我獨自站在樓下等著。50Please respect copyright.PENANAYCbf2Mt5G0
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現在五點五十分,我知道我可能還要再等上一段時間,緊張的感覺忽大忽小,我能清楚地感受到因為心臟劇烈跳動而產生的不舒服感。50Please respect copyright.PENANA6Qm1iDWDIU
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一隻白色的貓霸佔著我在門口停著的機車,就算已經走到了牠的旁邊,牠依舊自顧自地整理著牠的容貌。看起來等一下也有一場重要的約會在等著牠吧。50Please respect copyright.PENANAp1vwzJLh5r
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門前的小巷道有時會有來往的車,我就獨自站在門口左側,每當有車輛經過時,我總是抱著「這台車經過的瞬間她就會出現在我身後」的想法,然後在內心暗自數數。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyylYlogefp
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遠方來了一輛白色車輛,50Please respect copyright.PENANAeUwixQHoJn
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「一」,50Please respect copyright.PENANAdOjFWZhiW8
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「二」,50Please respect copyright.PENANANP4xXNFPRt
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「三」,50Please respect copyright.PENANAquf4bD0C6M
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轉頭 !50Please respect copyright.PENANA4qFEIcGvxt
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是逐漸消失的車輛跟在路邊散步的老人們,她並沒有出現。50Please respect copyright.PENANAZLuUo9r7Vk
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此時機車上的白貓跳下了坐墊,邁出高雅的步伐跳上隔壁的磚牆。冷風不斷地吹散我的頭髮,我把插在口袋的手拿了出來撥弄一下髮型。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9jA4cXunJ5
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又一輛車經過。50Please respect copyright.PENANA86a7zyNklO
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「一」,50Please respect copyright.PENANA8APnKu4gk8
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「二」,50Please respect copyright.PENANAK5uBA8vZ5D
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我慢慢轉了頭,看著那台車亮著煞車燈,緩緩地轉過巷口。50Please respect copyright.PENANAdT0pl7g1oo
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過了兩秒後,她從汽車消失的地方慢慢走了過來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAdQl6BueZIu
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她往我這個方向看過來,似乎是看到了我,搖了搖手之後便加快她的步伐。我能看見她逐漸清楚的笑臉,我也向她輕輕地揮了揮手。50Please respect copyright.PENANAJQC2Up65mz
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「等很久了嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAtgExd8uUwa
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她用她的招牌大眼看向了我。50Please respect copyright.PENANAN0ZB0x1gpS
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「還好,兩三分鐘而已。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAdQ94ZwsUzB
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她看起來放心似地點了點頭。50Please respect copyright.PENANANS5Li9FguY
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「那...我們走吧?」50Please respect copyright.PENANASMo1yl1M0x
我向著她說,接著摸了一下我的機車後背。50Please respect copyright.PENANAME1L1WV2bq
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「好。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAehz555nV8O
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我從後車廂拿出了一頂白色的安全帽遞給她,她歪著頭把安全帽扣上後便用手撐著跳上了機車。50Please respect copyright.PENANAoDxYL7z2yk
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「好了嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAgSd8s03Jqt
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「恩。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAmu77CCHlJ6
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我們騎在開往凹溪的道路上,來往的車輛並不多,附近都是矮小的鐵皮屋及形成樹蔭的雜樹,路旁的溪流聲隨著冷風伴隨於耳。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPKd27aiiKX
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我望了望後照鏡,看著芯寧小姐被風吹拂的容顏,她正抬頭看著天空,今晚的月光很明亮,就算沒有路燈應該也能照亮這整片黑夜。我們就穿梭在這樣寒冷的冬夜中。50Please respect copyright.PENANAQrFsoBTqeR
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很快地到了目的地,冬天的冷風吹著我的臉直打哆嗦,我取下了安全帽後迅速把手插進了口袋。50Please respect copyright.PENANAlLfr230lEj
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我們的第一次約會正式拉開序幕。50Please respect copyright.PENANArQMg7HhQHd
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我們往老街的方向走去,路旁河道護坡下的小溪靜靜地在夜晚流著,沿路的小樹叢被路燈染上一抹淡黃。50Please respect copyright.PENANAiz1lhfhml0
