That night, I was having a really hard time sleeping. I couldn't stop thinking about the outbreak and my dad and it's just that everything is a mess. I keep trying to stay positive. Especially for my mom. But it's hard. It really is. Always worrying what's going to happened the next day and worry about if i'm able to live to SEE the next day. It's a lot to take in and I know there are others who has it more hard than me but...what do I do? I know I have my mom to look after me and Clint to protect me but I still feel scared. Am I silly for feeling this way? I think so. I feel like I shouldn't worry about anything at all. I have a good leader and I know she would protect all of us even though I don't know Firebird that well.
I started to make noises in my sleep. Noises that happens when you're in the midst of having a nightmare. I don't know if anybody else in the room were heavy sleepers but I hoped so. I would hate to wake someone up because of my nightmares. I suddenly woke up with a start. I panted heavily as I sat up in my bed with sweat running down my face. I sighed and buried my face into my hands. I quickly looked around the room to see if anybody else is awake but they're all fast asleep. I sighed in relief then pulled back the covers and got up. I headed out of the room and up to the front door of the house. I stepped outside and closed the door back then sat on the steps. I folded up my arms on my knees then buried my face into my knees. A minute or two later, I heard the front door open and I assumed it was my mom coming to check up on me but when I heard Clint's voice, I thought differently.
"Rodney, are you okay?"
That was the first time Clint ever called me by my actual name ever since we first met. Nobody really called each other their actual name around here so this was a real surprise to me but I was glad. It showed that he wanted to see me for me and not the guy who he hangs out with everyday. The guy who goes on supply runs and shoot guns with. But more like the guy he wants to get to know and possibly the guy he wants to date? I dunno. I felt Clint sit next to me, though and felt his hand on my back. He started to gently rub my back which was making me feel a whole lot better.
"What's wrong?"
I sighed then lifted my head up and looked at him. He had cute bed head right now. I wanted to run my fingers through his beautiful brown hair but I didn't because i'm supposed to be upset.
I looked away from him and shrugged lightly.
"It's just...everything. It's a long story."
Clint nodded.
"I get it. I sometimes have nightmares too. About the outbreak and my mom and worrying about losing my dad and little sister. It's a lot to handle."
I glanced at Clint and smiled softly.
"You...you know what i'm thinking..."
Clint chuckled softly and nodded. Wait, does this mean i'm an easy person to read? Does this mean that Clint knows I like him?
"We're a lot alike in some aspects." He started. I just stared at him and listened.
"But just know that you have people that care about you. Your mom for example."
I nodded then looked away. I figured that he wouldn't say himself.
"Me." He then said and I glanced at him to see him smiling. He then grabbed my hand and held it into his.
"You have people here that will protect you. You might not know them that well but everybody is still here to protect you. We're all here to protect each other. Don't forget that."
I nodded then smiled.
"Thanks. I needed that."
Clint nodded but didn't say anything else nor did he look away. I could swear that he's staring into my eyes and I was staring right back into his. I then watched him lean forward. I felt my heart racing as he came closer to me inch by inch. Without thinking, I moved in closer too and when our lips were about to touch, we bumped foreheads. I quickly pulled back and let out an ow as I rubbed my forehead. I then looked at him to see him rubbing his forehead too but smiling. This was definitely not how I planned out first kiss. I thought that we weren't going to kiss now but Clint had other plans. He leaned in forward again and I just stayed where I was. I didn't want to have another head bumping incident. I then felt his lips pressed against mine and my cheeks started to flush with redness. My eyes slowly closed and I kissed him back. This kiss was by far the best and I didn't want it to end.
I then felt Clint pull away from me and I opened my eyes up.
"Come with me."
I watched Clint get up then he pulled on my hand. I quickly got up and followed him inside. I didn't know where we were going. He was just pulling me through the house and up the stairs. He pulled me towards an empty bedroom and closed the door behind us. I wasn't sure why we were upstairs in an empty bedroom but I wasn't going to question it any further. I was just going to let whatever happens....happened.
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