其實block大隻仔呢個諗法都嚟得幾突然，只係因為我碌碌下連登睇到個出軌post，入面有好多人分享自己發現伴侶出軌嘅經歷同埋心情。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavV0CH0SNQ
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個post都有幾多頁，我用咗成個鐘睇晒每一個comment。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIX3WqaOTQ
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我內心稱唔上話好有罪惡感，但睇完個post，我開始不停喺度諗自己而家究竟喺度做緊乜。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcJBzCnSpn
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一開始我係好理直氣壯，覺得出軌嗰個人係大隻仔，就算佢唔搵我都會搵其他人，但而家我又開始有啲迷惘。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQAYwMGlkC
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再加上約咗幾次，我發現自己對大隻仔嘅感覺有啲奇怪。可能係因為相處嘅時候幾啱feel，所以搞到我開始對佢有啲上心。不過我都係堅持將呢種感覺歸類為錯覺。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSmMqj47Wd
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始終我對佢嘅了解真係好表面，就算沉船，都只係鍾意緊我幻想中嘅佢，而唔係真係鍾意佢。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn3fpyb7op
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不過為免自己之後越踩越深，我都係決定block大隻仔。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELsuO0ZuMP
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我驚佢會好似之前咁挽留我，所以今次我冇再同佢講話想斷，而係直接block。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIZqZZm5wb
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呢個時候我先至有啲後悔當初話咗俾佢聽連登嗰個SM故係我寫嘅。咁樣感覺就算我block咗佢，我哋都好似仲會有種微妙嘅連繫咁。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomDUC1O7Xv
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喺Block完大隻仔之後，我成個人突然之間變得好空虛，然後就不由自主咁陷入咗一個好emo嘅狀態。有時就算只係喺街聞到其他人身上有大隻仔嗰陣香水味，我個心都會即刻離一離。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7EnHiOW88
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我覺得可能係因為我個人太得閒，所以當我嘅生活有一個人消失咗，就會好明顯空咗一忽咁。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRt5P7Ng1r
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為咗填補呢種空虛，我決定再搵啲嘢做下。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBijG2BbPol
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我打算將同大隻仔之間發生嘅嘢寫低。一嚟係為咗打發時間，二嚟都係希望藉住寫低所有嘢整理一下自己嘅心情。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93KSkKgLF9
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寫SM故嗰個連登ac係我新開嘅，我本身仲有另一個舊嘅連登ac，都係寫故嘅。我打算將我寫嘅關於大隻仔嘅嘢post喺嗰度。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6HCACsbAo
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之後嘅日子，我交替咁寫SM故同埋關於大隻仔嘅新故。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiERhe0wkWr
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因為SM故有啲甜位都參考咗同大隻仔之間發生嘅事，兩個故變到有啲似，有時寫到我自己都有少少精神錯亂。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxo9vnieQY
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同時我仲有嘗試再喺hmd match其他人，但最後都係發現同佢哋唔啱feel。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeaaPJjGXU
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無論點都好，我嘅生活自此總算回復返平靜。除咗一開頭block完大隻仔嗰幾日同埋寫故嘅時候，我已經好少再諗起佢。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyw1dcaHph1
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只不過呢種生活並唔係維持咗好耐。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbApWszFSQO
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事關除咗連登之外，我之前仲開咗個ig俾讀者follow，我都有喺連登宣傳過個ig。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIanpVnjQYx
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於是某一晚，我個ig收到一個dm。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa9O78NPnK
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係大隻仔。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YXjoTY6c4
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佢話佢見到我寫嘅新故，估到個連登ac係我，再睇埋我呢個ig po啲嘢就confirm係我。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj97e60Q1y
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佢話自己好怕啲人乜都唔講就走咗去。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYEhS4wiK3
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睇到佢dm我嗰陣，我唔知應該點覆好，唔通真係同佢剖白我嘅心路歷程咩。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8Nt3GeC7U
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於是我唯有作個理由。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nwxX0D3co
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「好啦」531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB4Om0vGaM
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