-College-
Time has passed. I'm in college now. We have dorms now that we are in college. I have been thinking about my feelings towards Hiro, I think I have come to like him somehow, maybe it's the way he makes my heart race when he's so close, but... What if the feeling goes away, I don't think I can take that, I might have to start pushing him away. I think he might just be messing with me anyway, I don't know why... but I can't take it anymore. I don't like the feeling that I could just be another toy or pawn in his game. This has to be just another one of his tricks. I can't believe I almost fell for it.
"Takashiiiiiiiiiii"
I turned around to see Yua speedily walking towards me.
"Oh hey, Yua. Ready for College now?"
"I guess, I just hope I don't get a bad roommate, you know."
"Oh right, I almost forgot about the dorms, my head was somewhere else."
"And we can't even sneak into each other's dorms to hang out past the curfew. I heard the girl's and boy's dorms are on opposite sides of the school."
"Oh dang no late hangouts then."
I slightly laughed while Yua softly punched me in the arm jokingly. We were in the school and split up both to get our dorm keys and find our dorms to get settled in a bit. I got my key, it read -B34-, I only had with me a backpack with my drawing stuff, phone, laptop, chargers, some room decor stuff, and my Polaroid 600. I also had a smaller duffle bag with clothes everything I would need, since college did have a dress code, as long as there was no uniform I guess I didn't mind too much. I found my room and unlocked the door, it was nice on the inside, the was a living space, kitchen, bathroom, and bedrooms. I picked my bedroom since I am the first here anyway. Nice-sized bed. I started to unpack all my things when I heard the door of the room open I went out to greet my roommate. He was tall, with dark hair, and green eyes.
Wow... I mean like oh my he's... kinda.. hot. Ahhhhh why am I thinking that?!
I still haven't been too sure about my sexuality since everything with Hiro.
"Hey, my name is Tamo."
"Nice to meet you, my name is Takashi."
He stepped closer towards me and my heart was racing, why though I just met him. I could feel my cheeks heating up. Oh gosh, why is he so close to me?!
"Your face is all red Takashi~"
"I-I- Um.."
Shit shit shit
I turned away but I felt a gentle hand grab my chin and make me look back at him again.
"You are kinda cute you know."
He had to bend down to be face-to-face with me, this guy was like a giant.
"We just met geez!"
"And yet here you are all flustered."
Tamo started to lean closer to me.
Is he about to kiss me?! AhHhhH. I am freaking out, my face is on fire and my body feels frozen.
He leaned even closer... and closer. I could feel his soft breaths against my lips. Till the dorm door opened once again... It was Hiro. I don't think Tamo noticed him or he did and just didn't care but I slightly tried to back up from Tamo, then I felt his arm wrap around my waist and pull me back.
"T-Tamo!"
Oh shit... Why is Hiro just standing there?
I glanced over at Hiro and his face looked livid. He was mad, not at me, at Tamo.
"Who the hell do you think you are."
"Oh? And who might you be?"
"Your new enemy. Now get your hands off of him."
Tamo looked at me and then at Hiro. I felt Tamo hold me closer, he picked me up and pressed my back against the wall.
"But I think Takashi likes it~"
My face was redder than ever. My heart was pounding. I felt Tamo's head lean closer to me, I felt his lips press against my neck. He was kissing my neck. My body was shaking, I don't know why. Was I enjoying this? Or not?
"You bastard."
Hiro came over and pulled me out of Tamo's grasp and pushed him away.
What do I do..?
I took a closer look at both of them.
Wow.. Hiro must have grown since high school. He's taller than Tamo and I thought he was tall.
I didn't know what to do and I don't feel like talking. I grabbed onto the back of Hiro's shirt and held myself close to him... I knew I said I was done with his game... But right now he felt like my safe place. I felt both their gazes fall on me as the room went silent. I decided to try to break the silence, I always hated a quiet room.
"So..you both are in this room.. but there are only two bedrooms."
"Yeah I kinda got in late and the rest of the rooms are filled so they told me I just had to share one with two others."