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她走在我的旁邊,白色的毛帽配上黑色的外衣,整體散發著那種電影女主角會出現的完美氣質,我看著她低著頭一步一步地走著,不知不覺失了神。50Please respect copyright.PENANAglRxr4al7d
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偵測到視線的她望向了我,我把內心所想誠實告訴她。50Please respect copyright.PENANAoiWtMEMbid
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「我覺得妳穿得、穿得很好看。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAXrBnormbvL
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「阿,謝謝。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAgeEwONlqyz
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她靦腆地低下了頭,看起來似乎有一些害羞。50Please respect copyright.PENANAfpgh3P6q9A
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從停車的地方走向車站有一段小路要爬,路旁的木製把手上裝飾著老舊黃燈。她像個小女孩高興地走在前方,而我在後方緊緊跟著。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9m0ljxjqOP
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爬完了階梯,抵達的終點是一座仍在運行的火車站,我們從車站後端慢慢地往前走,車站內部的老舊LED燈忽明忽暗閃爍著,在快速走過之後映入眼簾的是深夜依舊燈火通明的老街。50Please respect copyright.PENANAx5gAJuyKaQ
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「哇。」50Please respect copyright.PENANADZNs3RuvMS
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她看著眼前的美景深深嘆氣著。50Please respect copyright.PENANADUx93pN7sY
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遠處以紅黃燈籠裝飾點亮的山城,到了晚上依舊很多人拿著食物慢慢地穿梭在其中,抬頭看是無比寧靜的黑夜跟滿片閃爍的星空。點點閃爍的天燈火光融入其中,我們彷彿穿越到時間永遠只停留在夜晚的夜之城。50Please respect copyright.PENANADeT1tyGVEd
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我只有小時後跟家人來過幾次,再次見到的美景與兒時記憶的些許不同也讓我不由得在心裡靜靜感慨。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyAVA4L6acH
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「好美。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAK0Fp4RORSM
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她把圍巾稍微往下移了下,能看見她小巧的紅唇,因為剛才的路途讓她氣喘吁吁,呼出來的霧氣與這座山城融合,在這冬夜有一種神秘幽靜的感覺。50Please respect copyright.PENANAciQGIeoSP3
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「你沒來過這裡嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAaBw4Sb3FaL
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「完全沒有。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ou4BJppqF
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這裡對所有人幾乎是童年的回憶,因此我對她的答案感到訝異。50Please respect copyright.PENANAFQwN1azYTy
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寒冷的空氣不斷吹來,她摩擦著她的雙手,而我因為把騎車的厚夾克留在車上,只穿了幾件長袖加上薄外套。我控制不住地顫抖著牙齒。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPoFypwYD7h
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軌道的兩側是即使到了夜晚依舊精神的店家,鐵軌儘管有明文禁止不能進入,但還是能看到非常多人穿梭其中,有牽著父母的小孩;有手拿糖葫蘆的情侶;但更多的是等待天燈緩緩升空的人們。50Please respect copyright.PENANABrFVzm1mql
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就在這時候她看向了我,我為了避免讓她察覺到我很冷,在講話的時候一直都是繃緊肌肉在說話的,但她似乎早就知道了。50Please respect copyright.PENANADtPY9qlFjh
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「你很冷?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAh2Gcwgvnao
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「很明顯嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAdDYvGxrhbj
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「你臉都在發抖了。」50Please respect copyright.PENANALGVXVCHOYA
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我靜靜地沒說話。50Please respect copyright.PENANALJY6ccmOMi
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「跟我來一下。」50Please respect copyright.PENANASPyKEMzQyu
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說完她牽了我的手把我拉向旁邊,那在斑雜的燈光下依舊潔白的雙手摸起來就跟雪一樣,剛碰觸如同白雪般柔雅,牽久後又能感覺到彷彿融化在手心內逐漸發暖的溫柔。我的內心劇烈跳動著。50Please respect copyright.PENANA2QoTRY0fi0
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她把我拉到路旁的樹下,樹枝上裝飾的小燈泡亮著。她眼睛直盯著我,我害羞地把視線移向旁邊。50Please respect copyright.PENANAMuTqe1MHuf
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她把繞在脖子上的圍巾一圈又一圈的解開,閉上眼睛的她像是一位高雅的舞者,接著將圍巾套在了我的脖子上。我能聞得到圍巾上殘留著她的香味,溫暖的感覺從脖子逐漸發散至全身,激烈的心悸逐漸隨著她的笑臉安撫了下來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAj7AIbrr3S1
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此時路旁鐵軌內的人們因為天燈升空而歡呼著。在屋頂上的虎紋貓則在這吵雜的環境中靜靜地理著毛看著這一切。50Please respect copyright.PENANAgGuCeJ3ZAr
