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Chapter 8: Lana Trust47Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNaC4AeUUb
When all else fails, sometimes we can exhaust ourselves by looking at a problem from every conceivable angle for a solution before we recognize we may not know what anything is for. For me, it was through this seeking but not finding that it finally dawned upon my mind, "There must be a better way, there just must be!" For me, the willingness to trust came with the recognition, "Omg, my ego's grab-bag of ideas is empty. Perhaps there is no solution!" It was only then that I realized that when all else fails, try trusting God. Only then did the willingness to trust God became a viable option. Only when my stubborn ego saw there was no choice but to be willing to trust God did my mind become open to other possibilities. Perhaps I don't know what is in my best interest or the best interest of others. Perhaps I'm just not seeing the Truth about this perceived problem. Perhaps I'm not a victim of the world I see. Perhaps I'm not upset for the reason I think. Perhaps I may be wrong about it. Perhaps, I may be wrong about everything. When all else fails, trusting God becomes an acceptable idea. And the whole time the Holy Spirit was there with me, waiting patiently for my call.
I've found that open-mindedness and the determination to see things differently are the preludes to trust. I've learned that trust is an acquired skill. The more I came to trust God, the more He validated my trust, and the easier it became to trust God again, and then again. When all else fails, may have been my starting point in trusting God. Soon after, trusting God became my go-to practice for anything that showed up in my awareness that appeared unloving or problematic. Regardless of the perceived problem or situation, the Holy Spirit is always present with us, patiently waiting on our welcome. God only asks for our trust.
Jesus teaches us in ACIM that the ego is no match for the power and strength of Christ within us. Perhaps it is just a simple question we need to ask ourselves. Do I want the higher energy of Love, or do I want to function from the depths and darkness of fear? When I look within, I can see how every choice and every decision I make is between these two goals. One represents the power of God and the other, well it may validate a belief or a story that I hold as true and dear to me, but how does it make me feel? Regardless of how I perceive what is in front of me, I can recognize the only wise or sane decision is to not choose my weakness, but to choose my strength of Christ.
I've noticed over the years that my peace comes with sane and wise decisions. Where do I look for wisdom and sanity in a world that demonstrates their opposites? I remember Jesus' teaching that true wisdom has nothing to do with good judgment. Wisdom is the relinquishment of judgment. And, as I relinquish my judgments of what I think is right and what is wrong, and when I still my thinking mind, my choice becomes obvious to me. It shows up in my mind with clarity, certainty, and peace. Real wisdom leads me to sane decisions. In fact, real wisdom comes from Love, which represents sanity while fear is delusional. Love always leads me home to God. Truth is sanity and it is very logical. At any moment or in any situation, I can pause for a Holy Instant, look within, and ask myself, "What will bring me peace?"
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