"I will share a bed with Takashi~" Tamo locked his gaze on me.
"In your dreams. You are just a fuck boy and you know it." Hiro snapped back.
"Maybe, but I still got your little boyfriend to love every touch."
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"If it's okay with Takashi, I will be sharing a room with him, I will even sleep on the floor, I just want to make sure YOU don't get any ideas," Hiro spoke boldly.
"So, Takashi who do you want in your room, me or him."
Why did he say "him" like that.. like Hiro is an animal or something? The nerve this guy has...
"I would like Hiro to stay with me."
"You're lost."
"No. It's not 'yOu'Re lOsT' because I have known Hiro for like 13 years and I..trust him."
I trust him? Do I? After everything he has put me through. But at the same time...
"Takashi."
"..Yes Hiro?"
"Can I talk with you later?"
I looked at Tamo and back at Hiro.
"Yeah, sure.."
I put a smile on my face and then slowly started to let go of Hiro's shirt. He walked over, not taking his eyes off Tamo, he grabbed his bags and me and him went to our room.
"Welp this is our room."
Our room. Not mine, not his. Ours. Wow.
I felt butterflies in my stomach. And it made me laugh a little. I never though I would end up sharing a room with Hiro.
"What's funny?"
"Oh nothing Hiro, I guess just a little happy is all."
Hiro stopped unpacking his clothes and gave me that look he used to give me when he would just stare at each other in the janitor's closet. He walked over to me and held my cheeks in his hands like he was holding a gift. He was so easy with me. Never like I thought he would be with me.
"Takashi.."
He said my name so softly, oh boy my face is heating up again.
"Y-Yes, Hiro?"
He stopped for a second and just stared at me, he slightly looked down like always and then back to my eyes. Hiro cracked a slight smile. He was so cute when he smiled, a rare moment that I loved when I got to see it.
"Never mind."
He slowly took his hands away. But I don't want it to be over. I grabbed Hiro's hand and held it in mine, we made eye contact again. He came closer.
"What is it Takashi?"
"I-..I.."
I want you to kiss me, Hiro! I have... Deep down I think I always have. But how can I say that to you, I mean I am still not sure if this is just another one of your tricks...
"I... I might go um look through the school later and go down to the Quadrangle if you want to come with me?"
"Oh? That does sound lovely, but-"
I knew it... Why would he want to hang out with me anyway, shouldn't have asked. Probably has a girlfriend to meet up with.
"But, I was hoping just to hang out here today, to get settled in, you know? Maybe we can watch a movie or play board games or something together here? And then we can go to the Quadrangle another day. Does that sound good?"
Tamo walked into the room he seemed to have been eavesdropping.
"Or. I could go with you to the Quadrangle if you want Takashi. As a date."
Great now I have to choose between them again...
"I mean.. Uh.."
It was clear I was starting to get a little uncomfortable.
"Dude. What's your deal, like seriously? Leave Takashi alone."
Hiro stepped up to Tamo and looked him dead in the eye. Yup, he was taller than him.
"He doesn't want to be around you. SO leave him alone."
"Let him stick up for himself, he's a big boy. What do you want to do Taka-"
Tamo went to look at me but Hiro grabbed his face to make him look back at him.
"I am talking to you! Look at me. Or are you so lonely and desperate to get attention?"
Tamo stayed quiet for a second, then backed up and started to walk out of the room.
"Whatever!"
I looked up at Hiro and he turned around and looked at me.
"Y-You don't have to do that you know.. He's right I am grown up, I need to speak up for myself and I didn't mean to have you in the position too-"
"Takashi"
"Step up for me like I am a little kid and-"
"Takashi"
"I should have been able to talk for myself but I couldn't even do that and now-"
Hiro stepped closer to me and wrapped his arms around me gently, he held me close. He felt so warm. I raised my arms and set them around Hiro.
"It's okay Takashi. I am here for you. I know... This might be hard to accept after everything I have done to you, but I realized it was all wrong... And after all that time, I still haven't apologized to you for it... So Takashi, I'm sorry."
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