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「這樣就暖很多了吧。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAIAYP3VCc1L
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我看著她在燈光下閃爍的容顏。說完她便轉了過去。50Please respect copyright.PENANA7vdUJJ801n
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我圍著她的圍巾靜靜地走在她的身邊,不斷安撫內心的跳動。她則好奇地瞪大眼睛東張西望地看著。50Please respect copyright.PENANA496ejvgqdl
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「啊,你看。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAVb6nAnlUTJ
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她指著猶如星點的天燈,遠處山下杳無人煙,在深夜中的暗綠與霧氣滿布的模樣和這裡熱鬧的街景兩邊形成了一種獨特的對比。從這裡升高的天燈就在那靜靜燃燒著。50Please respect copyright.PENANAy9z0WMmYlF
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「也太美了吧。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA3znmnvaRip
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「對阿。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAZWoBtAQ9Lb
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「你看那邊也有,好多。」50Please respect copyright.PENANACEhPjtBUK5
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她邊說,邊用手指興奮地比著。50Please respect copyright.PENANAbaidaCdZQt
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她比平常看來更有活力,感覺她似乎也有一絲緊張。50Please respect copyright.PENANAkZP3zZoYrc
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「真的就跟星星一樣。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA4nDPofYvdE
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她笑著說道。50Please respect copyright.PENANAwZ0xSDU60y
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我跟她看著同一片景色有完全同樣的感覺。50Please respect copyright.PENANAkqBr8uM4IU
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就這樣我們慢慢地融入了老街的氛圍中,她就像來到糖果屋的小女孩,每個食物都想要嘗試一次。我們吃了豆花,包著炒飯的雞翅,很甜的愛玉......。看到她興奮的樣子讓我在心裡產生一種計劃成功的感覺。50Please respect copyright.PENANAWvIRZic5Wb
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「這個看起來好好吃。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAuuatZ3T20g
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「好甜。」50Please respect copyright.PENANApXRVmU6MfC
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「聞起來好香。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAe2CPuChXby
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她高興地讚嘆每種食物,接著直走進鐵道裏頭,我緊緊地跟著她,原本走在石子上的她跳到了鐵軌上,用走單槓的行走方式走在軌道正上方,我在背後看著她雙手張開怡然自得的樣子,不禁在心裡讚嘆眼前如同畫一般的景色真的很美。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmTFD3v8xxL
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此時她看到前方大排長龍的店。50Please respect copyright.PENANA7MwMNvrWyu
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「臭豆腐?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAwHmZSKYl9A
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「要不要買一份試試看?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAQJgKw3mHrm
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「絕對要。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2Cf7coQcw
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「我在這邊等你。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA1iQ5VigDPD
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說完她就快速地走向排隊的人潮,我則站在後面啃著剛剛沒吃完的包飯雞翅,我看著她付完錢後就站在旁邊盯著熱騰騰的油鍋看,沒等多久就拿著一盤臭豆腐開心地跳了過來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPbGPDSCZQt
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「你不敢吃辣吧,我點了一盤原味的。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA5bkfDa2DJn
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她把臭豆腐跟泡菜一口吞了進去,熱騰騰的炸豆腐使得她不斷哈氣。吐出來的煙都充滿著醬油的香氣。50Please respect copyright.PENANAQlDbZpmpij
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「好好吃!」50Please respect copyright.PENANARXEGZesrPU
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她大聲地讚嘆道。50Please respect copyright.PENANAtlvY8qZtEf
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我看著她真誠的表情,約會到現在仍然順利的進行中,我忍不住在內心莫名感動。50Please respect copyright.PENANAdlbQFddYmI
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不過有一件事情讓我很好奇。我記得我們應該沒有聊過類似的事情。我也用竹籤插起一塊臭豆腐放進了嘴裡,隨後問了她,50Please respect copyright.PENANA7GmFReAA9L
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「你怎麼知道我不敢吃辣?」50Please respect copyright.PENANA6OJwDglcvS
