I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxaEHgpxRR
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdaf8a155c
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCNC9ooh1F
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vf4pokOpQ
to pick them up and set them back down.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhPpq7WC9n
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZglFIrVtm
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTPWCifiAa
like a normal person, thank you.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyBdvyS58M
I try.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDU0ZuHh45
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5Qg8npsDs
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVW73UWR35
just barely making it from one place to another621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdBSLKiXfN
without damage.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaIuOY7MM8
Just this Wednesday I was driving home621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKSDrQmOxJ
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vdlcCDOsP
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaP4IlZtMPB
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMiAUTBDuX
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgsYXRBNdm
for those I’m not sure how to help621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdgiWDgGCh
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPejOtvl6DN
And while I was driving down the highway621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUvbtYhM55
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rSnzBc6HV
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIpWpF4Euy
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZGla56eqb
collide with the wall, break through and destroy621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJgukpYx7n
the other side.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAOaNUwrDl
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9Kv7Hf7er
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PJG5nxzK6
harm anyone else in the process. But I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQrVs9WUEV
didn’t do either, even though I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX1abgEqlG
got so scared for a minute621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl57vPV4Ljs
that I would.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIMTexrYsR
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwxSCq9D6C
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUCSL07Hwk
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9TlOALNVs
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKsrjPUsNz
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfWscUaBxb
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7wvyTzJE1
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo98rcd9v0X
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WWuGbTpgg
draw blood, but it was the first time621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97OI8wqZzs
I had allowed myself to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrs4ovvIxG
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMIuGOU6i0
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEpQdcZhdU
actually reach out and go through with it621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnfGzn9QQx
I think because I’m afraid of not existing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHFE9juqko
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDZ2L6PM4o
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThS5tJWnZY
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHt4soNNsL
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDyMbuMwTr
and give up. I have thought about dying every day621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMQkUSZX7c
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPmgrl9XLg
go through with it.
I’m tired.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlxU1OK7ew
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBUvTKVZVg
for people to care about me when they should621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxowiLhdz8D
care about me on their own. I often think that621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZD0X5WATH8
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii6qSXb0J0
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZqVV9sxBy
She often hurts me more than she improves my life621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsreHEs3jcy
but I’m too afraid to say anything because621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kcnyUA53G
I need her. I need her to exist621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkUyfadq3k
in my existence, and I need her to621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtTgEWNrVy
be by my side.621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVSxKFFJXp
But I’m tired.
I’m tired621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXbBIrlNhY
of being tired621Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFDhAudhq9
in this tiring life.
