"Will you be able to find your way out?"
"Totes."
"Alright. See ya later."
I gave my sorta crush/colleague a hug goodbye then watched him walk down the hallway of the second floor of the Tasuke Apartments in Japan. I smiled then turned and walked back into my apartment. I closed the door behind me then walked through the neat apartment till I reached my room and walked in. I went up to my bed and started to straighten it when my roommate/best friend Trent walked in and pulled up the chair from my desk to sit in. He sat in it the cowboy way and faced me.
"Soo...." He finally said. "Is that your boyfriend?" He asked.
My eyes widen and I collapsed onto the floor by my bed, burying my face into the sheets.
"N-no!" I quickly said as I looked at Trent.
Trent smiled softly. I've been best friends with Trent since we were in middle school. We were the geeks of the school. We both loved anime and manga and also anything that deals with film. That's why last year, when we graduated high school together, we both decided to attend a film school in Japan. Trent is really understanding and not judgmental about anything. He has black hair and soft brown eyes. He's pretty cute in my opinion but I only think of Trent as a friend. Besides, he's not into guys anyways.
"Sorry, haha." Trent continued. "It's fine with me if you're gay, though. I know some guys are big assholes and flip their shits about LGBT roomies." He said softly.
Yeah. That's another thing. I never really came out and told Trent about my sexuality. Of course I know Trent is too smart to buy me saying, "I'm straight!" But still, it's a little nerve-wracking all the same. Even though Trent isn't judgmental and will still be friends with me despite who I like, it's a little awkward to just suddenly talk about things like this with him.
I sighed. "Ah. Well, i'm not gay exactly..." Don't worry. I'm not claiming i'm straight either.
I watched Trent's expression. He raised one of his eyebrows. "Are you bi then?" He asked.
"No. I'm Asexual but i'm romantically attracted to men exclusively." I replied softly.
I could feel my heart pounding against my chest. This is why I don't like talking about my sexuality. When I was younger, I've decided that i'm asexual. I know you must be thinking, "Asexuality isn't real! It deals with plants!" Yeah. That's what I thought too until I looked it up. I wasn't sure what it was called when you're not sexually attracted to either gender so the next best thing was the internet and guess what? It was called Asexual. I thought, how? Plants aren't sexual. But, I've thought about it and thought about it and I just decided that maybe i'm just 'asexual'. I didn't like the word because if someone asked me and I told them i'm asexual, they'll get confused and start asking me all these questions. Too much trouble, i'll say.
I watched Trent's expression and could see he was a bit confused. See what I mean about not wanting to discuss it with anyone? I would love to just tell people, "Hey, i'm bisexual." or even gay but i'm not. I'm not attracted to either and yet...i'm attracted to guys?
"So...is Asexual like gay without the gay sex?" He finally asked me.
I sighed and buried my face into my hands. "I...yes...but also no? I dunno."
Then I heard Trent chuckle. I pulled my face from my hands and looked at him, resting my head on my bed.
"Thanks for laughing at my dismay." I said, pouting.
Trent smiled. "Sorry. It's just funny how much it doesn't make sense."
I shrugged. "I don't know either. I just know on one hand, i'm not attracted to either, sexually, but I like men."
"So...you're romantically attracted to men but not sexually?" Trent asked.
I slowly nodded. "Yeah? I guess? If that makes any bit of sense." I sighed.
Trent smiled. "Well, it makes more sense than saying, 'i'm not sexually attracted to men but on the flipside, I am'."
I nodded just as I heard someone knocking on the door. I blinked my eyes as both me and Trent looked at each other.
"That can't be Allen. I don't think he has left anything here." I said then stood up and walked out of my room.
I walked up to the front door and opened it right up to see a completely unfamiliar guy. And a cute guy at that.
The cute guy smiled softly as his blue eyes twinkled.
"Hey, i'm Darren. I'm your new next door neighbor." He spoke.
"Hey, Ren. Who's at the door?" I heard Trent say behind me as he walked up to the door.
"Oh. Hello."
Darren smiled at the both of us and I just stood there, frozen, my eyes stuck on staring at him.
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