Once I got in my house I went upstairs and got ready since Bondong and I still was getting food but I wanted to change these school clothes. I put on a dark red plaid shirt with jeans and threw my uniform in the washer. Once I was ready I looked back in the mirror and my hair looked the same, I walked out of my house them over to Bondong and knocked on his door. When he opened it he looked confused "I said we were going to get something to eat after school. And I meant it" I stated and his eyes widened even more then motioned me to come in. Once I entered he started walking upstairs to get changed. I sat on the couch in his living room and waited a bit till I heard footsteps coming down the staircase. Bondong was in jeans and black t-shirt with his hair as messy as ever. He actually kinda looked cute...what am I saying? I have Li... I breathed in then we walked outside and to the nearest restaurant so we could eat. In the end we went to the Punjab Grill. Bondong ordered the Keema and I got the Lehsooni Tandoori Chicken. Once our food arrived we started talking, "I never really asked you but...are you and Li dating? I just want to make sure.." Bonding asked and I choked up on my food "Y-yeah.we've been together for 3 years now..." I said and Bonding just looked into my eyes "Is it nice? I mean like to date someone...?" I nodded at his question and he smiled "I wish I has what you guys had, Li is always talking about you." he said and I smiled "How about we get off this topic. Actually you never told me...why were you so tired today?" I asked concerned and he looked to me and just frowned "I couldn't sleep because of what happened it's like all those years never happened and he has no reason to hurt me and now I won't get those comments of him blaming me for my beatings " he said and I got angry then slammed my fork down. "Don't say that about yourself, please. You did nothing wrong. He had no right to hurt you." I said and once I looked him back in the eyes he had tears coming down his cheeks and I instantly got worried. "No no no please don't cry," I said worriedly and then he stood up and walked to me. "You don't know why he hurt me do you?" he said and I just shook my head "I like guys so I'm an outcast but as you see with Li, he doesn't say he is gay to people and he has lots of friends," he stated then I formed my hand in a fist when I heard Li doesn't say the date guys...is he embarrassed by it. I think for a second and when I look back at Bonding his tears were still rolling down his face and I wrapped my arms around him "Please...stop crying...i'll help you with whatever you need...I'm always here for you." I whispered in his ear and I heard more crying then saw the receipt on our table and placed the cash there."Let's go..." I said to him and he nodded then I grabbed his hand,I felt him pull his hand back a little but I kept my grip locked. I pulled him to our neighborhood and went to the park which was empty since it was late. Once we reached there I let go of his hand and he looked at the ground "Why'd you not just bring me home?" he said quietly and I moved his face so he was looking me in the eyes "Because I'm not gonna sit in a restaurant and watch you cry in Front of people. And I'm not gonna leave you to your home just so you can be sad." I said to him and he just looked like he was gonna cry again. "Please...please...don't cry." I said to him and he hugged me tightly "I won't...I wont " he said quietly over and over, we stayed like that for a while. He pulled out from the hug and one last tear fell from his cheek and I wiped it off his cheek than cupped his face with my hand and he blushed slightly "No more crying." I said and he smiled. I looked at him and saw the sunset then pointed it at him "Look" Bondong turned around then his smile got even brighter. "its so beautiful." he said and it truly was...
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"Don't say that about yourself, please. You did nothing wrong. He had no right to hurt you." Xin said to me and my eyes widened...he's so nice. Why does Li have to have such a perfect person he's just a great human being. Not hurt and nothing has affected his life. I wanted to smile but I couldn't so I did what I do best. I cried like a child and got up from my seat, Xin kept telling me not to cry when I explained to him everything...Li doesn't even confess that he's dating Xin and it is kind of enraging Xin can protect Li even in Kuan-Lin came after him. I kept crying more and more then I felt the warmth of Xin's arms and he hugged me then whispered into my ear, "Please... don't cry...i'll help you with whatever you need...I'm always here for you." tears flooded in more and I hugged him tighter. I pulled away from the hug and tried to leave till I felt Xin wrap his hand around mine, please let go. I tried to resist but Xin intertwined his fingers with mine then pulled me along.Every time I tried to let go of his hand then he would tighten his grip, caring...that's really what he was I wanted to smile again but it wouldn't happen. I closed my eyes while he was pulling me and I felt the warmth from his hand leave mine and our walk came to a halt then I opened my eyes and faced my head to the ground"Whyd you not bring me home?" I asked and be placed his hand on my chin and pushed my face up so I could look him in his icy blue eyes. He explained to me then I felt more tears coming and I hugged him tightly, he told me not to c...I wont...i wont...i wont...i won't. I pulled out from the hug then he cupped my face in his hands and I felt time stop. What is he doing? In the end you are my end I know it. Why can't I have you? Please just resume and be with me... "No more crying," he said and I smiled. "Look" he uncapped my face then turned my body around and there was a captivating sunset... I could watch it together I felt safe while watching it... Maybe because he was here. I looked back to Xin and the colors of the sunset came off of his eyes and he looked enchanting. I looked back quickly at the sunset once I saw that Xin was looking back down. Once the sunset I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked around to Xin who seemed a lot more tired than before...am I that much of handful. I saw his eyes closed and he stumbled then I ran to his side "Hey....hey...you okay?" I asked quietly and he didn't answer. I put his arm on my shoulder so I could withhold his weight, he's actually light but I don't want him falling. I reached Xin's house and the door was locked...whyyyy, I walked to my house then opened the door. "You can sleep on the co-" I felt a push on my body and I fell on my floor, wasn't even the worst part about it. I looked down and saw Xin passed out and I felt so bad...did he hold in all of his sleep just so he could help me. "Li..." I heard him mumble and I frowned...i pushed his body off mine the best I could want he was facing the roof now. When he was flipped over I saw his face. I stood up then looked at Xin and he was sleeping peacefully on the floor, I walked to my room since I didn't want to wake him up when trying to move him to my couch. Once I got to my room my face planted on my pillow and drifted off into a dream...I was at the park again, sun setting but this time Xin was in front of me. He turned around and took my hand...just for a couple of seconds I felt like I was in heaven till another person showed up behind Xin "Xin~ We gotta go" it was Li's voice then the warmth from his hands left mine and he was with Li...Li doesn't deserve him.
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