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此時的她正準備吃下下一口。她頓了一下,50Please respect copyright.PENANAPLecVsSnaT
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「嗯…,就覺得你長得就很像不敢吃辣的樣子。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAb4ZOOuiaE9
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她邊咬邊說著。露出一副滿不在意的表情。50Please respect copyright.PENANAxtFKFWBEar
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「......不敢吃辣的人長得是什麼樣子的?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAOtxbnxrWmI
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「大概是…眼睛大大的,稍微自然捲的頭髮,以及會在12度的冬天把自己的外套忘在車上的人?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAloW4BDsVZc
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說完她笑著回頭,我對她擺出無言以對的表情,她並沒有理會我而是抬著頭就繼續向著前方走去,似乎是對自己剛才的回覆感到很滿意。50Please respect copyright.PENANAr0WQwiNo6V
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她端著臭豆腐邊吃邊看著,隨後一家內部有著七彩顏色裝飾的天燈店鋪吸引了她的目光。她迅速離開軌道往店舖方向走去。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9xtGEhaziE
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我看著她在店家的窗前蹲下又站起來,不斷重複著同樣動作,充滿好奇的雙眼在燈光照著的玻璃櫥窗與充滿復古元素的內部裝飾之間打轉,我覺得她就跟貓一樣。
「哇,這個也太漂亮了吧。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAAnGCh96Kyl
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充滿各種顏色及圖案的天燈上有著不同的祝福語,在展示燈的光照下每個似乎真的都充滿了莫大的希望及祝福。50Please respect copyright.PENANAhDrRN4oNnS
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我們就這樣站在天燈店的玻璃櫥窗前。50Please respect copyright.PENANAP8T4SYolN8
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「這個好美。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAfnkGZqNTvJ
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她指了指放在最上層的青藍色天燈,粉紅色的櫻花及天青色的花瓣在看似池塘的背景中靜靜綻放,中間鑲嵌著的亮麗圖案猶如花魁香閨中的華麗紙窗。50Please respect copyright.PENANAh0ZbYmbIht
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我們站在一起看著櫥窗裡的天燈,兩個人離得很近,她身上有股淡淡的香味向我飄來,使我的心跳漸漸加速。50Please respect copyright.PENANAj08rYuC3AN
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「你覺得有哪一個特別想要嗎。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAeVSlle0L8m
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我隨口問了個問題,試圖安撫內心的混亂。50Please respect copyright.PENANAgRz59m9cAN
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「恩......。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAMzYj7cOibS
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她彎著腰,幾乎快把所有樣式的圖案都記在腦海裡了,我看著她苦惱的模樣。50Please respect copyright.PENANAueR8piPoeZ
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「...恩...恩...還是算了。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAs0WskB1yvS
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說完她就看似覺得無趣地離去。50Please respect copyright.PENANAFxHD9hmBjq
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但我看著她直到最後離去前,視線都一直停留在一個畫有花形及月亮圖案的藍色天燈上,而上面的祝福語寫著50Please respect copyright.PENANA9aGomkAPfb
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「結局圓滿 戀人重逢」。
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我們走在老街的後半段,能看到人潮逐漸變少了,我們就這樣愜意地走在空曠的巷道中。冷風吹來,她長揚綹綹的黑髮就像是脫離白紙的五線譜,此時安靜無聲的夜晚在我們歡愉交談的背景中演奏出了溫柔的安眠曲。50Please respect copyright.PENANAQhHNUmWred
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「芯寧小姐喜歡怎麼樣類型的小說呢?」50Please respect copyright.PENANANofxg5WlTk
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此時的她正走在我的身邊,聽到我的問題後她思考了一下。50Please respect copyright.PENANAznkJAMnGc1
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「嗯…雖然路翎和張愛玲的小說我都很喜歡,但最喜歡的還是蕭紅的《小城三月》。」
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《小城三月》我記得是民初作家蕭紅的最後一本短篇小說,故事中的「翠姨」是主角的小姨,原本生得窈窕細緻且天性純樸。卻因是寡婦家的女兒而事事求不得。就在被安排出嫁對象之時她遇上了主角歸國的堂哥,她愛上了他,但她卻選擇將心意埋藏在心底,從沒向任何人訴說。這也導致其終日鬱鬱寡歡而日漸消瘦。所以直到最後仍沒人理解她為何會孤獨的死去,其中甚至包含她最深愛的堂哥。回想起翠姨臨終前終於見到她心心念念的堂哥,她在最後崩潰大哭對堂哥所說的那些話總會讓我有種莫名而起的悲愴感。
說完後她低著頭。50Please respect copyright.PENANAVUOfa5hGUr
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「嗯…還有夏目漱石我也喜歡其中幾本。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAdnEueqG8OW
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聽到夏目漱石四個字從她口中說出,我心中不禁一喜,身為日本近代文學的狂熱者,夏目漱石的作品在下自然不會少讀,我忍不住地接著這個話題繼續追問。50Please respect copyright.PENANAidUGw52qzB
