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Every day I cannot ignore this. I’m reminded by your conscience. The state of your loneliness leaves me numb. I can see clearly flashes in my mind of our past when I hear your name again. It’s been so long. I’m only in a state of shock that I was able to even for a moment, a brief moment in my life, forget about you. I must have repressed deep within the darkest places of my pitiful mind all those loving thoughts of you, after our relationship was over. I cried for hours years ago, saying in my head over and over again, that I would never forget you, NEVER. My fears came true… I could not live my life thinking about you at all hours of the day, thinking about you at all hours of the night. What was the point? I would only live for you; I would only breathe for you. That wasn’t the way I wanted to live. And now you suffer the same, like I once suffered for you. Your alone, and desperate, and cold. You stretch out your hand, but without hesitation I push it away. You couldn’t believe it. “I thought you loved me.” Those words cut me deep when you said them softly. I almost teared up but held back all my emotions. There was nothing left. Nothing left in my mind for you. I cannot be the one to save you. I cannot be the one to bring warmth to your soul. I’ve seen the real you, I felt the real you. It’s not what I need… You’re no longer the person for me.
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