I woke up the next morning to my alarm clock going off. I stared at myself in the mirror and noticed that colors were a bit.. brighter today.. I smiled slightly; not too much, but just a little bit. I put on bolder eyeliner and dramatic lashes along with blush on the nose and cheeks. I stared at myself in the mirror for a moment. I stared for so long until I realized it wasn't me I was staring at.. It was my body but it didn't feel like me. I started to overthink the way I looked as I began to cry. I hated how long my hair was, I hated its color, I hated how round my face was. I just.. Hated... That was until I took a pair of scissors and just started cutting away at the hair. I cut my long hair that went passed my lower back above my jawline. The hair was extremely layered. I then started cutting away at the bangs so that they were layered in front of my eyes, but not too short. I looked at myself in the mirror as I cried. My eyeliner was smudged and my foundation was wiping away. I looked in my cabinet and found a box of black hair dye. I didn't really follow the instructions and just winged it; applying the black hair dye wherever I felt necessary, not doing sections or using gloves. I looked at myself in the mirror as I washed my hands off. They were stained black, but not completely. I wiped my eyes and removed the makeup on my face. I then got a notification,
"Hey are you gonna be at school today?" Sent from Razmus at 6:30 AM
"Probably gonna miss the bus- do you mind picking me up? Sent from Nyx at 6:31 AM
"Not a problem- I'll be there around 7:15" Sent from Razmus at 6:33 AM
"Sounds good- thanks Raz" Sent from Nyx at 6:33 AM
I waited around 30 minutes for the hair dye to sit before I took a cool shower. I rinsed the dye out and washed my hair. When I got out I dried my hair with a towel and hair dryer and then looked at myself in the mirror. I was a new person. This wasn't a bad thing I mean; I was actually comfortable with the person I saw in the mirror. My hair was now fluffy and black, no longer brown and long. I was actually kind of happy with myself. I did my makeup once again, intentionally smudging the ey.eliner a bit around the outside of my eye and putting highlighter on my nose. I then put on ripped black jeans with black converse. I wore a black Falling in Reverse shirt, arm warmers, and a metal hole, belt. When Razmus got to my house, I grabbed my backpack and ran out to his car, jumping in the front seat.
"Holy shit, Nyx- your hair," Razmus said.
"What- you don't like it?" I asked, tilting my head. He laughed.
"No- it looks great. It was just unexpected," He replied. I smiled.
"Well thank you, sir," I said with a smile, "Now let's get going,"
"I might do a bit of speeding so we can make it on time," Razmus stated. I nodded.
"You do you, Raz," I responded. Razmus backed out of my driveway and sped his way to school. I rolled down my window and stuck my head out the window as we blasted rock music down the back roads. We laughed at our stupidity and enjoyed the ride to school. We stopped at a gas-station on our way and grabbed a few monsters, along with some snacks. When we got to school we got out of Raz's car. It was 7:45, which meant Raz was speeding the whole way there. We ran inside and walked to the cafeteria hangout area.
"So, Nyx- when did you cut your hair and dye it?" Razmus asked.
"This morning before you picked me up," I answered.
"Ohh, so that's why you were late for the bus," Razmus said in realization. I nodded. As I responded a group of boys walking by caught Razmus's attention. The boy that caught his main attention was around 5'6, extremely pale, with black hair and blue eyes. Razmus stared as if he were mesmerized. I felt a strange wave of irritation come over me. The guy was extremely handsome, yes, but something about the way Razmus looked at him pissed me off. The boy turned to look over at us and smirked when he saw Razmus staring. The boy began to walk over to our table. I started snapping in front of Razmus's face since he didn't realize the boy was walking to us. He immediately snapped out of it and straightened his posture. I rolled my eyes in irritation.
"Mind if I sit here?" The boy asked. Razmus immediately nodded.
"What about all of your friends?" I replied as I folded my arms.
"They can sit somewhere else; they don't depend on me," He answered. I quietly groaned.
"By all means- sit down then!" I said, sarcastically. The boy smiled and sat down.
"So what's your names?" The boy asked. Razmus seemed to have collected himself and pulled things together, because he sounded a bit flirty with his response.
"I'm Razmus- you can call me Raz though. This is Nyx," He said. I began to get a bit more mad. Razmus just met this guy and he's already letting him call him by his nickname?! Plus- he introduced me as "Nyx" and not "Onyx"?! Only I get to grant my own nickname to people!
"I can speak for myself, Razmus," I said, now extremely frustrated. "I'm Onyx- call me Onyx," The boy smiled.
"Well, Onyx and Raz- I'm Ace," The boy said.
"Nice to meet you," Razmus said.
"Yeah.. Nice to meet you," I repeated, mocking Razmus. Razmus nudged me.
"Cut it out," He whispered.
"Nice to meet you both as well," Ace replied. "So- do you wanna hang out after school, Raz?" Razmus nodded.
"Uh- actually me and Razmus have plans after school today; he's also my ride home," I stated. Razmus immediately said something.
"Oh- it's fine; I'm sure we can hang out another time, Nyx; plus, you can just take the bus home," Razmus said. By now my blood was boiling.
"You know what- you're right Razmus. Let's cancel the plans we made yesterday so you can hang out with a 'cute boy'. I'll just take the bus; the shitty fucking bus that I get bullied on- yeah I'll do that because you'd prefer to hang out with someone else who isn't your best friend," I replied, extremely pissed off.
"Thanks, Nyx- I knew you would understand," Razmus thanked me, completely ignoring everything I said. I grabbed my backpack and stood up, walking to the bathroom. The sad thing is, Razmus didn't even notice..
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