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「芯寧小姐最喜歡夏目漱石的哪一個作品呢?!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAcR4B4R9ACQ
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「大概是《草枕》吧。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAEmfhf2UZCj
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我的身體像被開動了某種開關。50Please respect copyright.PENANAaSQtLUpJ0M
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「我也很喜歡那本!對於身在山林追求忘我所描寫的那種飄渺虛無感和女主角忠於自我不顧外人的美……讀起來都很讓人欲罷不能!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAp55S9DMVm8
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如同找到千年難遇的知音而難掩興奮之情,從《三四郎》到《門》,再從《我是貓》到《心》......。我口沫橫飛地訴說著對每一部作品的感想和我為何深深著迷於夏目漱石,她沒有被我忘乎其形的行為嚇到,反而專心聆聽著,彷彿本來就知道我會做出怎麼樣的反應。
街道兩旁的店家正為打烊做著準備,他們將鍋裡的水倒向門前的溝渠,不忌諱的大聲談論著八卦,接著拉上鐵門。懸吊著的紅色燈籠下有隻白貓正舔舐著牠的腳掌,看起來似乎才剛結束了牠的約會,我們就穿梭在這樣狹窄的巷道中。
回想起我跟她第一次在走回家的路上,她對我所說有關雨天的感想,還有喜歡的都是有些灰暗,深沉的書,這似乎與她開朗樂觀的個性不同。
「…總覺得芯寧小姐意外的是腦子裡面想很多的那種人呢。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA5HzzSdBtJh
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「啊,這是說我心機很重的意思嗎,好過分。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA0gWi0ZRqIn
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她擺出一幅無辜的表情,接著失落的看向地面。
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我連忙搖手否認。
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沒錯,從我跟她的第一次相遇到目前為止,要我將她跟悲慘的「翠姨」做聯結實在是有些強人所難。她給我的感覺比較像是《心》裡面天真純樸,始終不明世事的師母,只是現在卻又多了種《草枕》裡面「那美」那直到最後才可能會顯露出的悲憫之情。50Please respect copyright.PENANARBG0kHuRa0
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「努力不會改變結果喔。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAhhdustvrQA
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她的話打斷了我的思考,我看向她。50Please respect copyright.PENANAHBQpmCGofs
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此時的她直視著前方,晚風將她的瀏海連同髮尾一同吹起,銀蟾將她的肌膚畫的潔白,我看不出此刻她的心情。50Please respect copyright.PENANAuIjHegLsEG
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「我們只能在不知道是誰決定好的道路下不斷向前,不能回頭也不能轉向。若是通往幸福美滿的喜劇,人們會覺得是他們應得的;但若是通往痛苦悽慘的悲劇,人們也只能一邊自嘆著自己命不好,一邊將希望寄託來生。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAC7tMgQ3qtl
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她逐漸向我靠近,我們之間的距離正在急速縮短。50Please respect copyright.PENANANnFQ37sGJ2
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「這才是真正的我喔,討厭了嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANARs0Zk4WSLW
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她正面對著我,我們臉之間的距離大概不超過五毫米,烏黑的瞳孔外清晰的反射著月光,一寸秋水內似乎有我不知道的祕密正暗自掀起波瀾。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyPBwdKYzXw
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但此刻的我並沒有辦法思考這麼多, 因為原本只屬於萬里月上的嫦娥如今近在咫尺,其下凡的仙氣,氣若幽蘭。我如同飄然的騷人,思緒早已飛往無限遠處。
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「…芯寧小姐真的好美。」
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我不經意地脫口而出。50Please respect copyright.PENANAKZgUoeEqAy
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她看著我。50Please respect copyright.PENANAzSBr97RpC2
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「…」50Please respect copyright.PENANAZEZm2Tp3Da
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我看著她。50Please respect copyright.PENANA0LQ3MeBmLN
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我們短暫沉默了一會,我能看見一抹清晰的潤紅從她的臉頰兩側瞬間暈染至耳尖。50Please respect copyright.PENANAULm79LgP3p
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「蛤…蛤?!你在說甚麼啦!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAWnFMjJeEHG
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她激動地把臉別了過去,接著立刻蹲下,看起來想把臉完全藏進雙腿裡。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmC2ZwQj5W1
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「這不算答案,太狡猾了!」50Please respect copyright.PENANA4vMYCRedvp
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她緊緊遮著耳朵,手掌放在因臉朝下而露出來的後腦勺。50Please respect copyright.PENANA6qtG8lEEPr
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「我只是把我的感覺說出來而已。芯寧小姐長得真的很漂亮,外表開朗活潑,但內心又有內斂嫻雅的一面真的很吸引人。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAJDcKpo1CU0
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「你還說! 」50Please respect copyright.PENANADhYmJZ4jps
