What doesn"t kill you makes you stronger right? I will forever laugh in the face of that saying. Why do people believe such cliche false forms of positivity? Ive been on the edge of death way more than a 13 year old should ever be. So I know the things that have failed to kill you will make a point of following you everywhere and causing you internal agony for as long as you survive. Once it becomes too much and It becomes obvious to others you will have to deal with being looked at as crazy or odd. It becomes natural, soon you will learn that smiling will do you well. And some humor and jokes if you're into that. Now I encourage you not to become the way I am. You will lose yourself and all you will be is a body. You will be dead and no one will see that. They only notice you when you really break. Then you will be treated as if you will crumble at the slighest touch and people wont understand it because just a few weeks ago all you wanted was people to lay back off you so your sudden rage at the care they are taking will confuse them People dont understand how your brain works at all. Oh and just wait until you become the list of diagonises. Slowly you will become what you always feared to be. You will hate what you see when you look in the mirror. You wont feel hungry anymore and You will feel a literal weight in your body. Then it stops it all stops. oh HAHA you thought I meant everything starts to feel better. Nope thats just not how this works. You will become numb and at first it feels great because you have always hoped for all the pain and emotion to go away, but sooner or later that numb becomes a severe state of depression. Its likely that you will have no tears to cry and you will become a zombie. You will sleep and then eat and sit at school but you will also tear yourself apart ( sometimes in the literal sense) Now you are wasted away and there is no light in your eyes. You hate yourself because you cant do the simplest of things and you feel so lazy but you cant even get up and take a walk because whats more fucking safed than laying down in bed in complete darkness and sleeping through the pain. And oh shit, Im sorry if you have ptsd because now youll likley be plauged by nightmares leaving you with no comfort at all. I know that somewhere in the process you have had to have fallen to some self destrective way of feeling alright or else you would have been gone, so what is it to you intoxicate yourself and get wasted till you cant feel your skin. Do you find it comfortable to slit your wrists and watch the blood flow just so you can feel something? Did you become a druggie in order to avoid putting a gun to your head? whatever it is that youve done. I want to let you know your chances are very slim of being able to get back to the place you were at before. Maybe you will become happy again but It never stays that way. Ive seen it before, Ive felt it all before. And I gave up awhile ago. So fuck the rules and fuck doing the right thing. People like me have to find their own way to survive. Heres to the saying what doesnt kill you makes you stronger because we all know that what doesnt kill you will kill you next time :) 321Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQuDPkSAd7
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