I woke the next morning on the living room couch, my head nestled into the crook of Christian’s neck. He smelled of sweat and boy, and as I exhaled, I shook my head. I couldn’t do this now, think about him this way. It wasn’t right.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnt2ptQXOo
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Slowly, he shifted and drew his arms around my body, pulling me closer so that my nose touched the pulse of his neck. I tried to untangle his arms when he cracked one, groggy, hazel eye open. He smiled lazily and blinked.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVaCDYL8In
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“You’re leaving?” he asked, frowning.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eLgrrPoaG
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“It’s morning,” I said. “Plus it’s my house and my mom should be getting up soon.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBeHXUxMqP
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“Kendall.” Christian’s voice was calm. “What’s wrong with your mom?”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgt9s5FaWn
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I glanced behind my shoulder at him; he was sitting up and looking at me with his hair hanging in his eyes. I shook my head and wrapped my fingers in my hair, determined not to pull it out under the circumstances.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLs2ns6w37m
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“Nothing’s wrong with her,” I said. “Why would you think that?”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx61TKt9Cm
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He stared at me, his lip twitching slightly. “Please. I’m not stupid. You could have called if you needed a place to stay.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWJp2EB7bX
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“This is my home,” I replied, my fingers itching to touch him. “I have to stay here, to help my mom. You’d do the same for yours.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUm1Akfva2
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He nodded. “I would.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuk3cSI47B
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What he was going to say was, I would if I had one393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbX4XmlfFfs
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Christian’s mom died in a car accident a few years ago, leaving him and his father to fend for themselves. All of this had been revealed the first night I met Christian, at a party over the summer. I had been sitting by myself and he had taken it upon himself to come over and talk to me.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPblUfFe3c
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We had been inseparable since that night, when he asked for my number, and we’d constantly texted after that. I never told him about my dad, or my mom and her drinking problem, and it was supposed to stay that way, at least for awhile.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMWyi8bUpJ
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“I have to go to a new doctor,” I said into the silence. I wondered if he even cared about that, or if he thought I was crazy for even going. “My mom said she made an appointment today.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3qzPDxsh0
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“I didn’t know you were seeing a therapist,” he said softly. The couch shifted as he moved off of it and crouched in front of me, reaching to take my hands. “I’ll go with you, if you want. I know it’s scary when you’re doing something new.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBjvOZau0N
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I smiled slightly and leaned my head against his shoulder. “Thank you,” I whispered. I lifted my head to look into his face, my voice tightening from what I was about to say. “There are things about me that you don’t know, that no one knows, and if you come with me, you’re going to hear all of it.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6m3RRhkC8
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“I don’t care,” he said, shaking his head. “I want to help.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fDOVInCOl
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I sighed, wondering how he would see me after this day, if he would even want to see me again. I tried not to think about that as we walked out onto the porch, his hand on the small of my back.393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7VNvMvfVX
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“It will be okay,” he said. “I promise.”393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgRjk0WXtH
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When I turned to tell him I knew it would, that I’d be okay because I had a good friend with me, he bent his head and kissed me. 393Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8xANSuxeI
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