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她一手護住羞紅的臉,一手在空中胡亂揮舞,彷彿我剛剛說的話語化為惱人的蚊蟲,而她揮舞的手是要將它們趕到無限遠處。50Please respect copyright.PENANAXPdEoy06Pu
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「不,我就是要說,芯寧小姐你真的很美。不管甚麼時候的你,在下著雨的時候、在陽光下的時候;在月下的時候……。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAa4kXDP3Zpn
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她站起身,氣勢猛然的向我緩緩走來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAWRkjenmnjU
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「就連現在抱著頭害羞的時候。都超級可愛,沒有一個男生在見到你之後感想不會是這樣,我……」50Please respect copyright.PENANA4o2yDaoRZH
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在我唾沫四濺、侃侃而談的時候,她已悄無聲息地站在我的面前。50Please respect copyright.PENANAtBkmlCOMdD
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「我叫你…」50Please respect copyright.PENANA2dYMGsSjlS
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她抬起了腿,就這一瞬間我便對剛剛的得意忘形感到後悔,但已經來不及了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAiBWUOCOEoE
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「…不要再說了!!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAecHu8Xm8G1
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鄰近光速的鞭腿往我身下襲來,痛感瞬間從跨下傳遞至全身。一瞬間的暈眩和噁心感使我痛得蹲了下來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAodTLgVQc0B
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「呃!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAczvCuVHiSf
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我痛得發出聲音。50Please respect copyright.PENANA6RIG9O6sK5
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「哼!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAzxTpWgVczL
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她並沒有關心我,而是踩著重重的步伐繼續往前走。50Please respect copyright.PENANAUaWQDypMgr
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「…芯寧小姐,等我一下!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAFyHnoe1cEl
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我忍著劇痛,一瘸一拐地緊跟上去。
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在經歷過幾次真心的道歉之後,笑容逐漸回到她的臉上。50Please respect copyright.PENANAp90Z9YnzI9
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「...芯寧小姐你下手真狠。」50Please respect copyright.PENANASgeemxBf1i
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我的胯下到現在仍隱隱抽痛。50Please respect copyright.PENANADMHXw3vciP
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「那是你太白目,愛捉弄人。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA7MZnnueZ45
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我們越走越遠,燈火通明的老街已離這邊有一段距離了,前方的大斜坡連結著一座吊橋。而那座吊橋似乎就通往著我們剛剛所說的那杳無人煙的秘境。50Please respect copyright.PENANAklZgKrJb4o
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「要不要去那裡走走。」50Please respect copyright.PENANABhoyl1QgOM
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「嗯。」
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她點了頭。50Please respect copyright.PENANAAECvjVorCZ
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走在夜晚的吊橋上有一種獨特的寧靜,對面是一片暗綠跟幾幢低矮的銹紅鐵皮屋,吊橋上並沒有路燈,有的只有夜晚潺潺滾動的溪流,以及在月光照耀下皎潔祕靜的她。她趴在護欄上望著水下,像是在想著甚麼。看著眼前的她,我的內心有種莫名的騷動感,我不得不將心中所想脫口而出。50Please respect copyright.PENANAIU517ivSz9
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「芯寧小姐,我覺得你真的很吸引人。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAARNBwrvPvF
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「你還想再吃一記鞭腿嗎?」
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她依舊俯視著河面,只是語氣兇狠。
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「不,我是真的覺得芯寧小姐很厲害,從第一次見到你到現在,你做的事情總是能帶給身邊的人開心的氛圍。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA48cKp5DHN1
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我忍不住想,只是今天她身邊的人剛好是我,如果她沒有搬來我家附近,如果那晚我沒有跟她搭上同一班車,如果那天沒有下雨,她是不是也沒有跟我說話的理由,而我最終是不是也會因為不敢搭訕就跟她淪為素為相識的陌生人呢。50Please respect copyright.PENANATpfJhihPLX
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「我總是因為猶豫而躊躇不前,所以做任何事情都不會順我的意。我想那天我只是剛好出現在你的身旁,我是因為你幫我撐傘我才能夠認識你。如果那天下雨的時候站在你旁邊的人不是我,你應該也會毫不猶豫的幫助那個人吧。因為那就是芯寧小姐你善良的本性。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAHL36Dl9rPp
