came out of that situation and the truth is also pulled me out. She has started to call me dad now and Kitty treat her more than what her sibling could have treated. They are each-other’s life and I am proud to have such a daughters.
One such day when I came back from my office after taking my usual route to March’s grave. When I was checking the mail box a letter popped out of it. It was posted by March’s address 2 months ago, maybe when she realized that she will be no more.
Curiosity hit me bad and I sat on the door step to read it.
“Dear Feb,
By the time you will receive it I know I will be gone and I would have told you that I love you to death. And the fact that you will be taking care of April well is obvious an she would have accepted you as her guardian by that time.
I just wrote it to tell you that….
The decision to stop my treatment was taken by me because I never wanted to be the reason you will not move on for I never wanted you to have false hope that I can live.
Because it was necessary that you move on. It was the need Feb, it is the need. You had to be strong for April and Kitty.
And I have already accepted you as my love ages ago. Am just writing it so that when April ask why I never tried t fight it. You could tell her that I was worried for her future.
At last to remind you that March has ended and no it is April . Wish Kitty will be fine.
With love,705Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzzaI1FLDe
To love of my life, You, Feb
P.s- we will be together in next life I promise, I will talk to lord about this one. :)”
And after reading this all I did was to smile at her childish note whereas tears were threatening to spill.
I love you too, my love, March…..
THE END
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