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沒錯,我只是非常幸運的在那個時間出現在那裡,想到那時如果站在她身邊的是其他人,那麼芯寧小姐現在約會的對象大概也是那個人吧,想到這裡,我忍不住失落了起來。
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突然的聲音打斷了我的思考。
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「這是不可能的喔。」
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她往橋邊的長椅走去,並示意叫我跟上。
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「什麼意思?」
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我對她的話感到疑惑。看著她坐在長椅上,我也立刻往她旁邊的位置坐下。
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「事實就是這樣,你會在那晚的客運上見到我、會在同一站下車、那天會下雨,而我會來向你搭話,這些都是必然會發生的。」
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我靜靜地沒有說話,在自己努力思考後依然沒有得到像樣的答案,我忍不住向她發問。
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「為什麼?」
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此刻她微笑著直視著我,水潤的圓珠內藏著詭譎神秘的光芒。
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「因為我一直都在看著你。」
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在斑斕的月夜之下,一瞬間她的臉似乎跟某種我記憶深處裡的印象響起共鳴。
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「因為我一直都在看著你。」
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什麼意思?
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「因為我一直都在看著你。」
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好像有在哪裡聽過這句話,我能想起我們因為玩耍弄髒的制服和大笑著的下半臉,雖然看不清她的雙眼,但那個臉並不像是芯寧小姐。
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那個模糊的臉注視著我,我們的臉在極近的距離之下,她輕輕地說出:
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「 因為我一直都在看著你喔。」
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明明應該已經忘記的事情突然又在我腦裡撥放,一瞬間我彷彿又清晰地回到了當時,左右兩邊的座位、四處逃竄的人、震耳欲聾的尖叫聲......。唯獨她的臉是模糊的。胸悶感壓得我喘不過氣。
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「 ...欸?」
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直到臉頰旁有水滴滑過的感覺,我才意識到我正在哭泣。
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「欸?...欸?...對不起!」.
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錯愕的我希望能在失控前踩下煞車,我用手擦拭不斷溢出的眼淚,但鼻內的酸楚和哽咽的感覺讓我知道一切已經到臨界點了,呼吸不到空氣的我痛苦地彎下了腰,當然也有一部分原因是因為不想讓她看到我這狼狽的模樣。
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淚水和鼻涕如泉水般湧出,我控制不住地啜泣。第一次約會就在喜歡的女生哭成這副模樣,任是誰一定都會覺得我是一個奇怪到極點的人吧。撕心裂肺的感覺如同在驚濤駭浪中尋找立足點,缺氧與控制不住身體的劇烈抽動使我痛苦萬分。
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就在這時,我的下巴突然有一股非常溫柔的觸感傳來,是她的手,他將我的頭輕輕往上抬。眼淚使我看不清她的臉和周圍,我只知道那模糊的微笑看起來非常溫柔。她沒說任何一句話,而是靜靜把我的頭抱入她的懷中。她一邊撫摸著我的頭髮,一邊放任淚水沾濕他衣裳。有種奇妙的安心感驟然而生,我就在她的懷裡放聲大哭。
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在放縱眼淚及理智潰堤之後,我的臉龐傳來柔軟觸感,此刻我正躺在她潔白的大腿上。
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「好一點了嗎?」
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她從上方看向我。
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「嗯,對不起。」
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我緩緩起身,並對我剛剛的失態感到抱歉。她一定覺得我很丟臉,我心想著。
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「喔!可是我想聽到的不是這個,我想要的不是你跟我道歉。」
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她看著我,撅著嘴露出一絲不悅的表情。
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「我是因為想聽到你說謝謝才這麼做的。」
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說完後她看著我露出笑容,此刻在我哭腫的眼皮子底下她依然如此美麗。
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「可是我明明給你造成困擾。」
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「我並不覺得啊。」
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「我在你面前哭得一塌糊塗,還把你的衣服弄髒了。」
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我看向她,她的衣服上還有一大片我造成的淚漬。
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「在人面前偶爾展現自己脆弱的一面不是什麼壞事喔。」
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她轉頭望向此刻萬里無雲的夜空,皓月千里的清晰月光照射在她的臉上。她真的又善良又溫柔。
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「我們回去吧!你很累了吧,我們搭車回去也可以。」
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她作勢準備離開吊橋,手上亮起的螢幕似乎是為了查詢最晚的公車時間。
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「芯寧小姐!」
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我大聲叫住她,她似乎被我的聲音嚇到而回頭望向我。
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明明沈重的眼皮已經使我疲憊不堪,甚至我覺得我只要閉上雙眼頃刻間就會睡得不醒人事,但此刻搔癢難耐的內心我再也壓抑不住,世間上意義最為深刻的一句話如脫韁的野馬從我口中說出。
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「我喜歡你!請你跟我交往 ! 」
阿,不小心說出來了,此刻我緊閉雙眼,不敢看她對我突如其來的告白會如何反應。
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...
「哈哈。」
一個如同孩童般純真的笑容從耳邊傳來,但聽來卻不知為何帶著感慨的感覺。我緩緩睜開雙眼。
瞬間大風向我們襲來,能感受的到吊橋有些微晃動。
她用手摀著嘴巴,純白的臉頰泛起紅潤姿色,髮型被大風吹亂的她大聲地笑了出來,純粹無比的燦笑。
「明明剛剛還靠著我的胸部亂哭一通,你這個愛哭鬼還真是不按牌理出牌阿。」
「阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿。」我羞愧地紅著臉,抓著頭懇求著她不要再說下去了。
「但我並不討厭喔,因為你的每一件事情我都想知道。」
這是算喜歡我的意思嗎,我心想著,內心迫不急待地想知道她接下來的答案。
她將髮尾整理至耳朵後端,隨後擺正姿勢。
「但是對不起,……」
一聽到「對不起」的瞬間,我像是被潑了桶冷水,難以言喻的心情使我呆站在原地。
「我也很喜歡你,真的,到你無法想像的那種程度……」
她的眼神看起來真實且誠懇,她用右手緊緊抓住項鍊,我對她的話語前後矛盾感到疑惑。
「…那麼為什麼?」
「原因我不能說,請你等我一段時間,讓我確認一件事情。」
說到這她停頓了一下,像是在思考著什麼。
「我真的很喜歡你,遠比你想像的還要喜歡。」
她突然瞬間激動了起來,隨即似乎是意識到自己的失態她吸了一口氣。
她脖子上的花型墜飾在寧靜的月光下靜靜閃爍。
儘管我內心想問的東西非常多,但恐怕我問了也得不到回覆吧,不過至少我確認了一件事情。就是我跟芯寧小節互相喜歡。
不知道為什麼在她說要我等他時,我想起曾經讀過的散文:
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「我做了這樣的夢,
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我交抱雙臂坐在枕畔,仰臥的女人以平靜的聲調說她就要死了。
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正當我在確認她是否真的會死時,她說:
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「等我死後,請將我埋葬。用巨大的珍珠貝替我挖墓穴。以天上墜落的星星碎片當作我的墓碑。之後請你在墓旁等候。我將回來跟你重逢。」
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我問她幾時才會回來見我。
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「太陽會升起對吧。然後太陽會西洛,然後會再度升起,又再度沉落──就在火紅的太陽這樣日復一日東升西落時──我問你,你等得了嗎? 」
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我默默頷首。女人原本平靜的語氣倏然拔高,
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「請等候我一百年。 」
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她以堅決的語氣說。
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「請在我的墓旁坐等一百年。我一定會回來見你。 」……。」
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剩下的部分我因為太久沒讀而遺忘了,最後那個女生死去了嗎? 如果死去了男生有實現他的諾言嗎? 太多的問題使我腦袋繁雜,我決定不再去想。
「那我必須等待芯寧小姐多久呢? 」
我用忐忑的心情向她問出了問題,她正低頭望向地面。
彼此沉默了一會後。
「聖誕節…」
她抬頭望向我,睜大的雙眼裡看不出一絲謊言。
「聖誕節到的那天,我們就交往吧!」
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